[ I hate the smell of hospitals but then again who actually likes it. My guess someone who's head isn't screwed on too tightly. It doesn't really take a genius for me to explain why I'm here tonight. If you saw Xtreme Warefare and the match between Rick Young and Alex Wilkins..well it takes alot of the guess work out of it. Although I can't speak for the where abouts of Mr. Wilkins what I can say is that I'm sititng in room 702. Clutching a bottle of imported water waiting for Rick to wake up. He's been sleeping more than half the day. The doctors have pumped him so full of pain meds I even have lost track. As I sit quietly watching him lay peacefully I can't help but feel some what responsible. Ofcourse I don't think Rick himself would say that. He had planned on hurting Alex to the point of near death anyway. Even before my father showed up. Still a part of me can't help but think that he knows something more. That he knows about what had happened between Alex and myself. If not then he's bound to find out. Things like that never remain secret for long. I couldn't help that thought from running through my head all day as I looked at my cut up and bruised up lover. I definately may have a bit of explaining to do. I wonder if the arguement that a kiss is just a kiss will hold any water. Time will have to be the judge of that one. I softly held Rick's hand and leaned my head against the side of the bed next his. From what the Doctor's have told me that he is aware of his surroundings and maybe talking to him might do him some good. Oh well here goes nothing I guess.]

Brandi James:"Baby....Baby?...I just want you to know that I'm so proud of you. I just wish that you didn't risk yourself that way."

[ leaning over I kissed the top of his forehead.]

Brandi James:"Rick,...."

[ Sitting back down in my chair I lowered my head. My eyes filled with tears at the thought of just how injured he really was. So far they did a full MRI, Catscan, and checked every bone possible. The only thing I knew for certain was he had a slight concusion. But I wondered if even that was dignosted right. I softly began to cry to myself. If Rick did wake up the last thing I wanted was for him to see how upset I was and it certainly isn't good for the baby either. I felt so helpless, I...felt a strong hand on my right shoulder. Atfirst I didn't want to look up thinking that maybe it was Mike. Mike probably would blame me for all of this. Saying how Rick did this to impress me and such. Is it wrong to admit that a small part of me was turned on by this? oh never mind..turning my head slightly I looked over my shoulder to see my father standing in back of me. As angry as I was with him I needed him. I wanted my daddy to hold me in his strong arms and tell me that things would be ok. The way he use to do when I was a little girl. Burrying my head into his chest I sobbed. Gentely he glided his big hand up and down my back to calm me.]

Mr. James: "Don't worry pumpkin...everything will work out."

[ Trying to gather myself together before I looked at him I fluttered my eyes.]

Brandi James:"Do you really think so daddy? Because I haven't heard a thing from the doctors yet and Rick hasn't been awake for more than a half hour at a time today."

[ He raised his eyebrow and took a half step back.]

Mr. James: "Rick? Why do I care if Rick is ok? I meant Alex is going to be just fine. He's one tough bastard. As a matter of fact I just came from his room and he's in there making jokes. We both laughed at Rick's unsuccessful attempt at being the World Champion...oh and pumpkin..Alex said to say hello to you."

[ Should this have really surprised me? No it shouldn't have. In the past my father had been known to do some very under handed things. So no this really should have come as no shock but it did. To think that I'm crying over the fact that Rick just put his life on the line and the possibilty that it had to do with me. Let's just say it definately got my temper going. ]

Brandi James: "Enough is enough daddy! Do you even realize how hurt Rick maybe?"

Mr. James: "No..no...Brandi that is not the proper question. The proper question is ..Do I care? Which the answer to that would be...No...I really do not care."

Brandi James: "You're unbelievable..I can't believe that you went to see Alex...I'm sure the two of you had a wonderful time...Ummm where was Faith?"

Mr. James: "Faith?"

Brandi James: "Yes Faith...you know Alex's wife..."

[ My dad just snapped his fingers together like all the sudden he knew who I meant.]

Mr. James: "Oh..right..her...Alex just sent her off on an errand so we could talk."

Brandi James: "Well wasn't that sweet of him..."

Mr. James: "Brandi you know you don't need to behave this way."

Brandi James: "Behave which way? I can't be angry that my own father doesn't give a shit that I'm hurting..or that the only thing he cares about is trying to set me up with a happily married man.."

