"Finding Me Part 2"

[ When you're whole existance has been spent being an annoyance to people by telling them the ways of the lord are what they should follow you may have guessed you don't make alot of friends. Man, that's the understandment of the decade in my situation. I have done my best to fight the good fight and be the girl that my parents and grandparents would be proud of. I've always gotten good grades in school and tried to lead by example rather then giving into that was the popular decision. Yes my social life did suffer a bit, but that's not to say I didn't have my share of fun. Right now I have to do what's best for me. All I know is that Alex is the one person I can feel that will provide me with all the answers I need. I care for Mike and this time I'm not going to let go of the man I want like I did with Johnny...Wish me luck folks] [ To skip all the boring arrival details Alex arrived prompty. Just as I was setting out the cold cut and veggie trays. He got comfortable on the cushy patio furniture and I asked him if he'd like a drink. Much to my surprise he wanted Scotch and Dr. Pepper. Now Mike only drinks Mountain Dew and Pepsi, but I knew Brandi had some which I told alex. I Pointed over to the glass doors that led to Brandi's kitchen to show Alex it really wasn't far.] Skylar Black: "I really can check if you want me too..it's no trouble. I have to go get the scotch there anyway. You know I can't have that in the house with Michael. He's still very weak and if it's in his sight...Well he's not that strong yet." [ He can skip past something once , but twice is tough even for him. This is his day of rest , and the James household is probably not full of fans of his. Alex Wilkins: "Well then please , please do." [ nodding my head with I smile I agreed.] Skylar Black: "Not a problem, I'll be back in two shakes of a lambs tale." Alex Wilkins: "That's a face I can trust." [ Quickly I dashed over and checke Quickly I dashed over and checked the sliding doors. Rick always left them open just incase Mike needed something for Patience. I slid through them and got the bottle of Dr. Pepper from the fridge then looked in the liquor cabinet and got a bottle of scotch. I did yell to see if Brandi or Rick were home but I got no answer. Oh well..guess no one was. I made sure I didn't keep Alex waiting long. I didn't want him to view me as a bad host. I returned in under 5 minutes flat and a bit out of breath..] Skylar Black:"Ok...got it...Now did you say that you did or didn't want ice?" [ Alex smiles playfully. ] Alex Wilkins: "Depends. Is the ice in Brandi's house ?" Skylar Black:"No..." [ thankfully it wasn't as I lifted the bucket of ice I set on the far side of the long glass table.] Skylar Black: "Mike and I do have our own fridge. It's just that liquor is a no no...and well he doesn't drink Dr. Pepper. But other than that..it's a whole house with 4 bedrooms.living room, full size kitchen, dinning room and 2 bathrooms." Alex Wilkins: "Well then ice would do wonders , thank you." [ Alex looks the place up and down quickly.] Alex Wilkins: "Where do I sign up ?" Skylar Black: "Pardon? Sign up for what?" [ I wonder as I fixed his drink and handed it to him. Then poured some Sweet Tea for myself, and then sat down.] Alex Wilkins: "Ignore me. I think out loud." [ Alex slowly sits down and takes a short drink from his glass.] Alex Wilkins: "So how is everything going... getting through to him ?" Skylar Black: " It's ok...my pappy use to think out aloud lot... but as for MikeI think...He's been doing well. No more late nights out and going to bars. Instead he stays home and plays video games and watching something called Dragon Ball Z or something on Tv. But yeah...he's...well Mike.." [ I concluded that statement with a sigh..] Alex Wilkins: "The problem is , he's never had to do anything himself. If he screws up , Rick covers the tab. I don't know if Mike understands adult consequences." Skylar Black: "Alex, Rick and Mike really are that differnt aren't they?" [ Truth is that has been something I've been waiting to ask someone who has known the two for a good portion of his life. I knew that Alex would be honest and give me the answers I needed.] Skylar Black: "I just mean that Mike is welll carefree...while Rick..Well I know some of the things that go on in that house and I just don't know how they can be brothers." Alex Wilkins: "Ok. Rick has a little man complex. Which for someone his size is a feat of modern psychotics. He tries to dominate and control women , because he's not that lucky with not getting himself in trouble with a Guy everytime he opens his mouth." [ Alex takes a swig of his