[ The joys of Mother hood. Anyone who has ever told you that being pregnant is one of the best experiences a woman could have has never gotten morning sickness. Or didn't look at themselves long enough in the mirror as they try to squeeze into their favorite pair of jeans. Which is exactly where I am and what I'm doing right now. Standing in my bedroom mirror trying to fit into my favorite jeans. In a bought of sheer insanity I tossed my jean on to my bed. Standing in the mirror wear my red lace bra and thong to match I stood sideways looking at my body. Not much of a change but obviously enough to not fit into my pants any more. My stomach still flat or atleast for now. The first thought I had was I hope I have enough coco butter to rub on me so I don't get nasty stretch marks. As I fought the many thoughts going through my head I looked up and saw Rick standing in back me from the mirror.]

Rick Young: "How you feeling sweetheart?"

[ I just smirked and shrugged my shoulders. I didn't really know how to answer that question as simple as it was. Instead I just sorta tilted my head to the side and continued to softly glide my hands over what will soon be a popped out stomach.]

Brandi James:"I guess ok......"

[ As I turned my head and glared at the size 2 jeans that I now had a hard time zippering up.]

Brandi James:"God damn cut on those jean has to be wrong."

[ Rick just smiled at me as he walked up to me until he was standing behind me. Rick wrapped his arms around my waist pulling me closer to him as he kissed the side of my face. ]

Rick Young: "Sweetheart I don't think the cut on the jeans is wrong."

[ He had to be crazy! Ofcourse it was...I can't picture myself fat and ugly. Who ever said the pregant body is a thing a beauty must have been a man who's never experience morning sickness or water gain.]

Brandi James:"Yes...they are! I've always been a size 2....It's too soon for me to start getting fat and ugly...I'm not ready for that yet."

Rick Young: "Okay...then the cut is wrong."

[ Rick said, probably only wanting to avoid getting yelled by me and my raging hormones. ]

[ Little did Rick know there was no correct answer at all. I turned around and looked at him rasing my eyebrow.]

Brandi James:"Do you think I'm stupid? I've had thouse jeans for nearly 4 years they're my favorite jeans...The cut isn't wrong Rick..."

[ I huffed as I turned my back to him again and ran my hand across my still flat for now stomach.]

Brandi James:"I'm starting to get ugly..."

Rick Young: "Your not getting ugly sweetheart. You will always be beautiful to me."

[ Rick said, as he placed his chin down on to my right shoulder. ]

[ Glaring at him as he looked at me the only reaction I had was to roll my eyes. Squirming away from him, I walked over to my closet and found a pair of light gray sweat pants. I threw them on and got a red fitted shirt. I sat at the edge of the bed and put on my red and gray nikes. As I was lacing up my shoes I looked at Rick.]

Brandi James:"Yeah..I'll remember that when I have a fat ass and huge stomach. On a night I come home and find you in bed with a woman skinner than I am."

Rick Young: "I would never do anything like that to you sweet heart, because I don't want to ruin our family."

[ Rick said, as he looked at me as he put his hands on to hips. ]

Brandi James:"Rick....I know you....You like sex too much...as do I. But I'm sure you're not going to find me attractive....and we all know what you did to Thersea when she had her surgery and could have sex with you."

[ Without realizing it, I pushed myself off the corner of the bed. I guess it was my way of trying to practice getting up for when I actually do have a large belly. I began brushes my hair and applied my peach lip gloss. Smugly I turned around and crossed my arms than arrogantly said.]

Brandi James:"No! I do not think you would have gone back to Thersea by now if you were just in it for the sex...I'm amazing in bed...you wouldn't leave me for a cold fish like her."

Rick Young: "And I wouldn't leave you for anyone else either, because compared to you they would all be cold fish."

[ Rick said, as he got up off the bed and started to walk over towards me once again. ]

Brandi James:"We'll see...."

[ Was all I said as I looked down at the floor while Rick walked closer to me.]

Brandi James:"Rick, I have to go....Or I'll be late."

Rick Young: "Alright I'll see you later."

[ Is all he said to me before he kissed me on the forehead. ]

Brandi James:"Yeah....by then I'll know how fat I got. And have huge horse pill size vitmins to take"

Rick Young: "Just do me one favor sweetheart."

[ Rick started to say, but paused for a moment before he kissed me on the lips slightly. ]

Rick Young: "Just remember that I love you."

[ grabbing my pocketbook by the foot of my bed. I fished my car keys out of it, then flug it over my shoulder.]

Brandi James:"Hopefully..... I won't be too long...suppose I should get use to the doctors office."

Rick Young: "I guess so too...you sure you don't want me to come with you?"

Brandi James:"I can tell you don't want to...It's fine...I'll be fine alone. Never really exspected you to come anyway........oh..."

[ walking way from Rick heading towards my closet I began to mumble and then found what I was looking for. A small tape recorder that I put into my pocket as I said.]