[ Apparently to my dad that was funny. His chuckle could be heard down the hall.]

Mr. James: "And just who says that Alex Wilkins is happily married? His wife? Pumpkin happily married men do not kiss women the way Alex kissed you. Happily married men do not look at women the way he did after he kissed you. You and Faith can lie to yourselves all you want but it doesn't change that fact."

Brandi James: "What fact?"

Mr. James: "The fact that she's denying that she's not serving all his needs. Sure she's a beautiful woman and a good mother. But being beautiful and a good mother isn't always what a man needs. I give you as a perfect example..your mother. She's beautiful and has done a wonderful job raising our children but there was a point it wasn't good enough for me, I lost interest in that because it didn't do a God damn thing for me. It was the very reason I divorced her in the first place. Men have needs pumpkin...you know that. You know that better than anyone else. She is not satisfying him enough. And you...You can't deny that you liked what happened between you two. I know the men you like..the attitude, confidence the power they wheeled. You want Alex...You know that you do.."

[ I hung on every word that my father said to me. I didn't want to admit that some of his points were valid. If it were when I first came here and I could change it..would I have wanted Alex instead of Rick? Does Alex appeal to me more? He couldn't appeal to me more. Both he and Rick were active on the roster. If I was going to take a man away from his wife then why didn't I just take Alex if that's who I wanted. I can't want Alex....or can I? I chose Rick...he's just what I want. I chose him...I tried to make sense of all of what was being said...I was snapped out of it..when I realized my father was yelling at me and I was stepping back and got myself corner. He was pointing at me like I just did something very wrong and screaming.]

Mr. James: "Admit it! Admit it damn it! Do yourself a favor and Admit that you liked Alex kisisng you...Admit that you want him..You want him to do it again and you want more! Admit you liked it!"

[ I really can't explain what happened but something inside me snapped. I tightly shut my eyes and screamed back.]

Brandi James: "It's not the point if I liked it..."

Mr. James:"You can't say you didn't..."

Brandi James:"No I can't..."

Mr. James:"Why is that?..hunh Brandi..."

Brandi James:"Because a small part of me did! That's why!"

[ Oddly enough my father calmed down upon that admission. He smiled and folded his arms arrogantly.]

Mr. James: "I knew it...Rick is the wrong guy for you. Won't you please just stop being so stubborn and listen to you dad."

[ Putting my head back and trying not to show my father any tears I whispered.]

Brandi James: "I can't...I just can't..."

Mr. James:"but why???"

[ Finally getting enough courage to look at my father with my eyes very glassy and my cheeks wet from the tears that I now wiped I sniffled and took a deep breath.]

Brandi James:"How many lives can I destroy?"

Mr. James: "Brandi...don't think about that..Why is it wrong to want to be happy?"

Brandi James: "Only you daddy think I'm that unhappy..."

Mr. James: "Because I know you aren't as happy as you could be."

Brandi James:"Daddy..I have to stop this...I have to stop this before it's too late."

Mr. James: "Personally it maybe too late already...It's not like you haven't done this before."

Brandi James:"It all started when I was 16 with Dragon...you made me destroy his career. Then ofcourse Kris Kronix..which lead to Sean Lane, Damien Sparks..And Walsh."

[ Chuckling a bit and wipping the last of my tears he said.]

Mr. James:"Walsh and you destroyed each other..."

Brandi James:"Yes..but I took Lane from his girl..I ended Sparks marriage and nearly destroyed him when I married Walsh. And now I meet Rick..he leaves his wife a woman he was with for 11 years and married to for 5 years when I come along. He divorces her for me and asks me to marry him. Now you want me to seperate Alex and Faith so I can be with Alex? Daddy...I don't want to do that to Rick..look at him....I feel partly responsible for him being there and you want me to leave him for Alex and destroy Faith in the process?"

Mr. James: "If it means you and Alex being happy pumpkin then yes. It's all in the name of happiness."

[ He said touching my cheek. I lowered my head in disgust and disappointment.]

Brandi James:"Get out..."

Mr. James:"What? Pumpkin..I don't think ..."

Brandi James:"You heard me right daddy..Please leave for now. If Rick wakes up I don't want to upset him."