drink and then glances back to the house thoughtfully. Alex Wilkins: "Mike... I dunno. He's one of a kind. I know this. I designed him that way." Skylar Black: "Come again? You designed him that way?" [ Well I guess you people really do surprise you. I know that sure did me.] Alex Wilkins: "Mike was... sort of a pet project of mine back in the day. Not my favourite regret , that one." Skylar Black: "Oh I see...." [ Immediatley I looked down at the ground while sipping my sweet tea. There were so many things that I wanted to ask Alex but either wasnt' sure or was too embarrassed to do so.] Skylar Black: "Yeah they are very differnt...Although Rick does have a nice streak in him. As much as he hates to admit it." Alex Wilkins: "Rick's bad boy thing is the front , in built with the little man thing he has going. He's a pretty harmless Good Ol' Boy underneath it." [ Alex breathes in a little and takes another drink from his glass.] Alex Wilkins: "I'm not afraid to talk about what I did. It'll probably be important in helping him." Skylar Black: "Mike did freak a bit when I told him that I was going to call you. I tried to tell him that the man you were before you are not that man now." [ what else could I do but shrug, I really didn't know what else to say.] Alex Wilkins: "I appreciate that but with everything I did , I'm not expecting an over the night miracle where that's concerned. It's perfectly natural for him to be concerned about whatever I'm doing." [ Ok he peaked my interest, leaning a bit forward I rested my drink on the table.] Skylar Black: "Do you mind me asking you why? You don't have to tell me if you don't want..but do you mind?" Alex Wilkins: "Why I did it , or what I did ?" Skylar Black: "yes..you don't have to if you don't want..though' Alex Wilkins: "I got bored , is the simplest answer I can give you. I had nothing to do and Mike was the first person to look at me funny. I'm not sure I understand it myself , but it's the truth." Skylar Black: "But you do know what you did was wrong right?" [ Oh I hope he did..patiently I waited for the answer I wanted to hear.] Alex Wilkins: "I do. Every day of my life , I do. I just... I can't expect Mike to roll over and forgive me. It wouldn't be fair." [ He looked so sincere. How could Mike not forgive him? I placed my hand on his.] Skylar Black: "Alex, you're a good man. And you know that you made mistakes but the important part is that you are truly sorry. I'm sure once Mike knows that he will learn to get past the bad past you two share." Alex Wilkins: "I'm sure he will , just at his own pace. I tortured this guy. Mentally and physically. When I found out he was home with a torn muscle in his back , I immediately flew down and tackled him through a wall to.. pass the time. I took his girlfriends , usually in an elaborately planned coming together on national television. If he doesn't forgive me , I can understand , it's just something I'll have to live with." Skylar Black: "Well in order to get forgiveness one must first admit their wrong doings. I don't belive that Mike has it in him not to forgive. Now Rick, Rick is a bit more well tough then Mike..but Mike..Oh I don't know. I can't even get him to pay attention to me." [ Wait that's not fair to lay all that on Alex. He's suppose to be over to just keep me company and have a nice friendly lunch. Well here's to praying he doesn't read too much into that.] Alex Wilkins: "If I wanted to tell Rick something I'd take flash cards and a bat with which to beat it into his head. Theres no other way. Once he thinks hes right.. he's unstopable." Skylar Black:"Yeah..well just between us and I'm not one to gossip but belive me, Brandi gets him to change his mind more often then you may think. That women is amazing with the way she's got him." [ Pausing for a moment I quickly thought about what I just said...yea that's about right.] Skylar Black: "Then again it doesn't surprise me." Alex Wilkins: "Having studied the tape library as I have , you're probably spot on." Skylar Black: "Tape library? I'm not sure I follow you.." Alex Wilkins: "The.. ahem.. the DVD she gave me ?" Skylar Black: "Oh how fun! Was it a good movie?" [Alex scratches his chin a little. Maybe she blocked it out ? Alex Wilkins: "Well , Brandi seemed to be enjoying herself. So did the vaguely handsome fella she was..." [ Alex whistles a little like bird call and looks at Skylar suggestively. [ Oh he couldn't mean it was one of those tapes.] Skylar Black: "No! It was an ummm...well you know..." [ I couldn't even bring myself to say the word porno..but...oh boy.] Skylar Black: "I don't know why I'm surprised...You know Brandi dresses up for