Sheeeeeeeeeet.
Phsyco Goupie Cocaine Crazy.
Dear god... ok you (Michelle) tell me to show up at 11:45 so I can whip your man's ass then after that shake the shit out of you. But where are you? No fuckin where to be found isn't that about some BULLSHIT. Im so pissed off you talk all this shit and never capitalize on it. This ignorant convrentation between has to end. This is more than I can deal with, a skinny immature bitch just playin with my mind.
Anyways the 4th was good I went out with Brandon and Dexter and shot fireworks off at the Racetrack after we got done watching them at the Altus Resivour.
God I can't wait untill Nick gets back. It's about some bullshit without him. Summer just sucks without all your friends... expacially your best friend. He gets back July, 28... better believe I'm countin down the days.
I ain't got anything else to say.
Aw Shut Up.
This is my outlash of words to the public.
Fuck you Michelle McArthur... your angery that I cheated on you and I have girl that I could only dream about. Stop being sour because Teresa whipped your sisters ass and if she woulda saw you.. you woulda been next bitch. And you can talk all you want but you know its damn true! You lost in court and the charges are gettin dropped. Face it you suck dick. And your an ugly whore I went out with only for the pure fact of I needed someone to talk to.. and it was damn great being with you in public, because before I was with a slut and then I didnt have to worry about anyone stealin you away from me because you dont eat, and go to the hospital for not eating.
Fuck Rap... you ignorance and no talent it takes to make this kind of pathetic music makes me sick, why was I so blind to not realize it. Your all sellouts unless you live in the bronx or houston texas.
Fuck ignorant pieces or shit... you talk shit about me and my "family" when I turn my back... Fuck you Ellisa and your punk rock friends... next time I meet you Im shakin the shit out of you.
Fuck everyone that doubts me in any kind of shape or form.
That is all... : )
In the Lab.
In the Lab.
Rewind.
Plain and Simple.
It's Been Awhile
@ the movies.
New Site.
Holy Crizap.
So So.
Ketchup.
Cool. I just found this awesome Dj software. It will do till I get some real shit. I love this shit. Ive been scratchin mp3's all day. This shit go fed.
Bored. Look this is the worst summer of my life. I mean it sucks. I have nothing to do. Im away from all my friends. Im just at home. Ahh I can't take this bull shit. I wanna go to Altus and live with my Dad. So at least I could be somewhat social.
I feel pretty good now. Since me and Mom finally talked about me going back to Altus today. She said it would be good if I went with my father back to Altus and to go to school down there. I mean I got more stuff to do down there. Fun place for me.
I don't know if people have realized it yet. But yeah, I have no life. It's a terrible thing. I don't like being coop'd up in this house all the time. But I guess that what you do when you have no one around to see or no where to go. Seein' I was only in school here in Edmond for the last of the year and really didn't make any solid friends. Well now some might say, why don't you just go out and make friends during the summer? Well uh.. I have no way too. I live around a bunch of college students who keep to them selves and I have no transportation. My Mom is never home anymore. She is always with her boyfriend.
Its what I do... click-here
-Takeover
// Monday, May.17.04
Tracks I'm currently workin on...(all mainstream instrumentals for mixtape.)
Obie Trice - Dont Come Down
Obie Trice - Hey Lady
Loyd Banks - On Fire
Mobb Deep - Get it Twisted
D12 - 40 0z.
Kanye West - School Spirit
I'll update you on that as I get em done... till' then check out... MY SOUNDCLICK
1 - LEET
// Monday, May.10.04
Two hours ago it was Mothers Day. And hell I don't really feel at this moment I got a mother. Or a father... I hate family holiday's cause I'm always left out. But it's ight I guess, I can live.
And did I call my mother to wish her a happy mothers day? No, cause I can't call long distance were I'm from, but she could have contacted me if she really wanted too. But I guess she really... didnt need to.
