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X. The Next Profundis: The Mirror Stage 3 Here we are again Maximus. What a pleasure it is to be graced by your presence here again. It seems like you never get tired of doing this. Don’t you think your wife might start thinking that you’re crazy or something? Maybe start believing that you belong in an asylum. Only crazy people talk to themselves you know. Yes, but this is the only thing that can truly help me. I have no one else to really talk to. Aren’t you married, with two kids? I’m sure you and your wife can spark up great conversations about something. And your son, he should have the brains of a stable minded 14 year old, and he’s only 8. So what’s the problem there? The problem is, my wife doesn’t understand what it’s like to go out there and wrestle in the ring in front of thousands all the time. Don’t get me wrong, we do talk, just not about my career. Only for money issues, but not about the importance that it has on my life, in order to be the best at what I do. And my son is very intelligent, and you’re right. He does have a mind of a stable 14 year old. Just that he doesn’t understand the world of wrestling either. So then why not teach him. You’ll be a great teacher. He can grow up to just like his father. Hm.....I think not. Someone once told me that I should learn from my father. And that I could learn a lot from my father. And I did learn a lot of things from my father. But I don’t think I ever became like him. I never wanted to become like him. He tried so hard to make me be him though. Which is something I never really quite understood, since I was the one he cared about the least. It’s like he had a problem with me being my own person. But I won’t do it to my son. He’s a great kid, I don’t want to fill mind up with useless bullshit that will end up having a negative effect on him when he gets to be my age. I want to do what he wants to do in life. If he chooses to follow in my foot steps, then so be it. I have no problem with that. But I won’t force him to do it. Okay...well said. Okay then, what’s on your mind now Max? You have your match tomorrow night against Hawaiian Hardhead, finally, for the Hart Championship. Do you think you’re ready? Of course I’m ready. You think I’m going to attack a guy for two shows in a row, get in his face and challenge him, twice, finally earn my shot and not be prepared? It was just a simple question. I know what it was.. This guy obviously knows that I’m not playing when it comes to this match. I’ve issued out a challenge to him, and he accepted it. I know for a fact that this man isn’t going to be willing to play patty cake when he gets in the ring with me. So why should I? Well, you’re just simply better than him. Yes, I know. But I can’t use that as an excuse to take it easy on him. I’ve been saying it for a while now. I’m starting to get tired of saying it as well. Just because I’m better than someone, it doesn’t mean I should take them lightly. Look at that guy Rage. What about that guy Rage? He’s your typical bruiser. Not bad in the ring when it comes to real skill and technical ability. He just likes to go in for brutality. Not like there’s anything wrong with that. Because part of my career was made off of that. I said it once and I’ll say it again, being a bruiser isn’t going to get you very far. So in my opinion, him being the way he is, isn’t going to get him far here in the XWF. Why do you say that? Basically, you have guys in the XWF who have made it to the top by being great performers in the ring. Guys like Boondock Saint and Christian Connolly. Just to pick out those two guys, cause there are many more to choose from. But those two in general, are very skillful and talented, when it strictly comes down to in ring ability. And look at how far they made it. Rage can have his “Coalition” but I’ll keep my skills. It also turns out that he had his gang of friends attack me last Saturday, not Hardhead. In time I’ll get my payback, that’s why I didn’t for Los Angles yet. I would’ve got him back on Impact. But the Hart Championship is way more important right now. I’ll switch back to my olds ways when I meet in the ring with him again. That’s if we meet again. Hm....what was the point of addressing the issue with Rage then? It’s not really an issue, I just had to get it off of my chest really. Even though I have more important things to look forward to, I’m just not going to forget that little attack that played after my victory. It’s in the back of my mind, and it’s going to stay there until he steps in front of me. When he does, or if he does, it’s not going to be a good thing, and that’s a promise. To yourself of course? Well, you don’t need to worry about him, obviously. I’m not..... Then keep your primary focus on your match this Sunday. It is.... Okay then....but I have a quick question for you though. Because you seem very confident going into this match. Well, more cocky than confident, but confident nonetheless. Have you ever asked yourself, what if you lose this match? What will you do if you lose this? And how would you feel? Hm....I never really did ask myself that question. It’s a good one, simple, but good. Sure I’ve been very cocky about this match. Because look who I’m going against. Hawaiian has limited abilities in the ring. He’s just a entertainer. And I frown upon sports entertainment. So sure I’m going to have the up most confidence in this match. Mat skills, abilities, and raw talent, always out performs the mediocre sports entertainer. But if I lose, I will be very