Once again it's PPV time. Time for each and every AWA Superstar to shine. A chance to make a valuable contribution. A chance to forever write your name in unforgetting AWA moments.

Rick sure as hell will do just that. Jimmy and Adonis? Well, their matches I'm sure we'd all can agree upon forgetting. Right along with their next one. The match I made famous, when I claimed my rights to Rick. The businsess or Pleasures match. Everyone seems to be paired off respectably but me.

Can anyone else see the injustice of me facing an unproven wrestler. I'm talking about Skylar Black..

So....Skylar Black gets her first match in AWA against Me, The Fem-X woman's Champion. Am I wrong here when I say this is uncalled for?

Seriously people. What or should I say who is Skylar Black. Nobody! And yet she's granted the honor of facing me~!~ She really must have fucked Maxwell good for that one. Not the I care about the Fem-x title. Really it isn't about that at all. Hell Skylar can take the belt and try to defend it against people like Tiffany Phoenix. That is should Tiffany ever decided that she is woman enough to come back. We all know that she's gone into hiding after Rick completely humilated her when he dropped his wedding ring on her broke body after chosing me.

Skylar consider yourself blessed and dammed. Blessed because you get the honor of facing Me ! I'm one of the top women the sports entertainment business has. And dammed because you get to face ME! I destroy women like you without even breaking a sweat. You can prepare all you want, but it's not going to help you. I saw you back stage, spilling your sweetness, and kindness....Christ, it really made me sick.

Sweetpea, You're first and last match here in AWA will be at the PPV. Let's see what you're grammy has to say about that....

I'm above you....ME>YOU! Ha...I win, just on the the I'm Brandi F'N James...Fuck YOU!

The Dream...

[ Sometimes we are confused as to why we dreams the things we do. Is it because in our dreams we feel like we're more brave? Sometimes our secret desires come out, and sometimes the feeling we repress do as well. This very well maybe one of those times.

[ It was early morning close to 4am. The effects of the sleeping pill I had taken around 8pm have already started to wear off. I was finding myself a bit restless. Even got Rick's white tank top with the black skelton a bit twisted,and was getting fustrated as I pulled at it. Half asleep a layed on my side, wearing that tank top and white lace thong. I let out a deep breath then wrapped my arms around the pillow next to me. Rick must have walked in to the room as I laid there with my arms around the pillow, because I felt his eyes on me and then I heard my bed room floor creek as he got closer to the bed. He stood at the foot of the bed and started to trace his index finger up my calf as he said under his breath... ]

Rick Young: "God I missed you."

[ I wasn't sure if I was dreaming or not. Rick had been gone for about three days now, and even though I was having a hard time sleeping it was no where near the terror of being with out him the first night he was gone. The one thing I knew was if this was a dream I didn't want to wake up. His touch felt so real, but I kept my eyes shut in the hopes maybe I'd slip fully back into my dream like state. ]

Brandi James: "Mmmmmmmm, yeah..."

[ Was all that escaped my lips. Rick smirk's got a little bigger as he slowly and very gracefully climbed in to the bed. I felt him climb up all the way up the bed to where he was laying with me as he now started to run his finger along my arm that is wrapped around the top of the pillow. ]

Rick Young: "Your so beautiful when you sleep baby."

[ I squirmed a bit and rolled half way over, with my back rolling into his chest. ]

Brandi James: "Rick?"

[ Rick smiled and then put his arm over my waist wrapping me in to his embrace. ]

Rick Young: "Yeah...it's not Santa Clause if that's what you think."

[ I rested my head back, and reached up to touch his face. Gently I rubbed my thumb against his cheek bone. ]

Brandi James: "I haven't believe in that overweight fraud, since I was six and didn't get the exact barbie I wanted......Besides you're so much sexier."

Rick Young: "I know ,and besides if Santa Clause was in this bed, then this year and years to come kiddies wouldn't get any presents, because I would have to kill him."

[ I laughed and stretched a bit, then put my arms around Rick's neck. Then fluttered my eyes a bit as I opened them. ]

Brandi James; "I thought you weren't going to be home for anothe day or two. Is everything ok?"

Rick Young: "I would have stayed there for how long I said I was going to, but the work crew really started to piss me off and I wanted to come back here to keep my sanity."

Brandi James: "To keep your sanity? Were they that bad?"

Rick Young: "To the point I told them to just finish the house whenever they want, and to talk to Tiffany about getting paid...I was done with that house."

[ Rick said as held me closer to his chest. ]

Brandi James: "Done with that house? Meaning?"

[ I asked with a bit a confusion. I didn't know if it was from the effect of the pills, but I felt like I was in a haze. ]

Rick Young: "Between the hurricane's and sharing it with Tiffany and decided that it wasn't worth it. Not to mention I send more time on the road or here than there."

Brandi James: "I guess...."

I turned my head a bit, and rubbed my chin against my shoulder. Still trying to wake up. ]

Brandi James: " I just wasn't aware that Tiffany was still there, I figured she moved out. That eventualy you'd want to go back to your home."

