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"You're a failure. No one is expecting you to ever be World champ again." [I know. I thought to himself.] "Just like JWF, and BLWA. When you get nervous, you quit. Look at GCW, you've lost three straight." [I know. I thought to myself, again.] [I continued to stare at myself in the mirror, my reflection speaking to me condescendingly.] "Both your foe's are on fire, and your in a slump. This time, you're the underdog." [No, no. I laughed.] "I know what losing is like now." [I said, confidence in my eyes and voice. I forget how dangerous I am.] [Dangerous. I like that] --She matters when everything is meaningless.-- [I just find life utterly ironic, ya know? First off I see that my father was an asshole but in reality he was trying to make me a better person. The talk my mother had with me the other day really opened my eyes. It taught me a few things. Yes, even Johnny Stylez in a Myst of a three match skid can learn a few things. I mean, am I still angry at my father? Well, yeah, because at the end of the day he did what he did. I suppose it was just a gift and a curse over everything else. I guess I shouldn’t have been so mean. I mean, he didn’t even come to my damn wedding man. You know how that made me feel?] [Like shit.] Jenny: “You alright?” [I hear from the other side of the living room and I see Jenny in a red shirt and short shorts. After all, it is 11:30 at night. I don’t expect her to be looking fabulous.] “I’ll be alright Jen. I’m fine.” Jenny: “No you’re not, John. Knowing you, you’d be upstairs with your arm wrapped around your wife” [she notes with her hand rested on her hip. She sways her way over to me and sits down next to me.] Jenny: “Dad gettin’ to ya?” “Nah. I’m fine Jen. I mean it” [I say and look away from her. I know she doesn’t believe it but I’m going to hold this front for as long as I possibly can.] Jenny: “Did mom finally get you to understand why you and dad never talked?” “You knew?” [I ask and she simply nods her head.] Jenny: “Mom told me the other day, I think it was right before you got here. Maybe a day before. She told me how dad did what he did for a reason. A reason only you could understand. Do you understand it now?” [She asks and I place my hand on her knee. Her face connects with mine and I just smile.] “Yeah, I do. I understand perfectly” [I reply and I wipe my eye before the tear falls.] Jenny: “Oh no. My baby brother isn’t crying now. I’m only allowed to do that!” [She jokes and we share a laugh. Jen was always the one who understood me the most. She always got me when Dad, James, or Mom didn’t. Hell, she was the one who taught me everything I know about women.] “Yeah, sure. I won’t. Hey what is going on with you and Erik? I assume you didn’t get everything worked out?” [I ask because they were in the middle of a huge fight for him cheating on her. She was trying to forgive him but he said he didn’t love her anymore.] Jenny: “No, John. We’re in the middle of our divorce but he could have been here for support, you know what I mean? Look at me, John. Thirty three years old and I don’t even have a child” [She says and I can see her eyes start to tear up again.] Jenny: “I mean, I look and I see James who is having problems and I think ‘Well, I’m not the only one’ and then I see you and Sam walk in all happy and I just wish I had that. I just wish I was loved.” “Jen, don’t say you aren’t loved. Everyone in this family loves you. Sam is always talking about how she had your legs” [I say to break the tension and she smiles while tears run down her face. I move my finger down her cheek and I smile.] “You need more sleep than I do. Just go get some rest. We have a big day tomorrow. You have to be strong for mom, okay?” Jenny: “Yeah, I know. Good night Johnny” [She says and I give her a big hug. She was always someone who I really cared about. She goes upstairs and I get up off the couch and pass a picture of my father and I on a fishing trip. I just smile and run my fingers over his face and walk away.] [Tomorrow is a big day.] She doesn't see her beauty. -------------------------- "Intelligence." "It’s something I have over everyone else. It’s something I’ve boasted that I have over and over again. Why? Well, when I was facing Troy last week inside a tag-team match I used it. He called me a bitch but both Tyson and I eXposed him as a Bitch. If you’re so good Troy, you should have seen Tyson making what is the smartest business move he ever made. If you were the Oh so great champion as you claim, you should have been able to destroy him and finish me off. But you can’t. You never will be near my ability or my talent." "Let’s get one thing right. I didn’t tell my fans anything. I don’t HAVE fans. I have enemies and I have people who want to slit my throat. Welcome to that club, Troy. Let me give you a tour of The Visual Orgasm. This is my face and this is my middle finger. Any questions?" "Good." "Enough about you Champ, This week is going to be an even bigger massacre." "Who am I facing? Well, one of the two