disappointed. If I come up short in this match, then I have no other choice but to move on. There are other titles, and other great competitors that I would love to get in the ring with. Just because I came up short with Hawaiian Hardhead doesn’t mean I can’t achieve other things. There will always be another time to get in the ring with Hardhead again. Next time I will just be more prepared. The way how I would feel after this lost will be inspiring. Inspiring? Why in the hell would you feel that? It would really give me the inspiration to just train harder and to become better. So that unfortunate upset like that will never happen to me again. If it is to happen. Why did you want to know? Usually, when you witness an upset like that, you always seem to drift away from the company. Am I right or wrong? You’re correct. I mean, you are doing very well right now. It seems like everyone believes in you now. Everyone is taking you more seriously here in the XWF. You’ll let a little tiny upset like that get in your way of doing bigger and better things? It’s just the Hart Championship. And what’s that suppose to mean? That means, if you lose this match, why continue to waste your time chasing after the Hart Championship, when you can be going after the World Championship instead. That’s what I was going to do regardless. But the Hart Championship is just as important as any other Championship belt here in the XWF. It’s just the Champions themselves, who make the title look prestigious. Hawaiian Hardhead isn’t doing that well. That’s one of the main reasons why I’m going after this championship. To restore it’s pride and dignity. And instead of being the belt looked at as the “another” belt to throw on anybody who can just throw a punch, I’ll be there to show everyone what a real Champion is suppose to do. I’ll make sure that this title isn’t just “another” belt that any mediocre wrestler can get his hands on. I’ll bring this belt back to glory. And when everyone looks at it, they’ll know what it truly represents, every time I step into the arena with it in my hands. “Champion at Hart” indeed. And don’t you forget it. I refuse to let any man make this belt look shameful. As long as I’m around, whether I’m holding this belt or not, I won’t let it happen. I don’t know how many times I have to stress that statement. Don’t want to keep saying the same thing over and over again. It will just get boring. Then put your words into action. I will. Starting Sunday, what other choice do I have? Hm...yea, I guess so. Nah, I know so. Well then, let’s see what happens tomorrow night. We will......I have a plane to catch. Then all of a sudden, out of the darkness, Maximus is seen walking out the dark room. Inside it, is a chair, a lightbulb hanging above the chair, and the mirror which stands in front of the chair, with it’s reflection staring right back. You have just witnessed the third Mirror Stage. XI. Divine Realities Time, has gone by and has been wasted. So many years of working hard, getting hurt, making money, neglecting my family and falling under the influence of propaganda. Most of the time it’s worth it. It’s actually worth giving a damn sometimes too. Then there are times where you just have to look up to the sky and say “what the hell?” I know a lot of men and women have experienced that. Usually it’s more than me but, not everyone. I’ve been wrestling for the past ten years of my life. It’s been a great ride I have to say. I’ve been around the world, met a lot of people, wrestled a lot of men, good and bad, slept with a lot of women, good and bad. But most importantly, I’ve become a better person in the process. I mean, just look at my family. Seeing them is basically seeing what I use to be. Actually it was much worse than that. Petty, cruel, dishonest, hot tempered, and just plain stupid. As I traveled the world, and met new people, I learned new things. Apart from being in the ring, I’ve learned a whole lot of things. Which has helped shaped me into the person you see today. I’m not going to say that I’ve reached Nirvana or anything. Cause I know that there is still much for me to learn about life. Much more for me to learn about myself. Also, much I need to know about my wrestling abilities, and approach to my matches, and how I handle at the end of them. Whether I win or lose. I still have much to learn, to take in, and experience. So I can’t really take it too personal when I see that there are still guys who walk around the XWF thinking as if they know everything. Why should I worry about them though? I have my own success to gain. I just sit back and watch them. It’s kind of funny, but at the same token it’s very sad. Main person I have to address here is my opponent for Zero Tolerance on Sunday. Hawaiian Hardhead. Personally, I don’t know the guy, neither do I really care for him. I have my own shit to worry about. The man really thinks that he’s worth a damn here in the XWF. Just because he was “wise” enough to come up with his own name for the Hart Championship. It’s sad to see it. But I have no other choice but to live with it. He has the gold, for now, and he’s the champion. This is really nothing personal, only business, despite what I said a few times about this being “personal” was only just a false statement. Sure I really “feel” a certain way about him, but it’s only because of how passionate I really am about this wrestling industry. I see a guy like Hawaiian Hardhead, who absolutely has no talent what so ever, don’t know how many times I have to say it, but it’s true. A guy like Hardhead having substantial