[Ok..So it's common knowledge by now that a bullshit test says that Nolan is Rick's son. I needed more than a moment to try to process that information. Especially since everything in me says that Nolan is my son with Josh. Something had to have gone wrong but what? Needing some time I went to the place I have always felt peace the beach. Something about the ocean always relaxes me and puts me at ease. I left my house knowing that Stevie was there just incase Nolan woke up. Personally I didn't care where Rick was, infact that's my main thought. What to do? Having lived in Miami before and knowing me so well Josh knew exactly where I would be and followed me. We talked for a bit then I put my head on his shoulder with his arms around me. All the sudden Josh stopped and looked into my eyes. I swear I don't know if I could ever be more in love with anyone. He has such expressive eyes..Be it..his cold icy stare he'll give an opponent, or the warmth and love he shows to me. I can tell what he's feeling eye time he looks at me. Which is why this time the way his eyes shifted and seems glassy, well I could tell this wouldn't be a good thing.]

Josh Beckett: " You know how much I love you right?"

Brandi James-Young: "Yes, I love you too Josh..."

Josh Beckett: " Brandi...I just can't do this."

[ No...he had to be joking. This could work out, it had to work out for us. I know that Nolan is Rick's son, but I can't help wanting him. ]

Brandi James-Young: " We can...and we will..."

Josh Beckett: " It's not right...not for Nolan. I love you and I love your son. Hell, I still would bet my life that boy is mine. But the test say a different story..."

Brandi James-Young: " Josh, we can raise Nolan together..."

[ He just backed away from me, and shook his head. ]

Josh Beckett: " It's not right...you need to give your marriage a chance. I want you and I love you..but I can't in good conscience know that the reason Nolan's mom and dad aren't together is because of me."

[ I stood there in disbelief...I walked up to him starting to yell..]

Brandi James-Young: " It's not fair?....Us being together isn't fair! Why do you have to be so good and noble? "

[ That was that...I couldn't barely see out of my eyes through all the tears as he walked away and drove off. I felt sick, like the life had just been sucked right out of me. My body went limp, I was numb, feeling nothing as I sank to my knees, and screamed. ]

Brandi James-Young: " Josh...please don't go....don't go...You can't leave me...You can't leave me here..."

[ I did see his car stop for a moment, then as I stopped yelling he fully pulled away. As he left, I couldn't help but feel betrayed by God. No wait...after this I'm sure that God does not exist. Hell I shouldn't even have questioned the existence of God. If there truly was a God then there was no way he would allow me to feel this bad. There would be no way he would have allowed us to part again. I didn't know what else to do, but to try to cleanse myself of this....Like so many times before with Stevie, when we would put our feet in the ocean and wish for better things in life, I felt the same needed to be done to cleanse me now. Only this time, I walked near the waters edge sitting down and letting the waves rush over half of my body to my waste. I looked up to the heavens and let out a primal scream. ]

Brandi James-Young: "I'm sorry! I'm Sorry for all the bad things I've done. For all I've done to Lane, to Damien and yes..I'm sorry for the things I've done to Walsh! You have gotten your revenge...You have.....You've made me hurt like no one else..."

[ While I looked up at the heavens slowly coming up from behind me and out of the shadows was Rick and he didn't look to look to happy at the fact that I ran out in the middle of the night to meet Josh, but you have to know that he is happy that Josh told me that he couldn't keep our relationship going with Nolan being Rick's son. Rick waited until he was just about right behind me... ]

Rick Young: "You sure about that?"

[ Rick said, which startled me. ]

Rick Young: "I am just saying...I mean you treat me like crap, you always putting me down to other people, You don't trust me around other woman, but you want me trust you, but your sneaking behind my back to meet Beckett."

[ I just turned a bit, and looked up at him. ]

Brandi James-Young: " Why are you here?"

Rick Young: "I thought I would get some fresh air."

[ Rick said, before he paused for a moment to take in a deep breath and exhaled it while he looked up in to the air. Rick looked in to the air for a few more moments before he turned his attention back to me. ]

Rick Young: "Or maybe it's because I am not stupid. I know you wanted Nolan to be Josh's and I was making sure that you didn't do anything stupid."