seems to be on that respect tip, wouldn't be surprised to hear that he ‘has no problems with me’. It’s someone who, if I didn’t know any better, was gay for Johnny Stylez. It’s also the person who at one time held the most worthless championship in this business." "Kid Cocky" "Tell me, Kid, how did it feel to be a worthless TV champion? Did it give you a sense of power? Did it make you feel untouchable? Did it make you seem like you have a shred of talent? Believe me, Kid, you’re not fooling anyone. You’re definitely not fooling me." "I know you’re absolute garbage." "What you fail to realize Kid, is in the GCW you're Either you’re on the side with Sex and Violence or you’re on the side with the dead. And, sorry, but there are only two slots open for Sex and Violence: The Czar and the World Leader. So if you’re not one of those, do you know where you belong? I’ll wait for your blunt smoke to clear so you can see all the dead bodies resting between you and me. Then you can truly look into the face of a real champion. You can truly look into the eyes of a man who even with out the world championship strap is still headlining each and every Retribution!" "Kid, what you’re going against isn’t anyone in the mid card you’re used to. This isn’t the kind of match where you walk in and think you’re going to win. This isn’t the kind of competitor who will just let you mow over them. You know what this is? This is death. This is the black plague. This… is THE LIVING LEGEND. Are you ready for this Kid? You can grasp onto your freedom but in a dictatorship you have no freedom. You can hold that freedom close to your heart before our match but when you enter that ring all your freedoms are gone. They become my freedoms and I’ll do whatever I wish with them. I’ll stop them to the ground, throw them around the ring, and even eat them. Your freedoms no longer exist in reality." "That is where you will fail." See, Kid, you live in the place below me. That place consists of people who think they can run free. The people think that their lives are perfect but there are two people sitting on a perch casting a dark shadow over them. One is a man who would kill your wife without thinking and the other is a man who will kill you and set you next to your wife. See, Kid, we’re vicious. We’re malicious. We’re evil. So as we look down on you thinking you have your ‘freedom’ the two of us know the reality. We know that if you ever saw the faces of the dictators your freedoms would be gone. So what do you do?" "You twist your freedom because you know it’s limited." "We’ve seen this twist of ‘power’. And instead of Kid going to end that freedom you throw around so loosely I am going to deal with it myself. I really didn’t want to face the likes of you because, let’s face it, compared to me you’re scum. You’re just another peasant trying to create a buzz and get attention. Well, Kid, you caught my attention. You’re going to be saying, after you bleed from the mouth, that you should have never gotten my attention. You’ll wish you still had the freedom to twist your false reality. You’ll reach out for it but I will be there stepping on your fingers and breaking them with the slightest of pressure. Then, tell me Kid, will it be so easy then? Will it be easy to witness your freedom being destroyed? Will it be easy to stomach the fact that in reality the only people walking out under their own volition will be the villains?" "Will it be easy to accept defeat?" "So keep that little detail in the back of your head, Kid. Keep the fact that when you enter the ring with me you’re facing the Czar. Keep the fact that after the match you’ll be lying on your back the victim of the brutal gunshot wound to the head. I’ll put the gun right to your temple and put it through your skull. The blood will squirt from both sides and land on my face. I’ll find it… amusing, really. I’m a sick bastard Kid. That’s why I’m unstoppable. I don’t have remorse when it comes to what I do. I have no remorse when it comes to laying out the bodies. I have no remorse taking the freedom from the peasants. You know what I do to people trying to express their freedoms? I exterminate them." "Call it The Final Solution." "So don’t try and tell me you appreciate me in this business. Because Respect is a word thrown around way loosely. Almost as much as the word ‘hero’. Try and be the hero, Kid, and the villains will prove you wrong. You and everyone in the locker room can riot against me but what good is that going to do in a dictatorship?" "Absolutely nothing." "We find it amusing that everyone is trying to step up against the dictators. We find it hilarious that people are starting to gather to defeat evil. All the peasants are having meetings and discussing how they’re going to try and bring us down. They use some logic like ‘We’ve beaten them before so we can beat them again,” but this isn’t the same Sex and Violence you’re used to. We’ve grown to the pinnacle of power and we’ve grown to immortality. If the Highlander taught you anything is you can’t kill the immortal