Rick Young: "Last I knew she was staying with her parents until the house was completed other than I don't know and about going home eventually I thought I did until I started getting stared at and shit. It just pissed me off to no end that people couldn't mind their own business."

Brandi James: "Who was staring at you? What did they do?"

[ Maybe I shouldn't have asked, but I couldn't help it. In a small way it had something to do with me, so I felt I had the right to ask. ]

Rick Young: "Everyone was...people I knew, people I didn't, young and old, and hell even my old pastor gave me dirty looks. For the most part it was just dirty looks, but a few of them did get brave and try to give me a piece of their mind before I told them off, but still I don't want to put up with that on a day to day basis since Ragley is such a small town."

[ At first I wasn't sure what to say, or if I should say anything at all. I didn't think anything I could say would make it better. After all I was the cause of this, sure it takes two to tango, but I was the main blame in this all. I saw Rick, I wanted Rick, I got Rick. The best thing I could do was try to ease his anger. I put my hand on the back on his neck and slowly pulled his face close to me, and kissed him. ]

Brandi James: "I'm sorry Rick, but people think they know us from what they see on their Tv's. They have no clue that we have personal lives that we like to keep as private as possible. People will talk, and always talk about shit they have no clue about."

Rick Young: "I know, but it's harder coming from people that you know and people that you seen for most of your life looking at you and talking about you in the way that they are."

[ He said before he kissed me softly on my lips. ]

Brandi James: "this is all my fault."

[ I said is a soft aggrivated voice. ]

Rick Young: "Don't blame yourself Brandi...I made the choice of you over Tiffany, but that's never here nor there. I am with you, because I want to be with you."

[ I sat up feeling a bit unsettled, and looked at Rick. ]

Brandi James:: "Rick, If we're not honest with each other than we're not going to have much of a relationship right?"

Rick Young: "Your right Brandi, but what are you getting at?"

[ Rick said, with a confused tone in his voice. I wasn't sure where to start. My feelings have been all over the place, and I wasn't sure exactly how to begin. I looked at my night stand then grabbed my sleeping pill bottle. I some what held it up, and shook it. ]

Brandi James: "This is what I've become reduce to....Taking these. Especially the first night you were gone. I couldn't rest relax, and sleep."

[ I lowered my head shaking it. ]

Brandi James: " I don't like what you've done to me."

Rick Young: "You don't like what I've done to you?"

[ The bewildered look on Rick's face said about what was going through his mind at the moment. ]

Rick Young: "What I've done to you is worship you like a goddess...what woman wouldn't like that?"

[ I got up out of my bed. Then took a few steps back standing there with Rick's white tank top on with the black skull, and my white lace thong. I pulled at the t-shirt as I began to get angry. ]

Brandi James: "Exactly...I couldn't go to sleep without wearing one of your shirt, because I wanted to feel close to you.....It wasn't suppose to be like this."

[ I said almost as if I were upset with myself for allowing me to feel any emotion that closely resembled love. ]

Rick Young: "Wasn't suppose to be like this? What's that mean? Did you just think that I would say for a night or two or something? Or do you want me to treat you like shit?"

[ Rick said as he got up off the bed and stood next to it placing his hands on his hips looking towards me. ]

Rick Young: "Really I don't see what the whole big is Brandi. A lot of women do that it's natural or something. I don't know."

[ I curled my lips tightly then looked down at the oak floors. I looked at him, and run my hands up across my face then through my hair, and coldy said. ]

Brandi James: "No, I don't want you to treat me like shit. But yes I thought you were only going to stay for few days......Shit..."

[ I bit the side of my mouth lightly, then licked my lips. ]

Brandi James: "I only wanted to fuck you a few times......How's that for honesty? I never thought I'd actually feel this way for you. I don't know if.... ...If I can trust my heart to you."

[ Rick took in a deep breath, and held it in for a minute before letting it slowly out and started to walk towards me with his hands still on his hips. ]

Rick Young: "I say that brutally honesty."

[ Rick said, but from the look on his face there was something that he wanted to say, but at the same time didn't want to say as if admitting it would be a bad thing. I waited for a moment for him to say more, but all he could do was look at me. I put my head back for a moment searching for the exact words to say. Either way it had to come out. Again I looked him dead in his eyes. ]

Brandi James: "Yes it is, and the truth hurts. It still doesn't change the fact that I'm with someone I can never fully have. It doesn't change the fact the woman you call your wife never has and never will appreciate you the way I do. childish crushes, high school sweethearts, it's all fucking bullshit Rick. You should be married to me not her ! She'll never begin to realize how incredible you are. It's so unfair, that I can't sleep without you, it's unfair to me that when I look at you, I get butterflies in my stomach, but yet I'll never be able to call you mine. "

[ I couldn't help it, harsh possible. Truth was I could have said a whole worse. still I said enough of what I need. As I vented my thoughts to him, my eyes filled with tears, I tried to hold them back but couldn't fight it, my voice cracked as I asked Rick. ]

Brandi James: "I did it again....and didn't mean to take another man from his wife. But yet, I saw you and couldn't help myself. I wanted you,,, and I should have known better. Everyone talks about me as well...Is that fair me,..NO ! Where's my happy ending? How could you make me fall in love with you like this....Now you tell me, what do I do about that?"