Brandi James-Young: " Oh We're talking stupid? Like stupid like losing your belt to a woman like Angela Jameson stupid? Or stupid like...buying condoms..when your married and have no use for them stupid?...Tell me Rick..which one are we speaking of ?"

Rick Young: "I agree I have done some stupid things that I wish I could take back, but I was worried that you were going to try and kill yourself, because Nolan isn't the son of your perfect dream guy. Sorry I care about you...even though I don't know why...it's obvious you don't care about me."

Brandi James-Young: " I do care for you...even though most of it at first was pure lust."

[ I just exhaled falling back, as the water rushed over me, not a lot of it, just enough to brush me over on my body up to my shoulders. Rick stood next to me and looked down at me briefly before he bent down next to me. ]

Rick Young: "And what about now?"

[ A loaded question, but Rick did keep it reasonable in the sense that he didn't rub in that Josh just left me again. ]

Brandi James-Young: " What about now? I'm left here alone...with no one to understand how I feel...Josh loves me, and wants me...but because Nolan is yours he think it's only right we give our marriage a shot..but with your cheating ass, I'm not sure if that's possible.."

[ I paused, then looked into his eyes. ]

Brandi James-Young: " Do you really think we can make it rick? Especially with you knowing that you were my second choice...and my heart isn't whole any longer, that it's not just broke, but ...shattered."

Rick Young: "One your not here alone, two I have never and I will never cheat on you, three I do think we can make it work. Now as far as being second place...yeah it hurts, but I rather be second place than not finishing the race. As far as your heart goes I can't fix it completely at once, but I am here for the long run and I will help you put it back together one piece at a time along with Nolan."

[ How retarded is he? Yes, I feel dead inside right now...but the last thing I would do is kill myself or put myself in that type of situation. I do have a gorgeous son that needs me, and I'll be damn...if Rick raises him alone. ]

Brandi James-Young: "Give me a bit more credit than that...I'm not about to hurt myself."

Rick Young: "Fine...I'll go home, but before I do I want you to come here."

[ I just stood my ground like the true brat that I am, and folded my arms while shaking my head. ]

Brandi James-Young: " No! Can't you do the one simple thing, I'm asking you?"

Rick Young: "I am going to do this one simple thing you ask of me, but first I want you you to come here."

[ Rick said, with a smirk on his face as he motioned for me to come towards him with his right hand. ]

Rick Young: "Is too much to ask for you to come over here so I can give you a quick kiss and then I'll leave you to "mourn" your now dead relationship with Beckett."

Brandi James-Young: " Yes it is...and I'm not coming to you cuz your beckoning me to..."

[ stomping my foot at him, I glared. ]

Brandi James-Young: " You need to leave...NOW...and let me mourn in peace!"

Rick Young: "I can do this all night...just come give me a kiss and then I will leave you...I promise..."

[ tossing my hair back, I turned and walked away from Rick heading down the shore line, as the water run gently over my bare feet. How dare he to think I'd go to him? Was he out of his mind? Wait don't answer that of course he was.....but that's a long story. I put my hand up in the air, and just waved for him to go. ]

Brandi James-Young: " I'll fuckin' see you at home ! "

[ Rick stood there for a moment and then once again started to follow me along the shore line. ]

Rick Young: "Like I said I can do this all night."

Brandi James-Young: " Good...I'll just refuse to speak to you...and ignore you for the rest of the night.. while I cry."

[ I promptly answered back, as I continued to walk over near the rocks over by where Josh and I were earlier in the evening. ]

Rick Young: "Fine you do that...I have no problem talking to the air...I mean it isn't like anyone listens to me anyway."

[ Rick said, as he started to pick up his pace a little bit to catch up with me a little better. ]

Brandi James-Young: " Well...maybe if you had something worth while to say, or acted like a man...people would listen to you."

