[ Music is the staple of life. Well it’s a staple in my life. Any happy, sad, mad, angry, emotional memory is tied to a song. Whatever I’m doing I have a radio blaring in the same room as I’m in. Today is no different as I’m cooking in my kitchen. My radio blaring with a Cd mix that I have done. Keeping me company today is my long time friend and agent Stevie Mancini. I really missed having her around and she’s been so busy trying to keep my affairs in order which is a job all in it’s own. It’s just nice to have her home and around again. Especially since the baby will be born soon and she’s still trying to edge Jalie out for the title of Godmother. Although nothing against Stevie but it’s going to be hard. Jalie is definitely my first choice, it’s still fun though to watch her try to so hard. I cleaned up the counter a bit and waited for Stevie to open the cans of tomato sauce and paste for the sauce I’m making for tonight’s dinner. I’ve had the biggest craving for lasagna so I figured since Stevie was going to be joining us for dinner why not make it. The two of us were dressed in shorts and tank tops bare foot...Ha! Funny shit right…I’m bare foot and pregnant! What a fuckin’ laugh… Still didn’t stop me from dancing around my kitchen with Steve’s as if I were not having a baby.]

Brandi James-Young:”Think you can keep up Steve’s?”

[ laughing a bit she took my hand.]

Stevie Mancini:”Oh gee mommy, I think so…”

Brandi James-Young: “Is that so? I maybe be knocked up...but I can still shake my ass…with the best of them.”

Stevie Mancini:”Girl, I don’t doubt that….”

Brandi James-Young: ”Turn it up….”

Stevie Mancini:”Whatever you want mommy…I love Yankee Daddy..”

Brandi James-Young:”Me too...I can’t listen to it a lot though.”

Stevie Mancini:”Why not?”

Brandi James-Young: ”I don’t think Rick’s really a fan…I always catch him making faces when he hears it…plus he barely dances with me anyway…”

Stevie Mancini:”Really?”

Brandi James-Young:”Yeah…he’s never really danced with me. You know me...I always have music playing when I’m cleaning or cooking. I’m always dancing around my house doing whatever…not once did Rick ever grab me and just start dancing with me.”

Stevie Mancini:”Christ, I remember I came over here one time and you were suppose to be cleaning the house. I walked in and saw you giving Beckett a lap dance with his hands right on your tits.”

[ I was walking to the fridge to get out the cheese and eggs. I opened the door removed them and paused. Then smiled as I shut the door and walked back to the counter.]

Brandi James-Young: ”I remember that…I don’t know who was more embarrassed you for seeing it, or Josh. When I was the one standing there in only in my lace thong and nothing else.”

Stevie Mancini:”No kidding, it was pretty funny. He was like...hey Steve’s …um…Brandi’s uh, sore all over.”

[ We just started laughing because the both of us could see his face in our heads.]

Brandi James-Young:”Oh I know that was almost as good as when we were flying back from La after they played the dodgers and the stewardess caught both of us coming out of the bathroom after we just had sex..”

[ Stevie covered her mouth as she giggled then interrupted me and pointed.]

Stevie Mancini:”Right,…she caught you both as you opened the door and he was right behind you with his hand on your ass. He was like um…we were just washing our hands.”

Brandi James-Young:”Yep, that’s exactly what he said. I almost forgot you were in earshot of that. That was funny because you know she didn’t believe it since I was trying to fix my skirt.”

Stevie Mancini:”At least he was trying to be a gentleman.”

Brandi James-Young:”True, that’s one thing about Josh. He always hated the press. The less they knew about him and our love life the better. The last thing he wanted was for his parents to read how we joined the mile high club on a flight from LA to Miami.”

Stevie Mancini:”He did always think about stuff like that though. How it would affect the people, he loved. It was sorta cute.”

Brandi James-Young:”Always…I remember when we went into the bathroom he lifted me up on the sink, and put his hand up my skirt. Then looked at me and was like “Brandi no panties?”…I said, “Now why would I make this hard for us? There’s such limited room to start with.” Which was true…he just kissed me and unbuckled his jeans, wrapped my legs around his waist then held my hands the whole time…..Ooooohhhh….Steve’s….remember this song?”

Stevie Mancini:”How could I not…I love K7…this is your song B….”