Brandi James:"Jalie will have my head if I don't send her a copy of the baby's heart beat."

Rick Young: "I don't think she would really take your head, because then she would never get the chance to shop for our baby."

[ Rick said, with a smile on his face. ]

Brandi James:"Laugh it up funny man...you know what I mean. She wanted to come with me, but she had a change of plans at the last minute...So I'm on my own. So...I guess just let me know what you want for dinner and when I get home I'll cook for us."

Rick Young: "Okay I will see you later and I will try to think of something that doesn't require a whole lot of work for you to make."

[ Rick said, leading me on to believe that he was going let me cook tonight, but I could tell from the look in his eyes that he plans on surprising me with dinner by the time I get home later. ]

Brandi James:"Wonderful....."

[ Maybe I shouldn't have been disappointed but I was. I guess in my head the fantasy I built up was that Rick would actually want to go to these doctor appoints with me. Who was I kidding the man is nearly heartless he does cut people with a razor after all. I opened the door to my silver BMW and got in. After about a minute I reached in my pocket book for my cell phone. And began to scroll for someone to come with me. I immediately dialed up my trusty agent Stevie Mancini phone picked up voice mail right away which means she probably shut it off because of a meeting or something...a message to meet me there wouldn't hurt.]

Brandi James:"Hey Steve's....It's Brandi....look...I have a doctor appointment to go to and well Jalie is a bit busy...and well Rick just flat out doesn't want to go...and I could really use the company...so when you get this call me right away...."

[ I briefly paused then let a slight sigh out...]

Brandi James:"I could really use you right now Steve's....I'm sorta nervous and scared....anyway call me..."

[ I drove away still looking at my phone that I placed by my side hoping it would ring any moment. Like constantly looking at a phone could make it ring. Well it wasn't like I didn't try. Yet it didn't ring at all. Not at any of the 5 sets of red lights. Not in the parking lot at the doctor's office. Not on the way up in the elevator...and not after I already signed in. Here I am just laying on table in the office looking around the room. My weight had already been taking and I was in that stupid paper night gown as I waited.]

[ Back at the house Rick put on his shoes on and then wrote out a note leaving it on the fridge in the kitchen for someone. He looked over it for a moment to make sure everything was the way that he wanted in and then headed out to get in to his truck and took off. A little while later as I laid there in the paper gown waiting there was a knock on the door to the room I was in. At first I thought it was the doctor, but when the door opens up I am surprised to see Rick coming in to the room.]

Rick Young: "Hey sweetheart."

[ Rick said, with a smile on his face and the further he came in to the room I could tell that he was hiding something behind his back. ]

Brandi James:"What do you want? The doctor will be here any minute."

Rick Young: "Well I wanted to be here for this, but I had to stay back at the house for a minute to start setting up a surprise for you and on the way over here I picked these up for you..."

[ Rick said, as he pulled out from behind his back a dozen white roses. ]

Rick Young: "Just a little something for the mother of my child."

[ Slightly I turned my head...very unimpressed and really couldn't have cared less. Just as I was about to speak the doctor walked in. He look directly at Rick and put his hand out to shakes Rick's hand.]

Doctor:"Ah...you must be the farther of the baby......Mr. Young my kids are big fans of yours. Everytime they play wrestle in the back yard they fight over who gets to be "The Razor"."

[ Rick shook the doctor's hand and he couldn't help but smirk at the comment about doctor's children fighting over who gets to be him when they play wrestle. ]

Rick Young: "You know what they say...why be the rest when you can be the best."

[ Rick said, as his smirk turned in to a slight smile. ]

Rick Young: "But that's enough about me...we are here to talk about Brandi and our baby."

Brandi James:"Exactly....."

[ God....does this torture ever end? Rick was still holding on to the roses with his free hand as he let go of the doctor's hand with the other one. Rick moved a little closer to me and kissed me on the forehead once again and whispered in to my ear...]

Rick Young: "I love you."

Doctor:"I'm sure..Mrs. Young..."

[ Oh he wasn't going to do that....I really hate stupid people. It says James on my file..I swear if this man can't read I didn't want his hands anywhere near my body.]

Brandi James:"You can see on that chart...or I hope you can see it...It reads Brandi James...Not Young...."

[ He glanced at the chart....then looked at Rick and said.]

Doctor;"Oh...My mistake....won't happen again.'

[ Rick looked at me for a moment before he looked at the doctor as the doctor started to look at him.]

Rick Young: "Make sure that it doesn't, because I really don't want anything bad to happen to you."

Doctor:"I didn't mean anything by it....I just thought that you were married...Or I could have sworn my kids said you were. No matter...."

Rick Young: "We're engaged to be married...that's a big difference from being married."

[ Rick said, before he looked at me again as he paused for a moment before finishing what he was saying..."