[ How much more of this will this bastard take? God almighty..I can't believe all the hurtful things that I said and still he comes after me...only for a kiss? Give me a fuckin' break...I stopped and rolled my shoulders, as I sat down on the white sand that shimmered in the moonlight, and wrapped my arms around my knees.]

Rick Young: "Or maybe people just need to get their heads out of their asses."

[ Rick said, just before he was standing right next to me again. He looked down at me and then sat down beside me. ]

Brandi James-Young: "Oh good grief..."

[ I sighed as I placed my head on the knees. Sitting there is silence not saying a word. Slowly turning my head to look over where Josh and I were standing, I began to cry and think about how I felt knowing that I'd never feel Josh next to me in bed, seeing his face in the morning. And yet all the while..like the pussy he is Rick...good ole non confrontational rick, is sitting in silence saying not a word. Rick looked out over the water for a while until he finally looked over towards me with a smirk on his face. ]

Rick Young: "Okay you have had enough time to cry about Josh...let me take you home to Nolan."

[ Deliberately not looking at Rick, I began to sob. ]

Brand James-Young: " I haven't shed enough tears.....not yet...not for the love we had."

Rick Young: "You know Brandi...he isn't worth the tears you already shed if you ask me. You know for all the "short comings" you and everyone else see in me...I wouldn't haven't given up like he did...right thing or not or gotta fight for what you believe in. Which obviously he didn't believe in your two relationship if he gave up that easy."

[ Rick paused, for a moment as he takes his left hand and starts to rub it up and down my back. ]

Rick Young: "I believe in us...which is why I keep fighting. Hell I would keep fighting if I was in his place and I found out Nolan wasn't mine, because it isn't about the blood it's about the bond you have with the child."

Brandi James-Young: " don't touch me!"

[ His words made me ill, his touch sickened me. I inched myself away from him to avoid him touching me. ]

Brandi James-Young; "You and I are both rotten people Rick...It's not about fighting for what you believe in...No one believes in me more than Josh...I shouldn't expect you to understand about someone doing the right..Hell you and I wouldn't know the right thing to do if it smacked us in the face. So don't tell me that he doesn't believe in our love.. ..Don't sit in judgment of someone that neither one of us can hold a candle to..as far as doing the right thing."

Rick Young: "You know what I am sick of this shit!"

[ Rick yelled, just before he stood back up to his feet and started to walk back towards the way that he came from the shadows to where his truck is more than likely parked. I thought that I finally got rid of him, but then he turned around kicking some sand towards the water. ]

Rick Young: "Maybe I can’t hold a candle to Mr. Perfect Josh Beckett in doing the right thing, but of course there are other areas that I won’t be able to hold a candle to him as well, but god DAMNIT stop talking about me like you know every aspect of my life!"

[ Rick paused, as he started to walk towards me again… ]

Rick Young: "I was raised to do the right thing and for the most part when I was younger I did do the right thing. When I started wrestling I did the right thing, I tried everyone with respect and everyone like I wanted to be treated. You know what I got in return? Of course you don’t, because you could never do the right thing or treat someone with total respect even if the right thing put it’s foot up your ass!"

[ Rick paused, again taking a breath and putting his hands on to his hips again. ]

Rick Young: "I got pushed around, kicked around, walked over you name it, but I still did the right thing, because my mom always told me good things come to those who do good things and I believed every word of it to be true. I was the consent underdog ...until one day I said fuck it and I did anything and everything to get the job done. So I know about the right thing and you can sit on your ass crying about Josh about how he did the "right thing", but when it comes to love…the right thing isn’t always the right thing. So you feel sorry for yourself now and when your done…just remember that Nolan and I both love you."

[ To be honest all I heard out of Rick's mouth was blah, blah, blah,blah, blah...absolutely nothing he said mattered to me. He can try to spin this to make him look like the good guy, but that wouldn't be the case. As I lifted my head up, I saw the glare of head lights. My lips quivered, thinking it more than likely was my dad. Hearing the door slam to the vehicle all I wanted was my dad to take me in his arms and rock me like he did when I was a child and just had a nightmare. I needed him to tell me that things will work out. I tried to see through my puffy eyes but didn't have to as I heard a Texas twang calling out "babydoll." fully sitting up I saw Josh emerge from the distance. ]

Brandi James-Young: " Josh!"