Rick...." Alex Wilkins: "Yes..... Well... by which I mean it doesn't surprise me." [ I couldn't agree with him more.] Skylar Black: "Oh and it shouldn't..she's dressed up like a cheerleader for him...One time Mike walked in the house and they were sorta acting like teenagers and Rick kept telling her to take it all off but leave the skirt on..then another time when Rick was sick..Mike and I went over to bring Rick a card from patience to say get well and Brandi was dressed in thei nurses uniform that went like and inch past her ass and very low cut..and she asked Rick "how is my patient." And [ he said that he had a bit of a fever..and she said "well let's see if we can sweat that cold out of you.." She's got a french maid thing too..although we only saw that on the floor of the living room..." Alex resists the urge to laugh , instead opting for a slightly shocked eyebrow furrow. One of his prefered methods of acting disapprovingly. Alex Wilkins: "If those walls could talk." Skylar Black:"oh you have no idea...Athough...there was one time I thought you were there..but Mike assured me that I was hearing things...Because you and Rick are not friends and Rick wasn't home..only Brandi was." [ Alex very slowly takes another drink and then looks thoughtful for a second. Alex Wilkins: "Maybe she was watching TV at a ridiculously loud volume ?" Skylar Black: "No...it wasn't Tv...It sounded like moaning...And believe me, I've heard Brandi moan alot..." [ Way more then I ever thought I would in my entire life as a matter of fact.] Alex Wilkins: "I don't know if she does a good impression of me... though If I have one more fan walk up to me and fail miserably to effect a British accent I may just stop talking." [ I don't know what he meant..] Skylar Black: "No..she wasn't doing a british accent...It was just "Oh...God!" And I swore she said Alex...But I know that couldn't have been..." Alex takes a - seemingly - confused look up to what would be Brandi's bedroom window. There are several reasons he can muster up for a woman apparently on her own to moan his name , though none one discusses over lunch. Alex Wilkins: "One of lifes mysteries , I imagine." Skylar Black:"I suppose...Alex can I ask you a question.." Alex Wilkins: "By all means." Skylar Black: "What attracts a man? I mean...do men want women like Brandi? What attracted you to your wife?" [ Alex isn't quite sure what to say to that for a second.] Alex Wilkins: "A divine spark , I suppose. Men want women like Brandi , but in my experience , all they really want is the fantasy." Skylar Black: "The Fantasy? I'm not sure that I follow." Alex Wilkins: "They like the idea that they could have her because shes sexually accesible. It's all out there on display. Tha's what they want , a self-induced ego boost." Skylar Black: "So that's why Rick likes her? Would you want that? Why did you marry Faith?" [ Yes I know it's 40 plus questions but I'm in experienced and he is a married man. If anyone would know these things he would, and I trust him.] Alex Wilkins: "I married Faith because my head and my heart decided to pull together for a change and I just knew it was right. If you've taken two looks at my Faithy-Faith and you can plainly see I don't have to WANT that." Skylar Black : " I suppose...she is beautiful... It's just..." [ Oh Geez Louise, Sky just shut up..I'm sure I annoyed the man enough.] Skylar Black: "Never mind...So what's new in your life from the last time we spoke?" Alex Wilkins: "Nothing earth shattering. Shoulder is still holding out fine with my heavy work-out schedule , so no complaints. I could've done with a couple more weeks in Japan but thats a personal preference. I've got a huge match coming up , so that's been taking up alotta time." Skylar Black: "Oh trust me, I know all about the big match...Brandi bitches at Rick non stop about it...teehee...." [ Maybe it was impolite to giggle but I couldn't help it.] Skylar Black:"Oh it's in the game...She doesn't let up about it...It's like she should be the one fighting instead of him.. But actually...the real reason I asked you here is because I need some advice.." Alex Wilkins: "I've told you , anything you need I can give , is yours. Be it advice or be it a place to bed down. What's the problem ?" Skylar Black: "Well...I think that I'm falling in love with Mike, but the problem is I don't think he looks at me in that way. I'm not tough like Jalie, or confident like Cyprus..or as cocky as Aurora..and I don't think I'll be winning any "Sexiest diva of the Year Awards" like Brandi does.. but I just don't know what to do..Is it posible to still follow the lord but not completely lead to temption? I'm 24 