[ Steve’s took my hand as we twirled each other around then started closely dancing together.]

Stevie Mancini:”In some secluded rendezvous..... That overlooks the avenue...... He stepped into the streets and walked up to this girl..... He had a cap tooth made of gold..... He had an earring in his nose..... And her looks,.... that a night he liked to twirl,,,.... And he says:

"I love the way you look at me, I love your smile... Why don’t you come and talk to me just for a while?.... Give me your love, oohhh give me your love.... Why don’t you come and talk to me, give me your love?..... “

[ I was finally having a good time and felt so free. Just hanging with Stevie like we have so many times before. I started to feel like me again.]

Brandi James-Young: ” And now the hours go by fast..... And memories come from the past...... As he tells the girl the story of his life..... You see a long long time ago.... He fell in love, but let her go..... And if he had the chance again, shed be his wife.... “

[ Stevie pulled me close and her . There we stood forehead-to-forehead looking into each other’s eyes and just smiling. She twirled me around and I twirled her, as we continued to shake our ass’s dances.]

Stevie and Brandi:” And he sings to her nightly, he says .....Lydia, oh Lydia, I wish I didn’t get ridda ya.... Lydia I miss your rose tattoo..... There’s some things I cant forget.... Oh hunny why did I dis ya? ....(you can learn a lot from Lydia) I gotta move it like this..... “

[ The two of us couldn’t stop smiling and laughing…Till I remembered.]

Brandi James-Young: ”Fuck the sauce…one sec Steve’s….”

[ Brandi stirs the sauce, as Stevie keeps dancing. Brandi lowers the sauce then turns back to dance with Stevie. As I turned back to continue dancing with Stevie the both of us didn't notice Rick come in to the kitchen with a smile on his face as he just watched the two of dancing together before he finally said... ]

Rick Young: "Careful Brandi...barefoot and pregnant...your father might start thinking your getting a redneck."

Brandi James-Young: "No, he's knows better than that...I'd have to have a couple teeth missing first."

Rick Young: "Ah true..."

[ Rick said, as he turned to look at Stevie still smiling... ]

Rick Young: "And I didn't forget about you Stevie...hi."

[ He said, as if he could read her mind as if that was really what she thinking anyway. ]

Stevie Mancini: "Hi, Rick...I'll turn this down.."

[ Stevie immediately walked to the radio to turn it down.]

Brandi James-Young: "We were...ummm....just chatting while I cooked dinner.. When did you get home?"

Rick Young: "Just got back a few minutes ago."

[ Rick said, with a smile on his face as he walked up to me and placed his hands on my hips. ]

Brandi James-Young: "Oh..."

Stevie Mancini: "So...Then...yeah..."

[ Stevie and Brandi just looked at each other as if to say...shit, I wonder how much he heard. Stevie just looked at Brandi and shrugged.]

Stevie Mancini: "want me to get the garlic powder?"

Brandi James-Young: "That would be great Steve's thanks.."

[ As Stevie went to get the garlic powder Rick was still smiling at me before he leaned down close to my ear on my left side before he whispered... ]

Rick Young: "I would dance with you sweet heart, but I can't..."

[ Rick then pulled his head back up from my ear, but he was still smiling... My face just turned pale. I nervously giggled...and tried to play it cool.]

Brandi James-Young: "That's ok...I ah....never said anything about that...Besides Steve's is a great dance partner..."

[ Steve spun around and handed me the garlic powder.]

Stevie Mancini: "Garlic powder...anything else?"

Brandi James-Young: "Ah, I basil? "

[ Stevie snapped her fingers then nodded.]

Stevie Mancini: "Right! You got it..."

Brandi James-Young: "See...we're cooking..."

Rick Young: "Brandi...I know enough to know that...you two weren't talking about cooking."

[ Rick said, which obviously meant that he heard most if not all of the conversation I was having with Stevie. Rick however, didn't see to upset though and considering the way that Stevie and I were talking about things I had done with Josh it's very surprising. Rick calmly though reached over and dipped his index finger in to the sauce and then pulled it back, up, and finally in to his mouth. He hummed a little bit as he tasted the sauce. ]

Rick Young: "Very tasty sweet heart."

Brandi James-Young: "Umm thanks...I guess being Italian helps..."