[ Rick just continued to walk towards me till he stopped right in front of me. He looked at me for a minute before looking down towards the floor. ]

Rick Young: "How could I make you fall in love with me? That's like me asking myself how I could fall for you Brandi. I don't how to answer either one...most of my affairs on my wife last a little bit and then their over and I go back to my wife, but I don't want to go back to her this time."

[ Rick said before he takes his right hand and runs it through his hair a little ways before he looks at me again. ]

Rick Young: "I can't tell you what to do about it Brandi, because I think it's obvious that I don't even know..."

[ I took quick breath. My eyes glassy from the tears. ]

Brandi James: "well some help you are. I'm trying to tell you how I feel....And.....Forget it. Let's just treat this how it's meant to be done..."

[ I stopped myself almost as if this wasn't worth it. Rick obviously didn't know what to say. And it seemed clear to me that he didn't feel the same. He couldn't have, it was painfully clear I put him in an awkard situtation. I walked close to him, and took his hands. I ran them from the top of my shoulders down to my ass, then kissed kissed him. Rick kissed me back while he pulled me closer to him with his hands on my ass. He broke the kiss, but started to kiss down my face to my neck down to my shoulder. Where he stopped kissing and taking in a breath... ]

Rick Young: "Brandi...I... lo... you... more than my wife."

[ Rick said, but I didn't really hear what he said whether was the way he said it or the way he stumbled on what he was trying to say. He kissed my shoulder again and then looked in to my teary eyes bitting on his top lip.]

Rick Young: "I love you Brandi."

[ I begun to shake. A tried to push him away, but he held me tightly to him. He wasn't allowing me to go anywhere. A few tears rolled down my cheeks. ]

Brandi James: "No...You don't mean it......Shame on me for kissing you with my eyes closed so tightly..Shame on me, for wanting you as much as I do."

Rick Young: "Brandi I do mean it...I love you more than I love my own wife."

Brandi James:"Well how wonderful for me...Always the whore that knows how to please a man in bed...Always loved more then his wife, but still some how always..never good enough to fully love..."

[ I looked up at him, and sexily ran my hands down the front of my stomach, and pulls off his tank top I was wearing. Then rolled my shoulders and licked my lips. ]

Brandi James: "So which way do you want to start? Do you want to be on top first,...maybe me...Perhaps fucking me from behind? Which way do you want me?"

Rick Young: "I have an idea..."

[ That's all he said as he led me in to the bath room with my curiousity growing as to what his idea is. He turned on the light and then opened the shower up and let me climb in first. Once I was in I thought he would join me, but he just reached in and turned the cold water completely on and blocked my way out as the cold water started to soak me. ]

Rick Young: "Snap out of it Brandi...I love you and I don't think of you as a whore!"

Brandi James: "aaaaaaaahhhhh...fuck You! Son of a bitch...!"

[ I shot straight up, and ran my hands across the top half of my body. Only to realize that I was completely dry, and safe in my bed. Until I heard someone clear their throat. I strained my eyes looking the left then the right of my bed. Half a second later the lamp to my bed is turned on by Rick who is standing there with his arms crossed. ]

Rick Young: "I take You're a little bit cold..."

[ At first I didn't want to answer him, I looked down, then up at him. ]

Brandi James: " I guess so...must have jumped into a cold pool to go swim or something.

[ He smirked at me, as if he knew. As he sat on my bed taking his sneakers then pants off, and climbed in.]

Rick Young: " So..... You only wanted to fuck me a few times, hunh? I left my wife for a woman who only wanted to fuck me a few times?"

[ I wasn't sure exactly how long he had been watching me sleep, or if I talked in my sleep. I nervously laughed at him. ]

Brandi James: "Awe, Rick...it's not like that. I was dreaming about us having naked day."

[ Took a deep breath, then grabbed my wrists and forced me down, he got on me and put his face close to mine where our foreheads were touching. ]

Rick Young: "I've been standing there long enough to know that you never exspected to fall in love with me....Brandi you were talking in your sleep."

[ I layed still, and closed my eyes. ]

Brandi James: "Sorry...I'm sorry."

[ He rolled off of me, and wrapped me tightly in his arms. Then kissed my forehead. ]

Rick Young: "No need....I love you baby."

[ I just took a deep breath, and said nothing. I couldn't believe he heard. In a way it was upsetting that he would watch me that long, then again in some weird way it was sweet. The one thing that I did know was that now I'd atleast be able to sleep for the rest of the day. For I was now back into Rick's arms. I moved a bit, and got comfortable then rested my head on his chest and finaly drifted off to sleep.]