and I'm still a virgin...I've only been french kissed a handfull of times.." [ Whew...that actually felt good to unload that..] Alex Wilkins: "If you trust yourself , truely trust your faith and your heart , then theres no reason why you can not experience life as He designed it without slipping into temption. That's all I can say. My real advice would be to make sure you love him , not the feeling of him needing you." Skylar Black: "I do love him. I love him and his daughter. I just don't know how to get his attention..I try but it's like he barely cares..I guess I'm just hopeless." Alex Wilkins: "How do you try ?" Skylar Black: "Well...I try to be more smiley with him. And most of the time when I go swimming with Patience I wear a one piece bathing suit, but yesterday when it was just us I wore a bikini..When he watch movies together I snuggly up next to him on the couch and put my head on his shoulder..but I don't know what else...Do you think I need sexy clothes?" Alex Wilkins: "My personal opinion is that everyone does. I don't dress like this because it's comfortable. Although you get used to it fairly quickly when they're custom tailored." Skylar Black: "So you think that would help? What do you think I should wear?" Alex Wilkins: "This is not really my kind of area. I can dress myself like nobodies business but an erotic female wardrobe is the kinda thing you'd need an erotic female's advice on. You ever need a sequined pink shirt , though , I'm your guy." [ I must say I was a bit disappointed but I suppose he was right.] Skylar Black:"I guess..I just wish I knew who to ask..I don't know anything...I don't even know about foreplay..Is that important to a guy?" Alex Wilkins: "I dunno.. some aren't crazy about giving but nobody hates receiving." Skylar Black: "So it's not a bad thing that I have no clue how?" Alex Wilkins: "Well it's not all that complicated for your side... it's a little more straight forward to know what needs attention , it's external. You lot , we have to work for. I mean... I've got it... but I'm in the minority." Skylar Black: "Got what?' [ It may seem silly but to me he was speaking a totally differnt language.] Alex Wilkins: "I'm a cunning linguist." Skylar Black:"A what? Is that like a doctor?" Alex Wilkins: "I've been called a doctor in the field , but lets see if we can't put this delicately. I'm incredibly good... at orally.. pleasuring.... a woman." [ At that moment I could feel my cheek fluster and turn red. Or atleast I was hoping that they weren't turning red.] Skylar Black:"Oh....I...ummm...I've never had a man do that to me before." Alex Wilkins: "I get positive feedback , so I'm guessing it doesn't suck." Skylar Black: "like I said I wouldn't know...but what do you think I should do?' Alex Wilkins: "Well... you're living next door to someone you're telling me is an expert." Skylar Black: "You mean..." [ And just as I was about to say her name...I could see her standing next to Alex. She cleared her throat to get our attention...] Brandi James: "Emmm hmmmm." [ Alex does a legit double take and then takes a long drink from his glass. Alex Wilkins: "I'll remember my magical ability to summon people by proxy , and use it only for good." [ Crossing her arms and looking at Alex.] Brandi James: "Oh is that so? So you think just because you fantasized about me,...all the sudden I'll appear..Alex..or can I call you Al..You know what I think I will call you Al..Al..exactly other than filling with happless twitts head with your useless bullshit..what are you doing here?" Alex Wilkins: "Drinking... also , cold cuts. It's all very exciting. Also , you don't call me Al." [ I don't know what know what came over Brandi..but she giggled and bent down towards Alex's ear..and I whispered..] Brandi James; "Oh is that so..I recall that you didn't mind..." [ That part for what ever reason only Alex heard, but I did hear the last part. And it went something like this..] Brandi James:"so if I can't call you that...Al...then can I call you daddy?" [ Alex smiles a little and looks at Skylar , rolling his eyes subtly. Alex Wilkins: "Some people just can't take no for an answer , you know ?" Brandi James;"He's right Skylar...And if anyone should know it would be him..." [ Now I wasn't exactly sure what that meant, but something tells me there's something more to this then even I'm understand.] Skylar Black: "Well...I no does mean no..." Brandi James:"yeah...next time maybe Al will remember that.." [ She said with a another giggle only this time a bit evil.] [ Alex dismisses it casually and leans against the table slightly.] Alex Wilkins: "So... the great and wonder Brandi James spends her