Time, something we all cherish but never realize how much we need of it until it is shortened. Time is something I may not have a lot of. Death is inevitable for everyone but time, time is something that you need to live. I will die some day but my time is not at its end yet. I am still going to fight it. I shall not die before the hour glass tat is my life is empty. Time is what I am. It is all I need. I have a child, a wife and everything I could dream of, I can only hope that I am graced with the gift from god. He has helped me when Carmen almost died. He helped we with Alexandria. He helped me with Jalie and Seth kept them safe, not it is my turn. Please, give me more time.
The day was bright and the sun was shining. So many times people forget what a sun rises represents. The rising of a new and beginning of a new day. The soft sound of a water fall was in the background as Cody Carson watched the sun rises from the roof of his house. The water fall was no water fall at all, but the sprinkler systems kicking on and hitting together. It wasn’t parricide but it was his home and it was his life. He smiled and looked down at the ground below him. Carmen was still sleeping and Alexandria had, for the first time slept through four in the morning. Just him, only him. The only person alive this early it seemed. How odd it felt to be the only one awake, the only one that really could enjoy the view. He smiled and started to shimmy down to the edge of the roof top. Carmen had told him to go do something today, but he couldn’t help but want to see her again. This condition with his heart was bad, he could feel it and every now and then the pain intensified. It didn’t bother him, he was use to the pain. He stopped at the edge and dangled his legs down nearly touching the roof of the front porch. What would happen if he did die? How could he live with himself if Carmen was left alone. He quickly dismissed that thought and smiled. “Come on Cody, you’re a fighter.” he told himself and slid down onto the balconies roof. He moved to the edge of that and jumped off , landing on his toes he tucked and rolled on grass. The dew on the ground made his shirt get wet and his feet slip out from under him. He stood up and walked into the house.
The warm air from inside attacked his freshly cooled skin and he had to take a few breathes just to get use to the heat in the house. He moved quickly to the kitchen and opened the fridge. Inside was a jug of milk and the bunt remains of last nights supper. At that moment Cody knew what he was going to do today. He was going to go shopping for food. He pulled out the milk and opened the top taking a swig, and then spitting it into the sink in chunks. He shivered and dumped the only milk out. He shook his head and slammed the milk jug down. He moved up to the stairs leading up to the second floor. As he walked up them, skipping every stair that creaked, he made his way into his room. Carmen was sleeping, spread eagle on the bed with her mouth open and a soft snoring coming from her. Cody leaned in the door way and smiled at her. “I Love you, baby.” Cody started to move into the room but then his head whipped around to the room next to him. Little Alexandria had started to squirm and fuss. Cody moved quickly to her side and picked her up. She nuzzled into his neck and for the first time in a long time Cody realized he was a lucky man. He rocked her and started to hum to her like he always did. She was back to sleep in only a few minutes. Cody smiled and laid her back down onto her bed. He moved to her dresser and got her out some clothes. Cody quickly dressed his daughter and quickly grabbed her car seat carrier, she was still sleeping as he put her into it and moved down the stairs.
Down stairs he set her down on the hardwood floor and grabbed a pen and an old envelope, he quickly wrote a note to Carmen and then grabbed Ally. He moved to the door and opened it. He closed it and locked it slowly and quietly, he quickly moved to the black truck and strapped Ally into the front seat the way that you are suppose to. HE smiled and then jumped into the truck. He started the engine and let it warm up for a few minutes then reversed out of the drive way and started off.
\.|Dos|./
Cody had Ally in the child part of the cart and was laughing and making faces at her. She giggles and yelled and Cody simply smile. He looked at his watch and seen that it was eight oh five. He smiled and started to grab more stuff tossing milk and, juice and cheese into the half full cart. He smiled and turned the corner quickly much to the delight of his daughter we giggled and started to fall to the side. “Do you think mommy would get mad if I bought you these?” Cody asked holding up baby crackers.
“Nah.” Came a mans voice from behind Cody. Cody quickly turned and smiled.
“Doc, what are you doing here?” Cody asked, then regretted it as the doctor looked at him like he was an idiot.
“Well,” Andrew Kessle started. “As much as you think I am a robot, I do need to eat. Plus my daughter wanted something here.”
“Ah.” Cody replied with a smile. “Yeah, I‘m just grabbing some food.”
“Really?” The doctor smiled as he glanced at the kart. “Would have never guessed.”
The two laughed then Cody stared at the doctor. “Any word?”
“Results won‘t be back for a couple of days.”
“Ok.” Cody turned and started to walk away. “I can still wrestle right?”