Anyways, I hate all this talk about the school year fixin to be over because mine ended so ebruptly. Everyone is doin good in school and goin on to the next grade and Im just stuck waitin for next year, just so I can try to get a highschool diploma, hopefully. See... I hope you motha fuckers out there with a good family and school life are happy with what you got. Because you may or may not know it. But your lucky as fuck to be the position your in right now. A person like me has to struggle just to stay on track because I was born into a off track family. I'm really hopin that whole, "Bad things happen for a reason" is true.
Cause I really need a reason to even wanna try anymore... - leet
// Thursday, April.29.04
I really never thought that I would be that person that the other people talk about. I hear about from others. That person that people talk bad about. That person that isn't confronted by the words, but yet realizing that people are talking. It isn't my fault. I didn't choose to take this path. My parents made me, and if you think that is some bullshit excuse that some teenager makes up everytime he tries to cover himself from bad actions... then your just another stereotypical bitch... Flat out. How would you feel having to be ripped from household to household, packing what you got to move in with Mother or Father. Because mother's a cheater and father's bi-polar, there divorced. This moving back and forth has effected me so greatly that school won't except me. No I'm talking about people dipshit. I'm talking about education in general. I fail years because of my families issues, I am currently not going to school. Though I should be in it... I had passing grades in all my classes but was kicked out of the house during the last semester. My father (Altus, OK) made me live with my mom (Oklahoma City, OK)... mom calls the schools there... and they won't let me in.. too late in the year.
Now your probally wondering why I would get tossed back and forth, am I bad kid?... no. Do I smoke weed, bust 9mm's, drink...naw. Then do I do? Nothing. I sit here and take because I have too. You see my parents are shit without eachother, finacially shit. Both are almost 40 and live like a 20 year old. Dad kicked me out because he couldn't take it.. he wants to be alone and go places. He is tripping because he is starting to realize it is to late to turn his life around. The military won't except him anymore he's a year over there limit in age. My mother on the other hand is basically in the same position, my sister in handicapped and she always needs to get special things.... special things... really... in order for her to stay alive. If she doesn't "cathaterize" herself everyday because she is paralyize from the waste down from now on... the docter said she could possibly die in 10 to 12 years. Mom is always broke... ya'll might know what its like waiting for the child support, dead granparent, and disability checks to come in just so you can make it by.
Ok..ok... now your like... why don't this motha fucker go out and get a job to help support the fam? Well I tried. I lived within a 15 minute walk from Braum's the ice cream store... I got hired... I needed my birth certificate, and ID's. My mom had all of that... She completly ignored me and I lost the job before I ever even started. She is always to busy messing with her boyfriend. Who treats her like shit and doesn't give a fuck about what "we" are going through. He could care less... as long as he get's some pussy everynight. And when I say everynight I mean that me and my two sister are left alone every fucking day... week-in and out while she is out doin' "her-thang". We suffer, I watch over them and ya know do what I gotta do. Be a man or whatever. Life is rough.
As for trying for other jobs... I tried walkin 2 miles to the big store plaza. It had like a couple places, I was like... "Oh shit, job heaven." I applied everywhere... everywhere!.... Then I waited... no answer. None.
So basically gave up I dont know where Im headed now. My mom said some shit about getting me in this GED program outside the City or some shit. Like this summer or whatever. But knowin her its all a croc a shit.
So where am I right now? Well my mom doesn't really want me or my sisters around... she wants to be single I guess. She is going to send my sisters to California with my Grandma probally and as for me.. Im already in Altus again. My mom said she need time to "Get on her feet". What the hell is that? You have a motha fuckin family you can't just be like... aw..aw.. wait life... hol' up dawg.. time out. This is about some bull shit. Now Im just living with friends basically, Im staying over at my girls house cause her parent are cool wit me I guess. I'd be creeped out if my daughter had her boyfriend stay over but ya know.... Im not gonna try to fuck up my life worse than it already is, if you know what I mean.
You know I always used to joke about how people with bad lives get famous all the time. You hear there horror stories and how they made it through...
I'm just hoping this horror story goes Triple Platnuim one day, leet 5:13 AM
Words of the past have no meaning... Unless the present demands it. And I am not a very demanding person.
// October.20.03
Well... Guess whose back... back again.. Leet is back.. tell a friend.