Mr. James: "Fine..if I can't convince you...then..well..I won't spoil it.."

[ Without another word and a bit angry my father left the room. As I looked down at the floor of the hospital room I didn't notice Rick turn his head to look at me. He was looking at me and his eyes were pretty glassy from the concussion and the amount of pain medication they have him on right now. When he finally said something to get my attention I could hear the grogginess in his voice... ]

Rick Young: "Brandi..."

[ He stopped after saying my name as if just staying it tired him back out. He licked his lips slightly trying to remoisturize them. ]

Rick Young: "...Can I get some water?"

Brandi James:"Yeah...ofcourse baby..."

[ I walked to the end of the bed where the tray table was with the ice and water. Placing some ice chips in the cup as well I poured Rick his water. Then sat beside him and handed it to him.]

Brandi James:"How are you feeling baby?"

[ Before Rick answered my question he took the glass of water from me and took a big drink from it. He blinked his eyes a couple of times and turned his head back towards me so that he could look at me. ]

Rick Young: "Really numb..."

[ Not that I thought it would make him feel better but more because I wanted to. I leaned over and kisses his forehead. ]

Brandi James:"I wish I could take it away for you.."

Rick Young: "Considering how I felt before they started pumping the drugs in to me...I think I rather feel numb right now."

[ He said, before he took another drink from the glass. ]

Rick Young: "If you want to take anything away from me is the cotton mouth I am getting from the morphine."

Brandi James;"More water?"

Rick Young: "I am fine for now."

[ He said, as he put the glass down next to him on the bed still holding it. He continued to look at me for a moment before he blinked again. ]

Rick Young: "So where is the old fossil? I heard him in here not too long ago."

Brandi James: "He left...but don't worry about him now. Are you hungry baby? Can you eat?"

[ You're about to see exactly how bad I felt. I semi lifted a McDonalds bag that had a Double Quarter pounder only with ketcup, mustard,and lettuce..value meal. I put the coke in the fridge for me since Rick only likes pepsi. I paused for a second awaiting his answer.]

Rick Young: "Straving..."

[ He said, as he let go of the glass of water, but not before he made sure that it wouldn't tip over. Rick then reached out for the bag with both hands. ]

Brandi James: "Just so you know this won't be a habbitt..."

[ I said some what giggling as I handed him the bag. Rick weakly smile as he took the bag from me. He opened it up and the first thing he pulled out the french fries, he took a couple of them and put them in his mouth chewing them up and shallows it. ]

Rick Young: "I know...I am getting special treatment because I am in the hospital."

Brandi James: "I guess you can say that.."

[ I'm not exactly sure why but I just felt so awkard. Rick was in so much pain and my dad and I were just fighting in his room. There were so many differnt emotions I felt.]

Brandi James:"Want me to leave you alone baby so you can eat?"

Rick Young: "No...the color of the walls will make me sick...I rather look at you sweet heart."

[ He said, as he smiled at me again before eating a few more of his fries. ]

Brandi James:"Ok..."

[ What were we to talk about? For the first I didn't really know. Would he be offended by me telling him that he did well even though he didn't win? oh..I guess you can't go wrong with some small talk.]

Brandi James: "Is there anything special you want me to get you baby?"

Rick Young: "The only thing I want right now other than this meal you got me is your dad's head on a pole."

[ Rick said, with so much venom in his tone I would be dead right now if it were a snake bite. However, I couldn't blame him though my father did cost him the match. ]

Brandi James: "I can't give you that. Can't I just get you some fluffy pillow or I don't maybe a fuzzy blanket?"

Rick Young: "I know you can't so I can settle with you telling him that your pregnant with my child."

[ Rick said, as he put the fries to the side so that he could take a sip of the water he left. Before he reached in to the bag to pull out his burger. He opened the box, then lifted up the top bun to make sure the workers at McDonald's made it right. ]

Rick Young: "If you do that...I won't need anything else unless your mom already told him."

Brandi James: "Is it made right baby?"

[ Ok..ok..so I totally avoid the question. Sorry but one fight a day with my dad is enough for me.]

Rick Young: "Yeah it's made perfect, but sweet heart don't side step what I said."