days listening in on peoples private conversations about her ?" Brandi James: "No...but this is my house and you are sitting by my pool that I was just about to take a swim in..." [ Right then and there I looked Brandi up and down. She was in this tiny gold bikini..man for a woman that's pregnant she really didn't look it at all...sorta weird..but I couldn't take my eyes off of how sexy she is. Was it normal for me to think that? I mean the bikini was so hot, and he skin had such a sun kissed tan about it..] Skylar Black: "Brandi...that's a nice bikini..." [ Alex gives Brandi the obligatory once-over and smiles softly.] Alex Wilkins: "What do you... spray 'em on ?" Brandi James:"No one asked you Al...And it's not my fault that I know what looks good on me,...then again the list of things that doesn't look good on me is much shorter..." [ See now why can't I be like that..I felt like an idiot..since all I did was sit in awe of how truely goregous she is and nod agreeing with her.] Skylar Black: "Yeah...." Alex Wilkins: "You sure you can leave Rick on his own ? You don't have any pets you'd like to live life without being violated , do you ?" Brandi James; "Funny...really funny...Al...and no I have no pets...So don't worry..Rick and Mike are probably off doing only God knows what somewhere.. No doubt it's something dumb if it involves both of them.." [ Hmmm that's a bit unfair..I had to chime in..] Skylar Black: "Well Mike said they were going to work out.." Brandi James: "Yeah...work out...hahhaha.." [ for whatever reason that made Brandi laugh...oh well..] Alex Wilkins: "Rick doesn't look like he's flexed anything but his syringe fingers for a while." Brandi James: "Are you implying that Rick is on steriods...Ali?" Alex Wilkins: "I wouldn't say I was being so polite as to imply." [ Brandi just rolled her eyes and kicked off her Gucci sandals..nice sandal...hmm...I wonder where she got those...oops side tracked..She then ran her hand down Alex's arm.] Brandi James: "You know Al...jelousy doesn't suit you..Just because Rick's arms are 19 and change...doesn't mean you have to go out of your way to insult him...One day when your a big boy all your working out will pay off." [ Alex laughs softly and flexes his arms loosely. He was born with a tendency towards wonderful muscle distribution , you don't learn arms or calves like his. Alex Wilkins: "I'm pretty sure I can get by without the Gibbon hormones. Thank you , though." Brandi James: "So says you..." Alex Wilkins: "I'm the King of the Swingers already , but that's another tale for another day." [ Brandi leaned over to me and wink...] Brandi James: "Yeah..that's Al's way of telling you he's great at telling bed time stories..Isn't that correct Al?" [ Wow..I guess when your a bitch and you find a button you keep on pressing. Because I could tell that Alex really hated being called Al but Brandi wouldn't let up.] [ Alex ticks slightly below his right eye and laughs quietly trying to brush the blows off. Alex Wilkins: "Well , Little Bo Peep's sheep voluntarily came back when they heard me telling the story. I'll give myself that. Not that bedtime is a time for stories." [ Alex very covertly nudges something in his pocket , finding a particular place to push down , all the while animating his face to keep the attention there. [ Brandi just shook her head...] Brandi James: "oh whatever just keep babling Al...I'm going for a swim.." [ With that Brandi walked away and dove into the pool. She began doing a few lenghts of the pool. I saw how Alex was looking at her like he was in a daze so I snapped my fingers at him.] Skylar Black: "Alex...umm Alex..." [Alex's head snaps back to reality and he plays it off as nothing. Alex Wilkins: "Sorry , was deep in thought for a second there." [ I just sighed..] Skylar Black: " I don't blame you...she's beautifull... I can see why Rick is in love with her." Alex Wilkins: "Eh. It's purely physical." [ Alex nudges at the small lump in his pocket again , this time startled slightly when his easy-out decides to work and his cellphone rings. Pulling it out he smiles apologetically at Skylar. Alex Wilkins: "Do you mind ?" Skylar black: "Not at all...please.." [ Alex opens the phone and has to remind himself which button answers calls. He's not a big fan of cellphones. Alex Wilkins: "Hel-.. Ner-..slow down.. no , slow down...... how do you get an 18 year old guy stuck in a vent when you're supposed to be teaching them mat wrestling ? Oh you found a way. That's cute. That is awfully , awfully cute. Luckily , everyone who attends signs a liability waiv-.. oh he didn't , huh ? Well... that's wonderful news." Skylar Black: "Bad News? Do you