[ Life takes all sorts of crazy twists and turns. If you were to have told me a year ago that I would be getting married again and on top of that be pregnant I would have laughed at you. After I got divorced from Shawn Walsh I felt that marriage just wasn't meant for me. Plus if I ever thought about marrying again I definately would have told you that it would have been to Damien Sparks. Never in my wildest dreams did I think that I'd find the kind of love I had with Walsh again. I guess the old saying "You should Never say Never" is more true then I had wanted it to be. But is this what I really want? Is Rick the man that I really need or the real question that should be asked is, is Rick the man that I really want to be with? You know sometimes I look at him and well..oh you guys know. Rick Young is sexy as hell! He's tall dark hair, those amazing dark eyes with his long eyelashes. Not to mention his thick built chest and big arms. For me the feelings I had to Rick at first were definately lust. It doesn't take a genius to have known that. Still sometimes I wonder about his feelings for me. It's like he puts his family before me when ever he gets the chance. He hides his past from me but yet I have never hid mine. My past has always and is an open book. Instead of telling me about Trinity he waited till the last minute until he could no longer hide the fact that he could have been her father. He allowed her to threaten me and try to frighten me into fearing her. Ha! Sorry but it takes more then what ever she is to do make my heart race. Hell..Now that I think of it he never even confronted her about it. Infact...you know what this is more stress than I need at the moment.

Taking a last look at the conference table set up in the loft area of mine and Rick's ...Casita suite in the Grand Hyatt Hotel in Tampa Bay I made sure there was plenty of food and drink. I took one last sideways glance at myself in the mirror and couldn't help but smile. I actually have a little belly on me. It's so weird how you all the sudden can't help but place your hand on your stomach at any chance you get. Last night I think I rubbed coca butter on my stomach more times then needed. Rick even noticed and made a comment that maybe we should buy some stock in Palmers Coca butter.

***Snap back to reality**** knocks at the door tend to do that to a person when they are in a daze or day dreaming if you will. My first instinct was to call for Stevie to answer it. Then I realized that she and the rest of my crew were on the other side of the door. Silly me in my moment of happy thinking I....oh whatever. I flung the door open and immediately Stevie walked in a circle around me giggling.]

Stevie Mancini:"Oh My God! Brandi!.....You are with out a doubt the cutest thing....I mean c'mon on..just look at that tummy. How cute is that?"

[ What a bitch! I do know that she meant it in the nicest way possible and yes I was just rambling on about how cute I think it looks. But That's not exactly the first thing I want to hear from other people. I'm still Wrestling's Goddess and want to be thought of as sexy despite me being pregnant. Trying to tone down my attitude a bit I just rolled my eyes and groaned.]

Brandi James: "Steve's..You know how sensitive I am about that. Can you please just focus on something else?"

Stevie Mancini: "Sure..."

[ She giggled as she was followed into the room by my lackey Jack who I gained in my seperation from Lane. Along with Producer James and his side kick Nik. ]

Brandi James: "Just grab a seat guys. This really won't be too long today."

Assistant Jack:"Will Rick be joining us?"

[ Gee...what to say what to say. I really wasn't sure where Rick was. Perhaps he was nursing Mike out of drunken binge or overdose. He could be off working out and being stalked by his whatever she is niece and getting belted in the face by her and not doing a damn thing about it. Should I disclose these explanations as to why he isn't here? Nah, I'll take the so called "high road".]

Brandi James: "No...Rick is doing..Well...he's busy.."

[ With perfect timing as always Stevie stands up to begin.]

Stevie Mancini: "Guys as you know this is the first baby meeting..."

[ Then just like that she stopped and looked at me as if she had this incredible news. It really was incredible...oh well you'll see.]

Stevie Mancini:"Brandi..Drew ( My lawyer...) called me and he said that Walsh's attorney phoned him up."

[ Great now she chooses to pause. Feeling my pulse quicken I waved my hand at her to speed it up.]

Brandi James: "And that means something to me because?"

[ A huge smile came across her face as some of the most beautiful words fell from her silicone lips.]

Stevie Mancini:"Walsh has decided to sell you his half of RWA. Which means you'll have full control of it. You can do whatever you wish with it. You can run it all on your own or sell it..."

[ Whoa..I had to take a seat and let that soak deep inside of me. I know none of you understand or even care how huge this is but..]

Producer James: "Damn Brandi. Walsh must be broke or something if he's going to allow you to buy him out."

Nik: "Yah no shit! I mean weren't his exact words in court "Your Honor, I'd rather give that back stabbing whore every last penny I have and live in a card board box next to Hobo Nick before I let that bitch get full control over RWA."

[ Tapping my french manicured fingers on the table I smirked.]