Stevie Mancini: "That's true...I'm sure it does..."

[ both of us stood there feeling very awkward. ]

Brandi James-Young: "You know Steve’s it's always good to put a pinch of sugar to soak up the acid from the tomatoes?"

Stevie Mancini: "Good to know...I’ll do that next time.."

[ What the hell was there left to say? This could only get worse. Rick just looked at me for a moment as his smile turned in to smirk as he pulled me closer to his body and kissing me on the forehead which started me wondering if he was trying to play some kind of mind game with me with how calm he is being. ]

Rick Young: "Something wrong Brandi?"

Brandi James-Young: “No...nothing at all just trying to show Stevie how to make my famous lasagna."

[ Did I ever mention Stevie doesn't know when to shut up? Well she doesn't especially when she's nervous.]

Stevie Mancini: "Yeah that and teaching me that hot ass shaking thing you do when you dance..."

[ I swear if she wasn't so damn good at making me money, I would have killed her.]

Brandi James-Young: "Shut up Steve's!"

Rick Young: "Hey be nice Brandi...I could already tell that you teaching her how to shake her ass...I mean I got I saw how you were shaking that sexy ass of yours baby."

[ Rick said, as she reached his right hand around to my back and then slapped my ass playfully. What happened next though I didn't see coming, because he put his right hand back on to my hip and then started swinging both his lips back and forth and I couldn't help, but giggle a little bit, because it was obvious that he can't dance, because he can't even swing his hips to the beat of the music... Stevie busted out laughing.]

Stevie Mancini: "Ok white boy...never do that again...at least Brandi has a tiny hint of Latina in her she can get away with it.."

Brandi James-Young: "Rick...please we're trying to make dinner."

Rick Young: "Fine...I know when I am not wanted...I will just go play my video game and kill Josh Beckett's ERA on it..."

[ Rick said, as he stopped swinging his hips with a smile on his face before he kissed me on the lips shortly before turning around to head out of the kitchen. ]

Brandi James-Young: "What the fuck was that about?"

[ Stevie leaned her head on my shoulder and twirled my hair around her fingers.]

Stevie Mancini: " I think someone is jealous Brandi.."

[ I just sighed.]

Brandi James-Young: "Was it really needed to bring up Josh's name? I mean...to say he's going to kill his ERA...Was it needed?"

Stevie Mancini: "Brandi, I think he heard everything we said..."

Brandi James-Young: "Who knows...I'm sick of the games like that though. If he did then fuckin' call me out on it.."

Stevie Mancini: "Maybe he's hurt.."

Brandi James-Young: "Steve's please just get me an onion from the fridge.."

[ Little did Stevie or I know for that matter that Rick stopped right outside of the kitchen up against the wall listening to what we said. He probably even stood there thinking that he could have said "That he was going to kill Josh with Spike Dudley on Smackdown vs. Raw 2006 game instead." He doesn't know that I know about the crappy create a wrestler version of Josh that he made on the game, but I do know about it. The next thing we knew Rick came back in to the kitchen saying... ]

Rick Young: "You know Brandi...your not the only one sick of the games being played. I mean you go and have Alex on the Fiasco last week behind my back and despite the restraining, you didn't even have him arrested, and on top of that you gave your father the idea for the money in bank for Alex...I am I missing anything?"

Brandi James-Young: "Gee, Maybe...You're missing the fact that I can't arrest Alex while he's trying to do his job...which he was...Besides this twisted fight is with the two of you...also for the record the Money in the Bank wasn't fully my idea to give to Alex...My dad wanted viewers...I suggested a tournament...to reward the winner with a cash prize and contract to use when ever they wished to...My dad just named Alex the winner instead of having a tournament...so get your facts right asshole..."

[ I couldn't help it...I slammed down the spoon I stirred the sauce with. Sauce splattered all over the stove and a bit on the wall. Steve's stood there just frozen onion in hand.]

Rick Young: "Well maybe I would have all the facts straight if you would talk to me more often."

[ Rick said, as he stood there right in front of the door in and out of the kitchen. ]

Brandi James-Young: "Well maybe if you just asked instead of trying to spy on me...then I would..."

[ Stevie walked to the counter and put the onion down...then interrupted us.]

Stevie Mancini: "Guys, I'm gonna take off..."