I guess I should tell you what has been goin on since then. Then being the last time I posted. Well me and Michelle are still going strong. Despite everyones ideas about it. Everyone thought it would be a short thing. Well fuck all of you who thought that. Anyways, I haven't made a rap song in a minute! I have been recording my friend Nick play guitar for the longest now. He is good and we got some good tracks going on right now. I just got some instrumentals from over at Brandons house the other day so I think I might make a couple new tracks or just go all out and make about 20... and release a lil' CD to the school. I don't know mayne... I still ain't got a job... car... or anything like that... I'm 16. Don't get me wrong I can drive the shit out of a car. Better than most of my friends thats for sure. ANd fuck you if you don't believe me, cause I can. : p
School went good this semester.. I got 2 b's 2 c's and 2 d's... hey motha fucka thats good compared to my others. I aint got no F's.. Im not going to play around though this semester Im going to try to get them all C or higher. Cause these grades don't count towards college or anything because they are going to be averaged with the new ones. Or whatever I know you don't care. :p
I'm going to go to my Mom's in Edmond this weekend... for all of you HARDCORE LEET FANS ya'll know I hate Edmond and I was trapped up there and shizzy... yall know the story... well anyways.. I gotta go up there and see my sisters because they are bored out there minds and I know they are. I feel soo dayum sorry for them... they aint got nothing to do. Im going to bring alot shit up there to give them... Music.. and shit like that.
Latly we started making these songs about people over at my house... we call it STORY TIME... lol... we just play a guitar in the background and freestyle stuff and talk shit about people.. Its funny as hell.. People are getting pissed about some of it though. Just certain people. But you know what... if you can't take a joke, blow me and the whole schools! Cause they are going to hear the shit we sing about you! LMAO... Muwhaha...
Oh man Im a bad bitch...
Leet posted 4:43 PM
// September.06.03
I went and saw S.W.A.T. ... what a gay ass movie. It sucked. But yes, I got to see Michelle tonight... thats like the main reason I went. Then afterward I went over to her house till about 11:25 p.m. Yup... it was good. I got to be with her for the longest I have in a looong time. I never had stay like past 7... but tonight was differnt. Yup... oh you know..
Cheya.. But anyways. Thats all pretty much for now.
Leet posted , grr!
Yeah, new Leet. Its black... again. Just like me.
Staind is on it... yup and thats about it... Thank you Staind.com for allowing to steal your kool picture... I love you.
: P
Leet posted, newer is uhh.. better!
// September.2.03
This really sucks. I'm banned from my girlfriend... if you only knew man... lol. Wow this sucks. I guess I should tell you why, huh.
Wella.... Michael thought it would be funny to go and tag (paint the windshields) of Michelle’s mom’s car. But that’s not what it turned into. Lol. She was maaad. And she said the f word. I’m telling you that was a big shock. It was like catchin the vigin mary in bed with jesus. Lol. Now Im like really bad with there parents. Oh yeah and the thing is that Michael drew a huge shlong on the windshield. I only drew Dusty Butt on the side window. I think that’s what maid her mad. Just a hunch. But now I’m lonely… I don’t know when I’ll talk to her again. The love of my life… grr… I think ima pull some romeo and Juliet shit soon.
In other good news... I was in the school newspaper as a local artist of the week, and it was the first paper of the year. Cheya! lol. Article on "Takeover" and everythin'.
Leet
// August.24.03
Wow that sucks, my girl "Michelle" is in the hospital. She has something wrong with her brain or somethin... really sucks... so pretty much I just stayed at the hospital all day with her... stayed by her side ya know. Cuz I wuv her. Yup...
You see that entry below... the Aug 7th one, its crap. Thats all Im sayin its crap. lol.
Everday I love Michelle more and more.. She will make it through. : )
crazy in love, leet 1:47 AM
// August.07.03
Wow, such a long time without out a word from urs truly right. lol. Well I live in Altus, Oklahoma now... and I dont have a computer, yet. But it's cool. I can live. Finally. Jeezz I don't know where to start on tellin you how my life has gone this past month. damn.