Brandi James: "Yes Nik those were indeed Walsh's exact words. Thank you so much for reminding...As if I would have forgotten them."

Stevie Mancini:"Actually Brandi, Nik is right. Walsh is broke and I'm not just talking I still have a million to spare broke. I'm saying it's he's like a day or two any from applying for food stamps broke."

[ Is it wrong to feel such joy over words like that? Nah...not after the hell I went through with him.]

Stevie Mancini:"So...Do you.."

[ I couldn't belive that she even had to ask.]

Brandi James: "Stevie, if this is indeed true ofcourse I want RWA. How much is Walsh asking."

[ Leaning over to me she whispered in my ear the said amount.]

Brandi James: "You're kidding me right?"

Stevie Mancini:"Nope it's a steel. I'm telling you if we don't jump on this then you're foolish."

Brandi James: "It's not like I don't get money from RWA now. I do own half of it."

Stevie Mancini:"True but you have no real control there. Right now you only get the kick backs. Once he signs on the dotted line you'll get everything. I really don't understand why Shawn wants this but.."

Brandi James: "Because he's lazy that's why. You know that Steve's."

Nik:"He may have been lazy Brandi but the man did love you."

Brandi James:"He did at one time, but I'm sure that I won't get the full truth as to why. But I'm not going to question it. Now let's drop this and get to the real reason we are here."

Producer James:"Right...umm so have we decided on names?"

Brandi James: "I'm thinking Jesse James if I'm having a boy and Alexandria James if I'm having a girl."

[ I could tell everyone was a bit confused due to the silence that just blanketed the room as the last name James followed both names.]

Producer James:"You're not giving the baby Rick's last name?"

Brandi James: "Nope not till we get married then I'll think about it. Farkas is such an awful last name. If Rick's real last name were Young I'd have no problem but Farkas is well..icky. And despite us being engaged the baby will not get his last name till we are married."

Stevie Mancini:"I vote for Jesse. I think Jesse James would be cool."

Nik: "I think you should name the kid after Rick if you're having a boy. How cool would Rick James be?"

[ Nik sits straight up and does a very bad but still funny Chapelle impression.]

Nik: "I'm Rick James Bitch!"

[ Even though his impression wasn't that great we still had a good laugh.]

Brandi James:"Guys your task is to find a paint color I like..Stevie you take purple. I want all the differnt swatches of purple you can find. Nik you take blue and PJ ( producer James if you can't figure that out by now...lol) PJ..you take green. Now make sure you're all writting this down."

Producer James:"You mean no red?"

[ He asked in a mocking tone.]

Brandi James: "What's that supposed to mean?"

Producer James: "I just think since red is Rick's favorite color...."

Brandi James: "No there is to be no red!"

Stevie Mancini: "Brandi, I think that maybe you should install a secruity system."

Nik:"why?"

[ Now Steve has the patience of a damn Saint but even she couldn't help reaching across the table to smack him in the head.]

Stevie Mancini:"Nik! You know Brandi doesn't want to deal with stupid questions. You know the reason why."

Brandi James:"You know what..This meeting is over! Nik...You're really getting on my..."

[ Ouch..wait..this isn't feeling right. Tightly closing my eyes I held my stomach.]

Brandi James: "Stevie...call an ambulence, then call Rick's cell. Tell him to meet me at the hosiptal."

[ In seconds Stevie did just that.She called the rescue squad and left a message on Rick's cell phone. As I waited Nik and PJ helped me to the big soft chair. I could feel my face become all flustered the thought of losing another child is way too much for me. Frantically I began to cry and softly pray as I put my hands together in a praying manor.]

Brandi James: "God..please do not do this to me. Not again...I want this baby more than you can even understand. I love Rick and I want us to be a family. He's everything to me...Please I can't.."

[ It wasn't long before I was taken away. I cried to much my throat hurt along with my back. I was rushed with a police escort to the hospital where I now lay. I never could get use to hopitals at all. The depressing atmosphere the notorious smell of them and it was even worse waiting and wondering where Rick was. ((( jiggle...jiggle))) Yet another snap back to reality. I was hoping that it would be Rick. Needless to say it was not. Still it atleast was the doctor who really was at this point the only person I wanted to see.]

Doctor: "Ms. James.."

Brandi James: "please...tell me..."

[ He blinked his eyes then touched my hand.]

Doctor: "You're both fine..."

Brandi James: "We are? You're sure?"

Doctor: "Yes...although I'd like to keep you over night so you can relax. But your baby is fine and strong and most important healthy and in no danger."

[ To me that was the best thing I have heard in a while. I had nothing left to say but "thank you." at which point after I said that I shut my eyes to finaly rest as I waited for Rick.]