[ I looked at Stevie...how dare she want to leave me, especially when I need her.]

Brandi James-Young: "Where the fuck do you think your going to?"

Stevie Mancini: "I promised Dontrell that I'd show him a proposal of what I can do for him if I were to represent him..."

Brandi James-Young: "Funny you didn't mention that before..."

Stevie Mancini: “I forgot...but I need to prepare.."

[ Rick just stood there for a moment and looked at Stevie for a second, but then quickly turned his attention back to me. ]

Rick Young: "Maybe I should ask more, but you know Brandi I am not suppose to always have to ask to find out what is going on with you and I am sorry about the spying, but damn it Brandi it seems to me that you have been hiding something since before Xtreme Warfare."

Brandi James-Young: "Oh, is that so?"

Rick Young: "Yeah...I haven't figured out why yet, because I have been trying to find out on my own...just why you told the doctor I wanted to stay in the hospital when I was fit enough to go home that night even though I put my life on the line in that Insanity Cage match."

Brandi James-Young: "I wanted to make sure you were fine...Why is that so hard to believe?"

[ Slowly Stevie inched towards the table and picked up her pocketbook...then crept to the door.]

Stevie Mancini: "Ok then...on that note...Brandi, I'll call you tomorrow...for another lesson..."

[ She looked at Rick..]

Stevie Mancini: "For cooking...of course...and ummm you two enjoy dinner.."

Brandi James-Young: "Steve's wait ! Don't leave..."

Stevie Mancini: "I have to ..sorry call ya later...love ya.."

[ Rick didn't pay Stevie any mind as he just stared at me for a moment before he finally said something... ]

Rick Young: "I don't doubt that Brandi...you have always looked after me to make sure I was fine, but between the tape of you falling off the ladder and then Alex kissing you...it did leave me with a nagging feeling that there could have been more to you having me staying in the hospital other than just to make sure that I was fine."

[ Rick said, as he walked up to me again getting out of the way of the doorway so that Stevie could leave now with out having to push by Rick to do so. Rick placed his hands on my shoulders... ]

Rick Young: "I don't mean to imply that is something going on with the two of you, but you can see how I can get worried about that alone and then add in the way that you get when you get when Josh is pitching...I am just worried that I am losing you and our baby."

Brandi James-Young: "Rick, there isn't anything going on between me and Alex...I don't know what else to say to you.."

[ I didn't even want to look at him...what started off as a good day was slowly turning sour.]

Rick Young: "Brandi...look..."

[ That's all he said, before he took his right hand off my shoulder to lift my chin up making me look at him. ]

Rick Young: "I believe you and I am sorry for the way I've been acting."

Brandi James-Young: "That's fine..."

[ I lowered my eyes then side stepped him and took a few steps to the counter. I picked up a knife and began to cut the onion that Stevie left there.]

Brandi James-Young: "dinner will be in about an hour...so do whatever till then.."

[ As I stood there cutting the onion I half expected Rick to leave the kitchen and go watch television at least or playing his game he just bought himself, but he surprised me again as he walked up behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist. He rests his chin down on my shoulder and I turn my head slightly to look at him and he has this weird look on his face before he cleared his throat slightly before... ]

Rick Young: "I'm finding my way back to sanity again, though I don't really know what I'm gonna do when I get there, and take a breath and hold on tight, spin around one more time, and gracefully fall back to the arms of grace..."

[ At first it was too low that I couldn't make out what he saying...well singing for that matter, but as he went on he slowly got a little bit louder. ]

Rick Young: "Cause I am hanging on every word you say and, even if you don't want to speak tonight, that's alright, alright with me, cause I want nothing more than, to sit outside Heaven's door, and listen to you breathing, is where I wanna be yeah…"

Brandi James-Young: “Rick, I'm not in the mood right now...just please..."

[ I took a deep breath...and tried my best to tune him out. Did he really think this would work for me? Hell, I hated that song...There are a few songs that are right that will make me melt...and it seemed only Josh knew them..]

Brandi James-Young: "It's a nice thought...but...I...I don't know.."

[ Rick just stood there holding on to me as he let out a sigh of disappointment. ]

Rick Young: "Is there something bothering you Brandi?"