have to go?" [ Alex diverts his attention back to the phone quickly. Alex Wilkins: "DON'T TRY AND LEVER HIM OUT WITH A BROOM." [ Alex looks up at Skylar with a frustrated eyebrow flicker. Alex Wilkins: "I may have to go conference call with my lawyers about now." Skylar Black: "Ok...well you know what I have to go pick up patience anyway..but we should do this again sometime...ok?" Alex Wilkins: "Absolutely. Perhaps slightly further away from the Belly of the Beast... or perhaps vice-versa... I apologise but sometimes my Partner ain't the sharpest knife in the crayon box , if you're following." Skylar Black: "I know and it's ok...take care Alex..." [ Alex stands up and closes his phone , his head starts to trail over to the pool but he manages to stop himself and instead salute Skylar casually , he goes to speak again but instead blows a kiss and starts scuttling away mumbling. That was the best damn fake phone conversation he's ever taken part in.] About the Match; I must say that both women have taken a very serious approach to this. Angela Thank you for doing what I knew you could. Stepping up and showing that you are the woman that you say you are. And yes you are correct in thinking that I want to win this match. I want my Fem-X title back more then any more here can realize. Hopefully come Monday night that will happen. And don't won't Angie, I don't exspect you to take it easy on me. I never want to be handed anything at all ever! I want to win and get the satisfaction and Adrenaline that comes along with it...No pun intended. Just like you Angela will not go easy on me, I am going to do the same. I think since we both respect each other we do understand that we have jobs to do and this is our job. I look forward to getting push to my limits and beyond by Angela. Good Luck...and may the best woman win. Aurora as for you..I think you forgot something...See As I was viewing your promotion I noticed a little something...."One has the Young Blood Title and One has yet to be champion?" Ummm excuse me! But do you not realize that it was me that you won the Fem-X title from. Sure the Fem-X title may not be much to you but for me I had a vision for it. I wanted to bring back prestige to the title and build the division so strong that women wouldn't be ashamed to fight for a title people consider to be a joke. I want young girls to see that if you work hard that you can accomplish what you set your mind to. I want women to proudly fight other women and feel like they did a honest days work. And not just be thought of as "eye candy" or feel they need to restort to sexuality to get over with the fans. You think that I need to get married and have babies???? Pardon my french but That's just hoge wash! I do fully one day want a husband and children to care for. As a matter a fact right now I feel that I'm with a man who wants the same thing, but that's not here nor there. My days of PTO meeting and baking cakes and taking care of my hubby aren't even in my sights right now. Before I enter my days of being a loving wife and mother there are accomplishments that I want as well. The first being winning back the Fem-X title that you beat me for. You know for a woman who keeps such close watch over her wins and such, I still don't understand how you can make the statement of how I was yet to be champion. I'll just chalk that up to the worries in your life with your sister. For now though my mind is focused on getting what I want. I just don't want the Fem-X title..I need it! I can't leave the ring with out. And I don't care who is in my way be it you or Angela. It doesn't matter to me at all. I'll walk, step, and do what I must to get it. Think you're Super Girl? Oh wait..no super girl would rise to the challenge and not complain about it. True, Aurora Angela's title is not on the line and both of yours are but I'm sure that I don't have to tell you by now life isn't fair. We get things done to us and decisions made for us that we don't always agree with. You just have to deal with them the best possible. See the way I'm looking at this is this is a dare to be great moment for all three of us. My two cents is..let's go out there and steel the show. All three of us are capable of it. Capable of showing up the main evnters, and us being the most talked about match at the water cooler the next day. I know I'm going out there to give every last bit I have. Hopefully both of you ladies do the same. Angela, Aurora...It's time to show upper management that what they thought was going to be an all out bitch fest will end up being the most talked about match of the night. I know I'm up for it..Question is are the both you?