without chopping off its head." "I’ll be damned if you even get that close, Kid." "So proclaim you’re the hero. Proclaim you’re going to be the one to stop The Living Legend just like everyone else says. Three losses later I'm still standing tall! Everyone who stepped up claimed they well stop me grow, but failed in doing so! If they could stop me then why haven’t they? You all talk a big game but when you’re in the ring you all freeze, especially you Kid, I've seen you in Big chance matches, I watched as You and Goodman chocked at a chance to gain tag-team glory. I've seen the panic on your face when there is a golden opportunity in front of you. You almost always stutter step and if you stutter step against me I well take advantage of it. You slow down while I speed up. You’re two steps behind me and then I’ll do it again like Kid backwards. I’ll be the Kid your mom warned you about. I’ll be your gift, your curse, your excellence, and your execution. You’ll see why they call me The Living Legend. You’ll see why I am the uncrowned GCW World Champion. In the end, Kid, you might have your freedom but in reality your freedoms mean nothing. Then I will throw your deceased body over the cliff and show all the peasants what will happen when you try and be the hero against the villains. You will be the perfect example." "And it will be oh-so easy." --REVENGE-- "So Rampart this is round two, my chance at redemption, My chance to get that first lose back right?" "What the hell do I care about you handing me my first lost here? Were did that win propell you to? Mid card states, where is the lost sent me to the World Championship!" "I'll say I made out the better in that one" "What's one lose when I've been on the losing streak of a lifetime, and I still know you aren't at the level I'm at. Bro, you're not half as good as you think. You've been a decent threat in the Tag-team world. Congratulations, that title sucks. You aren't allowed to compete for a true title. You can't be all about the World title, because you'd be a wasted slot." "You'd be a wasted challenger." "See, even in the worst skid in my professional stint, I’m still one of the greatest things here in GCW. Fuck, I’m one of the greatest things to touch the face of the earth. You, you fucking schmuck, are shit my friend. You think you deserve to be up in the main events, you think this Retribution should actually be a main event. Fuck that, you will NEVER be in a main event. You won't be the reason why people come to the arena. I will be, and that is truth." "Hell I don't even know why I have to go through this shit..." "Where's my rematch clause?" "Yes, MY REMATCH. Fuck Regins, Fuck R2R, and Fuck Troy. That is my title, and I'm coming back to get it. I know I seem like the joke now, with my losing streak building up, but I can promise one thing. After I'm done destroying Rampant and Kid Cock Sucker, I'll see you at summerslam Troy. I'll show you what disappointment feels like" "But that's all for another time, another place. That's for SummerSlam, when I get back MY title." "You see Derek, you're seeing a Johnny Stylez you've never encountered. You've seen me at my worst, you've seen me as a shard of what I once was. I was something amazing, running GCW since the first day I came here" "But I lost it." "I've been looking for that determination, and drive for so long, my mind running blank. That illustrious light I was following seemed to dim, leaving me in the darkness and cold." "I can relive those days." "I don't need to look through an old picture album to try to psyche myself up for this. I don't need pictures of me with the World title. I need to look at you and know you're my enemy. I've been standing on the edge of GCW, teetering between failure and success. Fuck, I watched myself hanging on to that edge with my hands, my grip slowly loosening." "But there WAS something I was missing." "It was that push to be better. I needed to experience defeat to need to win again." "I'm sure you doubted I'd show up for this rematch at my best, letting you walk all over my name. But to be honest, I'm tired of losing. I'm tired of being laughed at when I lose to guys like Alexander Regins. I was so used to being the best, I thought I was untouchable." "You think I'm going to continue to allow myself this downfall? No, I am going to be the man to finally get that bit of revenge and get back on the winning side of things. Let you know what it's like to face the REAL Johnny Stylez." "God damn, it's great." "I've got that push and drive, I'm now David against Goliath. It's amazing how the tables have turned so fast, but it's life. I've got a group of men and women behind me who can vouch I'm great, as I can do the same for them. I'm Sex and Violence, and a former World Champion. Be ready Derek, for what you're about to witness." "This is the rebirth of Johnny Stylez." "Time to cross you off this list I've began to build up. Just so I can prove, once again, why I'm Legendary." "I've got a reason to succeed." "I'm regaining my thrown and crown." --FIN-- |