Brandi James-Young: "No...I don't get it...You’ve never sang to me before...so why now? And why that song? I....oh "

[ I finished cutting the onion and laid down my knife, and placed my hands flat on the counter.]

Rick Young: "The song...well it's the first one that I came to mind that I knew the words to...as for singing to you now...there's just a first time for everything I guess."

[ He said, trying to act innocent as he held on to my waist. ]

Brandi James-Young: "Sure, I guess...excuse me.."

[ I said as I picked up the onion then put it into the pan. I stirred it for a second then washed my hands at the sink.]

[ Rick looked at me for a moment before he turned me around so that I was looking at him again. ]

Rick Young: "Look Brandi I know I am not everything that your father wants for you in a man, but I will do anything to be the man that you want me to be."

Brandi James-Young: "Then that would make you someone you aren't...I can't ask you to be someone your not..."

[ I paused...then reached back to shut the water. I wiped my hands then looked at Rick.]

Brandi James-Young: "Rick, you'll never actually voluntarily want to go to a nice place like Morton's to eat...Hell you'll look at the price and think it's way too much...not realizing that you pay for the privacy of a place like that...you don't have kids screaming running wild or menu's that come with crayons...You have button down shirts, you're a t-shirt type of guy...and that's fine...We both know we are a bit different...but I wouldn't change for you...and I don't expect you to do that for me...we'll just learn to adjust.."

Rick Young: "That's all true, but Brandi marriage is about compromise and I haven't done much of that. I mean Brandi you have went out of you way twice for me to get me food that you despise. It's only fair that I give back some of what you give me."

Brandi James-Young: "It's fine...I’ll live...it's not a huge deal...really don't give it another thought...because it's not how I want it...You'll feel like you have to go...and I'll have a very guilty and bad time...I don't want to talk about it...ok?"

Rick Young: "We will drop it for now, but I rather do something for you than always you doing for me. I mean what kind of husband would that make me?"

[ Rick said, before he leaned in to me and kissed me softly on the lips. ]

Brandi James-Young: "fine...Just go do whatever while I finish this up.."

[ Rick looked at me again for a moment before he put my hands on my hips once again, but this time he lifted me up off the floor by my hips placing me on the edge of the sink. He pushed his way in-between my legs as he slightly tilted his head up to look at my face... ]

Rick Young: "And what if whatever I want to do is just be right here with you?"

Brandi James-Young: "Be with me?"

[ I looked at him as if he were insane...]

Brandi James-Young: "Rick, if you want to watch me cook dinner fine...if you want to help fine..."

Rick Young: "What's so surprising about me wanting to be with you? Here lately we haven't really spent all that much time together expect for when we go to bed. I just want to spend some time with you."

[ Rick said, just before he leaned forward resting his chin right on the center of my breasts while still looking up at me. ]

Brandi James-Young: "Ok let me down then so we can finish dinner.."

Rick Young: "Okay..."

[ He said, which sounded as if he was a little disappointed by what I said, but he only looked at me for a little longer before he lifted me up off the edge of the sink and put me back down on the floor, but he didn't let go of me right away as he pulled me close to his body and kissed me passionately on my lips. ]

Brandi James-Young: "Mmmm, you keep that up and dinner will never get made."

[ I said as I slid my hands down his back.]

Rick Young: "Hmmm, What if I had my eye on something else for dinner?"

[ Rick said, as he smiled devilishly at me as he ran his hands down from my hips and around to my ass where he grabbed of it and then started to rock our bodies back and forth together. As he kissed me again... ]

Brandi James-Young: "I'm not doing McDonald's tonight that was a one shot deal.."

Rick Young: "Who said anything about McDonald's?"

[ That's all Rick said before I felt his hands start to caress my ass instead of just holding on to it. The next thing I knew Rick started to kiss and suck lightly over the side of my neck. ]

Brandi James-Young: "Right here baby?"

[ I looked at him softly biting my bottom lip.]

Rick Young: "Why not sweet heart? We've done it in about every other room in the house, but this one..."

[ He said, as he pulled his face away from my neck to see me biting my bottom lip which made him smirk a little bit, but I also know that he fought the urge of adding that we had done it in just about every room, but this until my parents moved in a couple of houses down. Rick just looked at me for a moment and then kissed again on the lips passionately. ]

Brandi James-Young: "well I did just clean the floor..."