[ Even though Rick heard what he heard earlier…the moment that he heard "Baby doll" be hollered out towards us and then with me yelling out "Josh!"…his blood started to boil and he started to clinch his fist tightly together. ]

Rick Young: "Brandi…just shut up and let him go! You are married to me damn it!"

[ Rick said, in a hushed tone to where that anyone that wasn‘t right by us could hear before he came up behind me and grabbed me around the waist with his left hand and placed his right one over my mouth. Wasting no time I elbowed Rick, and spun around to look him in the eyes. Acting very arrogant as I spoke to him. ]

Brandi James-Young; " What all your talk worth shit now? All the sudden you want me to say nothing? Why Rick, because you were wrong? Afraid that I'm going to leave you...hun...big talker?"

Rick Young: "That’s not it and you know…you are holding on to some thing and someone that you can’t have and it isn’t healthy Brandi and I am just trying to help you realize that." [ Rick just stood there for a moment taking it in. Rick put his arms down on his hips and bit his bottom lip a little bit. Rick took in another breath, but holding it in this time for a moment before letting it out. ] Rick Young: "Big deal...it happened before I decided to leave my ex-wife for you. You were free to do what ever you wanted. However, I have to ask now...if you didn't want to be with me...then why the fuck did you marry me? Oh that was probably you just being a spoiled brat trying to have her cake and eat it too."

Brandi James-Young: " You stupid asshole...isn't it obvious? I married you because, I felt it was the right thing to do...and I felt sorry for you. And I'm not a spoiled Brat! I'm just use to getting everything I want."

Rick Young: "Don't you ever feel sorry for me...I am not my brother."

Brandi James-Young: " what the fuck are you talking about? "

[ I asked a bit confused as to why Mike was being brought into this.]

Brandi James-Young; " Great Rick...that's nice. you..put down and drag into this ugly conversation one of the few people that can stand you."

Brandi James-Young: " Not like Mike is an angel either.... after what he did to Skylar! You're just as pathetic as he is."

Rick Young: "Fine...I am pathetic, but I am still your husband and Nolan's father."

[ I just stopped, and fell down to the sand. I was exhausted, and didn't feel like moving. And since he just kept pace with me there was no point to move. Letting I a sigh I begged him. ]

Brandi James-Young: " Rick...please just go home...I want to be alone...Can't you understand that? I mean, I know that you're not the brightest bulb, and didn't go to college, probably barely made it out of high school for that matter...but can't you see, that I need to be left alone?"

Rick Young: "I do understand what you are saying, but I don't want to leave you here alone. I don't want to wake up to the police calling the house telling me to come identify your body."

Brandi James-Young; " What all your talk worth shit now? All the sudden you want me to say nothing? Why Rick, because you were wrong? Afraid that I'm going to leave you...hun...big talker?"

Rick Young: "That’s not it and you know…you are holding on to some thing and someone that you can’t have and it isn’t healthy Brandi and I am just trying to help you realize that."

Brandi James-Young: " I know I'm married to you Rick..."

[ I paused..at first I must admit, I thought about sparing his feelings. But once I had a moment to re-cap..I threw all caution to the wind and said fuck it. ]

Brandi James-Young: " Wait...your scared...aren't you? All this talk before saying how if he was really in love me then he would have stayed to fight for me. You're scared that he has come back for me, and you're too afraid to fight.."

Rick Young: "I am never afraid to fight...anyone."

[ Rick said, as he looked over towards where the car lights flashed a few moments ago and started for a brief second before he looked back at me. ]

Rick Young: "Sorry I've been "protecting" you from realizing that Beckett is nothing compared to me. So you get him over here and I send him to hell...I don't care anymore. At Capital Punishment he acted and talked like he could take me, but even he knows with the years that I have put in to football and wrestling that it'd take a truck to take me out."

[ Was he serious? Let's face facts here folks..there is nothing twisted nor sadistic about Rick Young. Which is why I couldn't help but laugh. ]

Brandi James-Young; " You know Rick, I nearly forgot how funny you can be."