Rick Young: "Not to mention we haven't discussed yet whether or not Brandi was going to take my last name or not. Now with that out of the way can we get on with this, because I doubt Brandi wants to be here all day wearing that paper gown."

Brandi James: "Hell No I don't...It's not that sexy..."

[ I watched the doctor wash his hands then take a tube of ointment out of the draw. He walked over to me. Carefully he lifted my paper gown, and un-caped the tube. ]

Doctor:"this maybe a bit cold Brandi...."

[ Mother fucker cold was an understatement as he rubbed the ointment on my belly. It felt like the put the tube in the freezer the gel was so cold. Then he turned on the little radio machine speaks hooked up to the monitor and with his gentle glide he began circling the interstrument around my stomach.]

Brandi James:"Holly Fuck...that's freezing...I'm getting chills..."

[ Rick just stood there watching, because there wasn't really that much he could do at the moment. However, I so wish he could feel how fucking cold this thing is. He kissed me on the forehead gently as he didn't take his eyes off the monitor. ]

Rick Young: "I know it's cold, but it's not that bad."

[ Bullshit...how would you know...]

Brandi James:"You have no idea how cold this is..."

Rick Young: "You got me I don't know, but I bet it could be worst...nothing can be colder than being locked outside in the snow in Canada with no clothes on."

[ Rick said, with a smile on his face as he was trying to take my mind off how cold the instrument is. Looking un-amused at Rick I dared to ask.]

Brandi James:"And you know that first hand?"

Rick Young: "Well I wasn't totally naked, but boxers don't do too much to keep you warm..."

[ Rick said, as his smile quickly faded away which meant that he was telling the truth. ]

Brandi James:"I'm not even going to ask, cuz I'm almost sure I don't want to know."

Rick Young: "That's a relief, because it's probably a story best told at home in private..."

Brandi James:"Great...."

[ I said rolling my eyes...Just as I finished his last word, our doctor interrupted our little bickering.]

Doctor:"Excuse me...Ms. James...Mr. Young...listen to this.."

[ He turned up the volume to the monitor...and you could hear sounds waves from inside me. Almost sounding like the ocean if you will...then stedy patterns of a heart beat could be heard. I shut my eyes wanting to remember the sound of my baby. When my eyes opened they were filled with tears. Here we go....me getting all emotional again...Rick started to smile again from our baby's heartbeat as he took his right hand and wiped some my tears away before he leaned down to kiss me softly on the lips. ]

Rick Young: "That's...s...so amazing."

[ I could believe my eyes when I saw Rick start to get all choked up with the excitement of hearing our baby's heartbeat. ]

Brandi James:"That's you inside of me....Rick..."

[ I said with my voice soft, as I kissed his cheek.] Doctor:"The baby has a very strong heart beat...that's one very strong baby you're having Brandi..Now if we can just get you to gain more than 4 pounds we'll be all set. Just to remind yourself it's normal if a woman gains 25 pounds while she's pregant..you're already 15 weeks pregant. You need to gain about 21 pounds young lady."

Brandi James:"No.....I won't....I'll do what I need to but I'm not putting alot of weight on.. I still do have someone I need to look as attractive as possible for."

[ Rick smiled, because he knew I was talking about him, but I know what he'll say that he think I am attractive even if I do gain those twenty one pounds, but that doesn't mean that he will mean it, because he hasn't seen me with those twenty one extra pounds on me. ]

Rick Young: "Baby you will be attractive to me no matter how much weight gain during this pregnancy."

Brandi James:"Said the man who will go find the first ring rat with an ass tighter then my pregant one..."

[ The doctor turned the volume up a little more as the baby's heart beat could be heard clear as day.]

Doctor:"That's one strong boy you have there..."

Brandi James:"YOu can tell from this...I'm having a boy?"

Doctor:"Not exactly....It's a guess....but I have been know to be very correct. we'll know for sure in another few weeks when we do the ultra sound... ...providing he or she doesn't have their legs crossed..."

[ Rick couldn't help, but laugh slightly at my last comment about having their leg crossed. ]

Rick Young: "I have a feeling that the baby is going to be boy."

Brandi James:"Oh you do, now do you? Why is that?"

Rick Young: "Because I have always pictured that the first child fathered by me would be a boy."

Brandi James;"I'll laugh if the baby is a girl..."

Doctor:"Well Alrighty Ms. James your done....I gave you, your script..see my office has booked you for your next appoinment in 2 weeks...So please try to gain some weight by then....oh and here....we didn't have a tape to put your baby's heart beat on but we do have a cd...enjoy...You may get dressed now"

[ I hoped up off the table and put my feet on the floor. Grabbing a few tissues I wiped the goo off my stomach and tossed them into the bucket. Then quickly put on my clothes. Rick just stood there watching me dress. Once I was dressed we just looked at each other. He stood in front of me placing his hand on my stomach and softly kissed my cheek. Together we walked out of the office happy after hearing the sound of our childs heart beat.]