amount of success, just really blows my mind. Unless something isn’t done about it this Sunday, it will continue to. I’m sure someone else will come along and beat, if it isn’t me, then I guess we can only hope for a better future for the Hart Championship division. It’s only a matter of time before we witness a fall of a title reign that has no importance to everyone else in the company. He just puts me under the impression that he just got lucky in his match last month at “What Would Jonathyn Do?” James Raven did help him out actually. So he did just get lucky. Maybe he might get lucky on Sunday. Who knows? I definitely don’t. I’m pretty sure I will prevail in this bout. Will it be exactly what I expect it to be? I really hope not. I mean the man has a great talent for singing, and a great talent for painting his face up and looking like a Samoan reject clown. Said that before, I know. But it’s the truth. Just wait to see what he can do in the ring. It’s the only thing that get’s me excited really, wrestling good opponents that is. Except for looking at sexy women with large breast, and curvy figures. Wrestling good opponents is the only thing that get’s me going. I’ve never had that really. Even though I could say that Raziel, and Boondock Saint were good opponents, but I wasn’t all that impressed with them at that point in time . Just to be positive on things, hopefully I can get a match with those two in the near future. As of right now Hardhead still remains my only target. He has to be able to do more than sing a few little songs about me to get me really pumped up and ready for the match. Even so, I’m really not impressed with this guy overall. I thought he would have a whole more things to say about me. Even though I am flattered about the songs he made in my honor. It’s very cute, when you’re a twelve year trying to serenade your crush. Last time I checked, I was a 29 year old man, with a wife and two kids. So this just really makes me frown upon Hardhead even more. The man just simply doesn’t know who he’s dealing with. Out of all the things to do, he has to be gay and write songs about me. Who the hell writes songs about another guy? Elton John does, that I know. He’s actually talented too, which Hardhead is not. I’m enlightened, amused, and ashamed all at the same time here. The confusion is continuing to snowball in my head right about now. It’s just like why? It’s not as if you said anything that can be so intelligently clever, that could make any kind of sense, in a riddle puzzling and amusing way. Don’t get me wrong I use to do the whole “Song Spoof” thing myself. Instead looked at it as poetry. Art, more to say. I could revisit those days right about now, but there is just no need for me to stoop down your level of mediocrity. It’s fun, I understand that. But there is nothing fun about facing an opponent who really wants to kick your shit in. Then exploit It on national television on Pay Per View. But no, you can continue to have your fun, and well see how this match plays out. If it’s in your favor, then like I said above, you only got lucky. And if you win, I really do mean “if”, then no need to worry Hardhead, I’m not a sore loser. You will be commended, an congratulated. The moment you begin to boast, which I have a strong feeling that you will, then you will then step in ring with me again, and you will be taught a lesson in keeping your mouth shut. But keeping your mouth shut to a certain extent is my problem with you right now. Why wait so long, only to just sing a few bad songs. I mean really bad songs. It really makes you more of a man to when you do so........no it doesn’t really. The only thing you’ve really managed to do is get me aggravated. I use aggravated, because getting pissed off will just make me lose focus on what the real purpose is, and that’s taking the Hart Championship, and then me ending up beating the crap out of you. Even thought that is bound to happen, only to embarrass you will my superior skills. But I mean beating the crap out of you like Rage plans on doing to every jobber that walks into the XWF. No need for that though, I have to fair man and let you continue to have a career here in the XWF. Even though I really feel that you don’t deserve to be here, especially the spot that you’re holding, just really makes me wonder what makes you so deserving of that championship? I’ll never know why the Ryan Brother’s decided to put you in that Ladder Match, but it’s obvious to me and everyone else that you are the champ. Changes are about to be made however, but it obvious that you are the champ regardless the fact that you are a worthless piece of shit. What saddens me the most about this match Hardhead, is the fact that it’s you I’m stepping in the ring with. I would rather face someone who actually has some talent, someone like Ashley Divine. Chick has nice boobs by the way, but someone who just has great talent. Like Zach Rizza, Krazzy Kidd, James Raven, or even Grappling Gary. Yes, that’s right, I said Grappling Gary. At least the man could put on a decent match. You, Hardhead, are just another mediocre, talent-less, water down sports entertainer. Once you get in the ring with me Hardhead, you’ll know that this wasn’t a game. Regardless if you win or if I win. Remember that this wasn’t a game. I wish you would take this much more seriously. But I guess this is just a lesson you are going to have to learn on your own. All I really have to say to you sir, is good luck. Cause you are really going to need it. I hope you’re ready Hardhead, because I am....... |