“You better.” Doctor Kessle said with a smile. “I got one hundred on you to beat that arse hole.” The doctor said with a smile.
“I shall.” Cody said with a smile. “See ya later?”
“Hopefully not after the show.” The doctor said with a smile.
“Doc, I shall see you after the show for a beer.” Cody replied mocking the doctors way of speech.
“Word.” The doctor said with a laugh mocking Carson.
“He‘s and asshole.” Cody said to Ally in a soft little voice as they turned the corner.
"I heard that." Andrew yelled and laughed.
"Shit ally, lets run." Cody started to rush with the kart and suddenly smashed into another cart. "I'm sorry." Cody said as he looked at the lady that was now staring at him.
"No, its my fault." She replied as she moved the cart out of his way.
"Umm." Cody paused trying to think of something to say. "My name is Cody."
"Carson right?" She replied.
"Yeah," he said blushing a little. "You know me from my wrestling?"
"Yeah I do." She replied with a smile. "I work for the PAW."
"PAW?" Cody asked confused. "Is that another fed?"
"No Mister Carson." She said as her tone changed. "PAW stands for People Against Wrestling."
"What the fuck kind of lame ass shit is that?" Cody asked shocked at the comment.
"We are people that believe that wrestling as a sport is wrong?" She retorted.
"What the hell is wrong with it?" he exclaimed.
"Wrestling is a despicable sport." She said with a look of disgust on her face. "You can't even call it a sport."
"Look lady, just because you don't like wrestlers, don't try to preach this shit."
"Watch you mouth sir." She replied.
"Go fuck yourself." Cody shot back at her. "Its not my fault that some wrestler probably knocked you up and won’t pay child support. Its not my fault or any wrestlers fault that you fell in love with an ass jockey wrestler like Shayne Steele."
"Mr. Carson." She sighed. "You go fudge your self as well." She said with an irritated look. She quickly took off and Cody looked at her with a confused look.
"Fudge myself?" Cody repeated with a look of confusion. He quickly moved to the cart. "Fudge myself." Cody said to Ally. "Fudgee-o's that’s what we need." Cody started off down toward the cookies and grabbed some. He started toward the sports section and leaned down and kissed his daughter.
So I’ve come to the conclusion that I think your gay......not super homo I wanna chuck in your ass gay...but I’m gonna get married, turn my wife into a dyke then realize it was all my fault gay. The reason behind this is because you think of yourself as an Idol. Anyone who thinks that highly of them self has to be gay for the simple reason that they need to hide the fact that they are gay. They call themselves big names to make it look like they are not gay but for some strange reason everyone sees right through it. Maybe that’s because you try to hard. Come out of the closet, get on your knees and suck my cock.
So when you found out that you had a match with me, Cody Carson, did you find your rainbow speedo? Did you die your poodle pink? Fuck you’re a homo.
Cody land eh? Wow, how fucking original you fuck tard. A three year old could come up with better shit then you. No one likes you, why you ask? Because…
YOU
ARE
BORING!!!
You sit back and moan and bitch about how much I talk shit and how much it was all nonsense yet you did the same fucking thing. You’re a fucking hypocrite, you say one thing is bad and that I make no fucking sense yet every time you open that over grown mouth of yours, it makes even less sense then when I talk.
So Shayne, what’s next, you think you can force me to fight you? You think that you can force me to take you on for your little gay ass title that means absolutely nothing here in the RWA? You think that you can push me around and try to make fun of me because I made a few bad career moves in my past. Hell They weren’t even that bad, I learned more in that year then I ever could have if I didn’t have guidance. Shawn Did treat me like a bitch, a lackey, yes I will admit it. Not to point out a fact or anything but ever one fucking knows that.
Its old, over used and really man if you can’t think of any other sticks to beat me with give up. That year with Shawn and Brandi Gave me the advantage in SFT, I knew Shawn’s weaknesses and I defeated him in an open match. I broke my neck against him, yes but I got the 1...2...3!! Something you couldn’t ever do.
As for you beating me a couple of times you beat me once and I destroyed you the second time. So this is match point bitch. Winner take all in this match. I don’t ever want to see you in my ring again after this match. I will not fight you for your stupid tile and I will not allow you to beat. I really wish I knew something though.
I would really like to know where all this hate is coming from Shayne. I think that deep down you have some serious problems. I think that maybe you should go see a counselor or something. I'm really worried about you. Remember, if ever you need a sympathetic ear to listen to your problems, you can call me any time at 1-800-GOFUCKYOURSELF.
Yeah, good bye.
Sign,
Cody Carson