[ I lifted Rick's shirt over his head and we were both about to drag myself and Rick down...there in the door way clearing his throat was my dad..]

Mr. James: “Oh...MY EYES! MY EYES!"

[ Rick turned around the moment that he heard my father's voice coming from behind him. Rick glared at my father, but very calmly and politely which almost scared me a bit when he said... ]

Rick Young: "Couldn't you have called first?"

Mr. James: "To see my baby girl? Are you serious...Brandi...get up from the floor..."

[ Rick and I did get up but not cuz we were told but because we were interrupted. I looked at Rick, then standing on my tip toes whispered to him..]

Brandi James-Young: "I'll be up in the room in about 5 minutes ok?"

[ Rick turned to look and me and I could see that he was still upset over this habit. He kissed me on the cheek before he whispered to me... ]

Rick Young: "I'll be in the living room so we can go upstairs together."

[ He said, before he playfully slapped my assed and turned to leave the kitchen. The moment that he passed my father I could see in his face how much he wanted to hit my father right then and there, but held back from doing so. Rick left the kitchen and went straight to the living room like he said he would, but then slowly made his way back towards the kitchen to see what he can over hear... ]

Mr. James: “Brandi...You're seriously not planning on having sex with now are you?"

Brandi James-Young: "He is my husband daddy.." Mr. James; "What about Josh? It was his birthday on the 15th you know.."

Brandi James-Young: "Yes, and I sent him something.." Mr. James; "You did? "

Brandi James-Young: "Yes and he probably just toss it in the trash.."

Mr. James: "why do you say that? He loves you..."

Brandi James-Young: "Daddy...I don't see Josh banging down my door to be my cowboy and carry me off into the sunset...I don't hear the phone ringing or him leaving messages begging me to come back...let's work it out.."

Mr. James: "What if you never got them?"

Brandi James-Young: "Bull shit! I live here and I know when I get messages...He's not coming back...We will NEVER Be...and the fact whether either one of us like it, is Rick is my husband...and yes...I'm attracted to him...I do find him sexy, and he'll do anything to please me..."

Mr. James: "Because your the best he can do...Josh loves you...You're suppose to be with him in Boston...You can't cheat on him.."

Brandi James-Young: "I can't cheat on my former lover with my husband..? Old man I think they let you out of the looney bin way too soon."

Mr. James: "Brandi Elizabeth James if you fuck him, I'll make you regret it for cheating on Josh! Who btw told me to tell me he misses you and the home run he hit against the Phillies was for you..."

Brandi James-Young: "Just stop it! Stop filling my head with your lies! You do not talk to Josh...he's not calling me, It's done...I have to accept that and so do you daddy."

Mr. James: "I will not! He's not good enough for you! How you can fuck him...I’ll never know.."

Brandi James-Young: "Not only will I let him fuck me, I'm going to let my husband violate me seven different ways from Sunday..."

[ snubbed my nose at my dad and said..]

Brandi James-Young: "You can show yourself out..."

[ Rick stood there on the other side of the door to the kitchen standing perfectly still and trying not to let his temper get the best of him and he comes through the door to yell at my father, but most of all he was starting to get worried that my father was going to drop the bomb that he gave Josh the phone number here so that he could and has called, but I haven't been getting the messages, because Rick has been deleting them and hiding them from me. However, he did start to smile the moment that I told my father that he could show himself out. ]

Mr. James: "Brandi I swear to you if you cheat on Josh...with this piece of trash...I'll make you regret it.."

Brandi James-Young: "your in no position to threaten me...old man...And really think hard about the last fall out we had...is it worth it? Do you have the strength? Don't test me daddy..."

Mr. James: "What if I had proof?"

Brandi James-Young: "from Josh? "

Mr. James: "Yes...what if I can get proof?"

Brandi James-Young: "Stop lying daddy...now go...before you start to hear moans of me screaming Rick's name.."

Mr. James: "Ewww...disgusting..."

[ Rick almost lost if laughing the moment that he heard me say that to my father, but quickly got himself in check to not give himself away that he was listening in. However, he did then think back to the time that he showed my father the tape of us doing it and started to wonder what my father would do if there was a live show, but quick shook his head back and forth trying to get the image of my father out of his head while were doing it... ]