[ I wasn't sure if Rick knew what really was going on with my father when he was in the room or if he was just about to make out my father's voice during our fight. Then a blessing in disguise happened. I felt the baby kick for the first time. I placed my hand on my stomach to feel it and my eyes welled up with tears.]

Brandi James:"Rick...Oh God..put that down.."

[ Rick put the burger down he looked at me with a somewhat confused look on his face. ]

Rick Young: "What's wrong sweet heart?"

[ Which was the nature thing for him to ask since he didn't know what happened with the baby kicking for the first time. ]

Brandi James: "I want you to feel something.."

[ I reached for his hand and placed it on my stomach where I felt it..But nothing happened untill I began to talk out loud.]

Brandi James:"Come on..show daddy...daddy would want..."

[ All the sudden the baby kicked again. I looked at Rick and smiled..]

Brandi James: "Did you feel that?"

[ Rick just laid there for a moment with a puzzled look at first, but he slowly began to smile when he felt the baby kicked again. I took it as it took him a while to feel it since he said he felt really numb. He looked at my stomach and the smile on his face grew wider before he looked at me. ]

Rick Young: "The baby is kicking."

Brandi James:"Yeah..he is.."

[ I just took a breath then licked my lips.]

Brandi James:"You can finish eating now..I just thought you'd want to feel the baby."

Rick Young: "I did want to the feel the baby."

[ Rick caught the sight of me licking my lips and he chuckled a bit. ]

Rick Young: "You want some of this?"

[ He said it jokingly and I knew he said it, because I licked my lips. He reached over and grabbed the burger lifting it up and holding it towards me offering a bite of it to me. ]

Brandi James: "Eww..nasty..no..My lips are a bit dry..and unless you want to puke you'll get that shit away from me.."

[ It didn't take Rick long to move the burger away from me. He took a bite of it and chewed it up quickly so that he turned his attention back to me. ]

Rick Young: "So what did your father want? To gloat that I didn't beat Alex?"

[ Again I didn't know if he actually knew what went on with my father and he was testing me to see what I would tell him or whether he couldn't make out what was said, but could only make out the sounds of our voices. ]

Brandi James:"He just came by to see if I was ok...and yeah..."

[ Well here's the test if he knows anything cuz that right there folks is a blant lie. Rick looked at me for a moment, but took another bite of his burger. The suspence to find out whether or not if Rick knew what went on with my father was killing me. Which started me to believe that Rick did over hear what was going on, but was trying to make me come out and say it. ]

Rick Young: "So the two of you didn't talk about a kiss with Alex?"

[ Rick said, he did hear what went on with my father and I. Personally I thought he would be more upset than what he is, but then again his calmness about the situation is due to the level of morphine he is on right now. ok.. plan b..I began to laugh..]

Brandi James: "Baby...I'm afraid you're hearing things. Maybe it's the meds."

Rick Young: "The medication might do alot of things, but I am positive that I heard the two you talking about a kiss."

[ He said it, totally serious as he looked at me. I just tried to continue to laugh it off as if he was hearing things, but it didn't seem to be helping things any. ]

Rick Young: "Sweet heart I know Alex well enough to know that it isn't below him to force himself on to a woman and I am sure your father is trying to use that to brainwash you in to thinking that you are better off with Wilkins. The moment that I knew that the two of them knew one another I knew that they would work together to try and break us apart."

[ He said, before he had to take another sip of his water to wet his whistle again. Rick put the glass down again it was nearly empty now. ]

Rick Young: "That's why I think it's so important that you tell your father that you pregnant with our child."

Brandi James:"It won't stop him...trust me. If he thinks I'm better suited with Alex nothing will stop him..."

[ There is was the plain truth..]

Rick Young: "You don't have to really tell me that sweet heart...I knew that when he went to the length he did to make sure I wouldn't beat Alex, but you have to stand up to sweet heart by telling him. He might not stop, but he might at least think twice before he does something."

Brandi James:"Then you don't know my father..Rick..I can't tell him. I can't to protect the baby. I know that sounds nuts but hear me out. If I tell him then he will do to desperate measures. I'm talking doing things to make me loose the baby. He would and not even think twice about it. So for right now I just can't. I'm sorry if you can't accept that."