Well I asked Michelle out on July,6 2003. So we have been going out for a month and a day now. I guess the relationship is going good. I don't know... it's alright. I've never gotten this involed with a person for fear of getting hurt by them greatly. I really don't want that to happen. *prays to god* I guess you could say I'm kinda resisting going into it, into it... know wata mean? Like deep-deep-deep into it. That is just scary for me... I don't know I don't think that she trusts me fully anyways. Seein that "I guess" a whole lotta girls like me or something. Not to sound conceded, but there a whole lotta skanks in Altus. lol.
I finally talked with Brandon today about the whole Michelle thing... you might remember me gettin pissed earlier this year about it...*flashback* Brandon went out with Michelle and I didn't know. And Michelle led me on. *end flashback* So I don't know me and him finally got to talkin about it today and we came to the conclusion we both got screwed. And I'm just finally gettin to realize this too. Michelle was sayin I love you to me and Brandon at the same damn time... for like 3 months... and how this information didnt leak when me and Brandon were talking... who knows. lol crazy shit right? And now Im just thinking about it all and I really started gettin mad at Michelle for the whole situation... makes me wanna re-think my whole relationship. Wants me wanna re-think it all, period.
sad but ture, leet 2:13 AM
// June.25.03
Can't to get some CDJ's or turntables... I think Im gonna go wit the CDJ's tho. ; )
posted 3:59 PM
Michelle said that she was going to send me some pics and shit. Thank god. I havent seen her in the longest. I can't wait till I see her again. It will be great.
Well none you people thought it would happen.. but yes Im getting back into efedding. Im going to run the wWc along side Ryan. And Brandon and Philip. It will be run the way it was ment.. all pitching in here and there. And I wont have to be a wrestler in it. Yes :) woot. I have always just wanted to run a succsesfull one.. and damnit. I will...
Damn I have no life.
posted 12:06 AM
// June.22.03
I really fuckin' hope I go back. I wanna go to Altus Highschool so bad. I think I still got to go to summer school this July I think. Which will suck. I got to go to Edmond Santa Fe Highschool for it. So I'm like... "Oh great another new school". I'm tellin you man I've been to a new school ever 3 months. This shit is pittiful. And its been that way all my life. Oh well. Maybe... hopefully I can come back to Altus and settle somewhere for at least a year or something. It all depends if there is another war or disastor or not. Seeing that he will get reactivated again. I really hope that doesn't happen.
They are really working the shit out of the Army National Gaurd... expacially for this Iraq bullshit. The National Gaurd pretty much won this war for us on the ground in Iraq.
Anyways I'm just happy things are begining to look at bit clearer. So till next time.. im out.
posted 8:40 PM
// June.21.03
It's differnt not having her around as much. I mean she never comes home at night. She goes to work at somewhere around 8am. And comes home at around 4pm, then leves at like 6 and doesn't come back home till then next morning around 7am... then 8am she goes back... its and on going cycle.
I don't ever see her. I'm always on the computer.. hold on I have a incoming call..
Oh how relectant.. and call for Mom. Oh wait that's right she isn't ever here. Yeah well let me tell you something. Ever since she started this cycle with her boyfriend. I've had to take alot of responsiblility. See if Jason X ran through that door... I'd have to kill him. Ok well maybe thats a little desrastic but it could happen.
Anywayz, about my apparent rap career and all. I guess I'm doin ok. Droppin' mixtapes and all. It's ok. I still haven't really got to were I want myself though. I don't really like my voice. But oh well. People are going to have to deal with that. lol.
Well I feel bad now. I hung up on Michelle (my love). I was mad at my Mom for talking some bullshit about what needs to happen and what not.. she ain't ever around "fuck her", lol. But yeah back to Michelle. I feel bad... but she is still like.. "Well when you wanna talk just let me know. I don't want to talk to you when your mad. :-)". She fuckin' put the smilie face and everything. Now that's a women ladies and gentlemen. Most other gurls woulda been like "Awww Hell Naaaw!." But nooo. Not my Michelle. :)
Well Im out.
posted 6:16 PM
