I, sWerve
... will always be two steps ahead of the curve ...

Carried away by a selfish desire.
No words. No talk. Just take you higher.
No hurt. No pain. No gain. I am not the liar.
Nightmares turn real, everything's red, I can't deal.

My RAGE is BLISS. Though, I engage with a kiss.

No feelings. Yet, I can feel you, when I steal you.

It's ecstacy. ... Ecstacy, when you're next to me. ... So connected to me.

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Meh ... everyone's looking for happiness, while I creep with no emotion and a blank empty smile, looking for something ... someone to infect. I see them on the verge of selling their soul, just to get away from loneliness. The pain is just TOO real, and yet, too far to reach. The pressure builds and builds. The anxiety grips you - controls your every move. You are weak. The end really isn't near, but all you can feel is the end, and it's oh-so NEAR. You are afraid to live, but yet, afraid to die. Hopeless. Worthless. Useless. The tears fall like a thunderstorm. You've lost all control. The fetus position appears to be the only logical destination. You actually believe you're better off alone. But still ern for somebody to save you, show you that you can be loved for who you really are.. Ha!

Empty. That's you. The blood flows, the organs work, the heart beats, the mind races, but you are still empty. Inside. Sadness behooves. You will go years feeling these feelings. Years. Before you know it, it is apart of you, it is ... YOU. It spreads through the entire body, like a cancer. There's no turning back. There's no restart button. The truth shall haunt you, and choke you until there isn't any life left. Everything becomes meaningless, over again. Thoughts of suicide, follow. You might commit it. You might dream of it, over and over. Or you just might do it for attention that you couldn't get before. And at this point...?

You become numb - mind and body..

So, what's the point? ... The point is ... there is no point.

After so much time, it becomes apart of you. You feel it beating inside of you, like it's the HEART of you. And when a piece of it dies, a piece of you dies. You sit alone in dark rooms, you weep and you cry. You say your goodbyes, a million fucking times. But it never seems right, does it?

It's done. It's recorded. You're a time bomb, ticking. Tick-tock-tick-tock. Ecstacy. Both sensational and DEADLY, too. You're the pin in the grenade, go ahead and pull it, and see! Vent your fucking anger. You are a fugative running that refuses to get caught. The rock and the hard place, either way, you lose. Schizophrenic! You're dealing with four people! Good one moment, then you just turn EVIL. Hahahahhehehe.

Everything comes full circle. Be patient. Don't move to fast. Stalk your prey, watch your prey ... demolish your prey. Kick up dust. Make a scene. And everything else falls in between. Because choking you out, that's my sanctuary. My feelings are limited. My cares? None. My heart is cold. My vengence is ten fold. Whether you live or die? Doesn't matter. Whether I live or die? It doesn't matter.

My gimmick? ... There isn't one. I am me. I am ONE. I'm a paleface whiteboy. Whiteboy! Nobody will bully me. I got more heart than you can fathom. I'm the saddest thing walking, but I'll take your head off. Just because I want to..

This is how I live ... This is how I pick up the pieces.

So genius, that's my thesis.

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... How else, can I sWerve you? ...

- There I was, Providence, Rhode Island. Ocean Drive was the street of my location. Ocean Drive, History District, it ran along the Newport shore, seaside was my view, and the long empty road. The moon was my light, as the wind came off the water and into my face. I wore my typical clothing, dark three piece purple suit, vintage 70's. My hair was everywhere, but the paint on my face was apart of me. I was leaning on a rail, a rail that seperated the road from the cliff. With my back to the road, I leaned with my eyes deep in the camera, every moment. With a smile here, and a twitch there. The camera gets close, I don't budge. -

sWerve - "All alone ... you are."

- Suddenly, I hop on the rail and take a seat. My hands are stationary on it, for balance. -

sWerve - "I'm disgusted with trust. Lost in my own personal happiness of self loathing. It's an intense aversion.."