Rick Young: "Since you put it that way...I can accept it."

[ Rick said, with a sigh as if he was defeated. I am pretty sure if he wasn't doped up right now he wouldn't have accepted it so easily, but right now I am not going look a gift horse in the mouth. Rick sighed again as he pushed his food away from him as if he lost his appeite now. ]

Rick Young: "Sweet heart I just thought of something you can do for me."

Brandi James:"What's that baby?"

Rick Young: "When I get released marry me. I know I won't be in the greatest shape for a honey moon, but let's get married."

[ I couldn't tell if he was joking or not, but he was staring right at me wondering what I was going to say. ]

Brandi James:"Maybe we should wait..you know till you know what your doing and saying.."

Rick Young: "I know what I am saying and what I want to do. The baby is starting to kick and soon it won't be long before you will be giving birth to our child and I don't want our child born in to this world when we haven't even gotten married yet."

[ He said, before he paused for a moment. During the pause in what he was saying all he did was blink at me before he continued on with what he was saying... ]

Rick Young: "I was going to wait until after I was the World Heavyweight championship to do this, but I know how much you dislike my last name of Farkas...so I had it legally changed to Young. I've got the paper work to prove it back at the house."

Brandi James: "Rick..you shouldn't have..I mean I'm speechless. You love me that much? To give up your family name like that? what's mike going to say about it? Or your mom?"

Rick Young: "They didn't know yet, but I don't think they will be too mad considering the fact that Young is my mom's maiden name."

[ Rick said, as he smiled at me reaching his hand out towards me to slightly touch my cheek the best he could with out moving too much in the hospital. ]

Rick Young: "And yes Brandi...I love you that much. At Xtreme Warfare I was and still am ready to kill Alex just for you that's how much I love you."

Brandi James:"Then as soon as you get out of here..I think we should go to Vegas and get married. that's if you think you can handle the flight."

Rick Young: "I think I can handle the flight. If I can survive a forty five foot drop I think I can survive a four hour flight."

Brandi James:"Alright baby.."

[ I really was speechless. True I did hate his last name but never in a million years did I think he'd legally change it to Young because of me. Wow...I guess he is hooked on me. I leaned over and kissed his cheek and whispered to him.]

Brandi James: "Too bad we can't sleep together tonight Rick."

Rick Young: "I know we can't sleep...sleep together, but I have no problem or objections to you laying in and sleeping in the bed with me as I am sure I can enough room for you to lay down next to me."

[ He whispered back to me before he passionately kissed me on the lips. ]

Brandi James: "Mmmmm...I have an idea.."

[ Like I said Rick is sexy. Yes I did love the way Alex kissed me. Hell, I may not even mind if he did it again. But I'm with Rick here and now. I got up and shut the door to his private hospital room I requested and took off my shoes and clothes. Only climbing into bed wearing my bra and panties. I kissed Rick back and looked at him.]

Brandi James:"Just relax baby..and then I'll make you relaxed."

[ I said as I winked at him and kissed his neck.]

[ Rick looked at me and smile widely as if he knew what I was planning on doing. ]

Rick Young: "Oh I am relaxed..."

[ He said, before he turned his attention away from me to look at the Morphine drip he was recieving briefly. When he turned his turned his attention back to me he was still smiling before he kissed me on my neck. ]

Brandi James: "Love Me?"

Rick Young: "I love you with all my life sweet heart."

[ What do you say to that? Especially when you know that it was actually meant. I just smiled and softly bit my bottom lip. Then dragged my nails down Rick's chest and kissed my way down as my head disappeared and a soft sucking noise could be heard.]

Rick Young: "Oh baby...you know just what the doctor ordered."

[ Maybe I did but it was the least I could do to relax him. If I asked him to Rick would die trying to move heaven and Earth for me. Like the old saying.."I'm sure if he could he's give me the moon." Sometimes I wonder if Rick loved Thersea this way or is this a special love that was given to only me. Did it matter to me? Fuck yes it does. Although I couldn't worry about it now. For now my focous was on making him relaxed. Hell I don't know a better way to relax a man then feed him his favorite food...no matter how gross the food is, and then give him some well deserved head..Now do you know a better way? Yeah exactly what I thought.]