Hell_Fighter
League Member
- Joined
- Jan 1, 2000
- Messages
- 597
- Points
- 0
- Age
- 49
- Location
- Springfield, Missouri
- Website
- www.myspace.com
Hello fellow GXW handlers and execs:
It is I, Patrick Shutt. Handler of Hellfighter, True Living Colors, and Twin Phoenix. In the past, I always came on these boards and presented myself openly, putting myself on the spot to comments and notes hoping to be better. I realize now that was a mistake. In the end it hurt me and my rping abilities. I was a fool. During this past year, I believe that I have offended and hurt the lot of you. This has been a very roller coster year for me, and on many occasions I almost thought about quitting. To some of you, I probably be doing you a favor. I can understand how I wasn't liked at the beginning of last year, but through circumstances I made things worse. I take full responsibility for each and every one of my actions and I hope only myself to blame. I am sure that I only confirmed to you your thoughts that I am a failed handler handling failed characters. Well I like to think that before we fly we must first fall a few times. Well I hit rock bottom on more than one occasions. I screwed up.
I start this out by asking for forgivness to everyone who attempted to help me. I guess I was frustrated because nobody helped me three years ago when I needed the help. (I.E. When I was just starting out), so now when I had a fairly decent handle on rping, all of a sudden I find out just how bad "I suck". Fine I suck, I'm a terrible rper, is that what you all wanted to hear? Well you heard it, but this isn't about me, it's about you. This is about me admitting that I was wrong and asking for forgiveness for the things I did. I screwed up, please forgive me, and give me another chance. I will do you all proud.
These are some true life lessons that I have learned over the past year that I believe will help me to be a better person let alone a better rper.
1) Never openly put myself on the boards hoping to positive constructive feedback. It almost never happens like that, and in the end it made me change my entire motives for why I rp in the first place. I went from rping for fun to rping for everyone's approval. This is just a game and nothing more. My demotion and decent of two of my core characters never would of happened had I kept my mouth shut. I was foolish to seek the advice of others. That was wrong of me, and I ask forgiveness for the people that felt burdened by me. Please forgive me and give me another chance, I will do you proud this next year.
2) Never compromise the foundation of your characters. Take it from me. Even though I was attempting to do everything to make my character ready for a stable that never happened. I still should of never lowered him. It devalues him, and makes him even more less than a character than he already is. I thought by turning my character heel would get him accepted. I guess it goes to show that not every character is a true heel or whatever. I should of stayed with the essense of what made my character unique and different.
3) Remain consistance with your characters. Another something that I didn't do. I made HellFighter for the sole purpose that he could never be a heel, but I turned my back on that one standard. Well I paid the price and look what happened because of it. I can only hope that I can get him back to what he once was...if not better.
4) Never admit or show that you are giving up in a rp battle. Even when it appears as if you did lose, don't give up. I learned this the hard way which lead to everything else.
5) Do your best to pay attention to detail. You might run into some nice people who sees passed the errors as long as the rp tells a good story, then you run into the "Resident dicks of the fed" who think other wise. Just try to pay attention to detail. Those are the guys who love to pick apart an rp from the tiny screwup to the character flaw. I learned this the hard way. I just hope it isn't too late for me. Chances are it is, but what do I know? Go figure, nobody's perfect.
6) Don't strive to be better, not just in efedding, but in life to because of everybody else, do it for yourself. Another lesson that I learned the hard way this passed year.
Well these are just some of the many lessons that I have learned during this passed year. I am trying not to start controversy. I speak from experience on these things. I do want to thank all those who attempted to help me. I know I was quite the burden to say the least. Now you all look at me like I am a hopeless cause, but I hope that you all can find it in your hearts to not only forgive me, but also to believe in me. Well I guess I have said more than enough, I must be going for now, but I will talk to you again later. Stick a fork in me...I'm done.
Sincerely,
God Bless,
Patrick M. Shutt
It is I, Patrick Shutt. Handler of Hellfighter, True Living Colors, and Twin Phoenix. In the past, I always came on these boards and presented myself openly, putting myself on the spot to comments and notes hoping to be better. I realize now that was a mistake. In the end it hurt me and my rping abilities. I was a fool. During this past year, I believe that I have offended and hurt the lot of you. This has been a very roller coster year for me, and on many occasions I almost thought about quitting. To some of you, I probably be doing you a favor. I can understand how I wasn't liked at the beginning of last year, but through circumstances I made things worse. I take full responsibility for each and every one of my actions and I hope only myself to blame. I am sure that I only confirmed to you your thoughts that I am a failed handler handling failed characters. Well I like to think that before we fly we must first fall a few times. Well I hit rock bottom on more than one occasions. I screwed up.
I start this out by asking for forgivness to everyone who attempted to help me. I guess I was frustrated because nobody helped me three years ago when I needed the help. (I.E. When I was just starting out), so now when I had a fairly decent handle on rping, all of a sudden I find out just how bad "I suck". Fine I suck, I'm a terrible rper, is that what you all wanted to hear? Well you heard it, but this isn't about me, it's about you. This is about me admitting that I was wrong and asking for forgiveness for the things I did. I screwed up, please forgive me, and give me another chance. I will do you all proud.
These are some true life lessons that I have learned over the past year that I believe will help me to be a better person let alone a better rper.
1) Never openly put myself on the boards hoping to positive constructive feedback. It almost never happens like that, and in the end it made me change my entire motives for why I rp in the first place. I went from rping for fun to rping for everyone's approval. This is just a game and nothing more. My demotion and decent of two of my core characters never would of happened had I kept my mouth shut. I was foolish to seek the advice of others. That was wrong of me, and I ask forgiveness for the people that felt burdened by me. Please forgive me and give me another chance, I will do you proud this next year.
2) Never compromise the foundation of your characters. Take it from me. Even though I was attempting to do everything to make my character ready for a stable that never happened. I still should of never lowered him. It devalues him, and makes him even more less than a character than he already is. I thought by turning my character heel would get him accepted. I guess it goes to show that not every character is a true heel or whatever. I should of stayed with the essense of what made my character unique and different.
3) Remain consistance with your characters. Another something that I didn't do. I made HellFighter for the sole purpose that he could never be a heel, but I turned my back on that one standard. Well I paid the price and look what happened because of it. I can only hope that I can get him back to what he once was...if not better.
4) Never admit or show that you are giving up in a rp battle. Even when it appears as if you did lose, don't give up. I learned this the hard way which lead to everything else.
5) Do your best to pay attention to detail. You might run into some nice people who sees passed the errors as long as the rp tells a good story, then you run into the "Resident dicks of the fed" who think other wise. Just try to pay attention to detail. Those are the guys who love to pick apart an rp from the tiny screwup to the character flaw. I learned this the hard way. I just hope it isn't too late for me. Chances are it is, but what do I know? Go figure, nobody's perfect.
6) Don't strive to be better, not just in efedding, but in life to because of everybody else, do it for yourself. Another lesson that I learned the hard way this passed year.
Well these are just some of the many lessons that I have learned during this passed year. I am trying not to start controversy. I speak from experience on these things. I do want to thank all those who attempted to help me. I know I was quite the burden to say the least. Now you all look at me like I am a hopeless cause, but I hope that you all can find it in your hearts to not only forgive me, but also to believe in me. Well I guess I have said more than enough, I must be going for now, but I will talk to you again later. Stick a fork in me...I'm done.
Sincerely,
God Bless,
Patrick M. Shutt