"Intense. Vix, I did this, because you made me. You made me! So, I just went with the flow. Am I wrong? ... Do I really care? Look at what I've taken from you, while I see what I've given you.."

"I told you, I would show you another light, Vix. When I began obsessing your smell, your body, your mind. I pointed at a new beginning for you. And now, you see it, embrace it. But it's not over."

"By far. This rollercoaster ride continues. No exit. No going back. I GOT you. Ha. Then again, maybe you GOT me? I've stolen kiss after kiss. I have your jewelry. I have your thoughts. I have your attention. I moved Kevin Frost out of the picture. He had to see it coming. I told him. I told you. I told myself.."

"But did I step over that line? With that slap to your face? Ha. Just remember, I ended it with passion. Now, you have to defend the same belt that I helped you retain at Wrestlefest, against ... ME. How fitting. But would I really take it from you? Knowing that it doesn't mean nothing to me. That wouldn't make sense. But how much sense do I make? None. Jaffar will try to take your championship. And that won't make sense, either.."

"Vixen, you cannot let me have your title. I don't deserve it, I won't be thankful of it. Said it before, say it again - championships, wins, and awards mean nothing to me. That isn't why I'm here. What I've created with you, Vixie? That's my purpose. That's my unplanned, plan. Controlling, while not controlling anything at all. A puppet master. A devil in disguise, that really isn't disguised at all, eh?"

"Stop. Look in the mirror. I have you going in circles. I give you all the control you desire, just to control your every desire. I play this game differently. I master it. I am it."

"Now ... watch the weak, follow suit. 'sWerving' will be everywhere.."

"Pioneer. Alpha. Entrepreneur. ... Hahahahaheheheh. He, he.."

- I jump off the rail, and walk toward the edge of the cliff. Looking over, I can see that the drop off is pretty steep. Deadly, even. A chill courses through my body, a smile creeps through my hair. -

sWerve - "It's like looking at Death, directly in the eyes. Mmmm. No feeling like this ... feeling! Feeling of final. Ugh. Mind boggling. ... JUMP!

- I grab the camera man and act as if I'm going to jump, then stop with a laugh. The camera guy mumbles something rated R. -

sWerve - "Ha. Close one, huh?

- I asked the camera man. He sighs without an answer. -

sWerve - "Got a real talker over here, ladies and gentlemen."

"Like Jaffar ... 'Abqariyya l-mağd 'azman wa samāhā! ... Yeah, what he said."

"Vix, I don't want to take your belt from you. Unless it's to spank you with."

- I said with a smirk. -

sWerve - "Hmm. I hate gold. But sometimes we have to do, what we have to do. And you need a spanking, Vixie. You've been a naughty foxx. Tsk. Tsk. And you're riding with sWerve. I hold nothing back. But you already know this. And you know the saying ... can't beat 'em? Join 'em."

"I won't let you beat me, Vix. But I will help you. I am not against you, unless you want it. I was there for you at the biggest stage of all, Kevin was sleeping on the job. Until he had a chance to attack me when I wasn't looking. Selfish. I'm falttered he did what he did. But, it was selfish toward you. So, I did what I did the next night, for you. He was dead weight for you. ... You're welcome."

"What else can I do? For you? ... You have to think twice before turning your back on me. Think real hard. Look at me. Size me up. Do you really want me as your enemy? ... A guy that has your best interest in mind. You step on me for that? And your well-being goes out the window. It's already teetering around me. Could you imagine it with a sWerve on the warpath?"

"Sit back, Vix. Sleep on your decisions, and be careful of your words toward me. I have already sWerve'd you. ... Now, walk with me."

- I spoke with grin, as a strong breeze came through, the camera shot was static. -

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Just when you know it, it's taken.
No choice. It's inside you, and awaken.
Stand up, don't fight it - invite it.
Be who you are, and not what you can see in afar.

Don't be sWerve'd, brake for the sharp curve. ...