[ At that moment Josh stood behind me. He placed his hands on my hips, then leaned over to me. ]

Josh Beckett: " I'm sorry..I can't leave you..I shouldn't have."

[ I smugly stood there looking at Rick. ]

Brandi James-Young: " Oh? You don't say..?"

[ Rick just stood there for a moment staring at Josh and I before he looked away from us down at the sand. While he was looking away from us I thought I heard something coming over by Rick that sounded like laughter... ]

Rick Young: "Funny? You want to "see" something funny now?"

[ Rick said, just as he turned his head back to where he could look at the both of us as he stepped forward swinging his right hand in the air around my head hitting Josh in the side of the face. ]

Rick Young: "I told you to stay away from Brandi...so I'am pretty sure that means no touching asshole!"

[ I stood there looking a Josh who immediately got up, and rubbed the side of his face. He cracked his neck to the side and raised his voice shoving rick.]

Josh Beckett: "I think my mother use to hit me harder! Is that the best you can do pussy?"

[ He asked as he curled up his fist and hit Rick in the stomach, then across the face. I placed myself in front of both of them but facing Rick as I yelled. ]

Brandi James-Young; " You need to stop this...it needs to end now!"

[ Rick was down on the sand on his good knee and I swear that he was laughing as he sneakily reached down and grabbed a hold full of sand in his left hand... ]

Rick Young: "What sweet heart? Afraid that I am going kick lover boy's ass?"

[ Rick said, before he used his right arm to push me out of the way as he threw the sand with his left hand right in to Josh's eyes. While Josh was trying to get the sand out of his eyes Rick dove at him taking him down with a spear. ]

Rick Young: "This will stop when he stops coming near you!"

[ This had gone far enough. I was just about to interfere when Josh used his leg to nail Rick in his bad knee. He tossed Rick off of him and tried to stand. Worried about him, I immediately went to help him, and check his eyes. I looked at Rick getting up from the ground. ]

Brandi James-Young: " What's wrong Rick? You afraid he'll kick your ass? Is that why you had to cheat?"

Rick Young: "Brandi...I do what I want to get what I want...or in this case keep and for the record I am not afraid of him kicking my ass...like I said it would take a truck to keep me down and since he's "Mr. Do Right"...well I doubt he would use a truck."

[ Rick said, as he dusted himself off a little bit as he continued to stare at Josh. ]

Rick Young: "So get out of the way Brandi and let us finish this..."

Brandi James-Young: " Can't you see you've blinded him?"

[ I said still wiping Josh's eyes, as he continued to blink for focus.]

Brandi James-Young: " You were all talk before..saying how he doesn't love me...but yet now you have to act this way? I swear I don't know what the hell is up with you."

Rick Young: "Ask me if I care if I blinded him, because guess what I don't!"

[ Rick said, as he took a step towards Josh and I with a smirk on his face while he reaches up and rub his chin slightly. ]

Rick Young: "As to why I am acting this way now...he has no fucking business putting his hands on you! Your my wife and if you look after anyone you should be looking after me NOT HIM! Now get out of the way!"

Brandi James-Young: " Not likely..."

[ Josh just smirked, and looked at me. ]

Josh Beckett: "It's fine Brandi...I'm not afraid of a man like him."

Brandi James-Young: " Baby...it's not worth it. There are other things more important."

[ Leaning down Josh kissed me and lightly said. ]

Josh Beckett: " Nothing is more important than you.."

[ Rick didn't stand still very long when Josh kissed me he came running up to us and knocked me away from Josh. ]

Rick Young: "Keep your lips off MY WIFE!"

[ Rick yelled, as he stared at Josh while he was still having a little bit problems focusing. ]

Rick Young: "I will slit your fucking throat if you touch her again or come near OUR son!"

Josh Beckett: " Dude, you have no idea...I'm not even going to waste my time on you. I have to admit I didn't expect you here though..."

Rick Young: "GOD! Will I ever cease to be amazed with how little people like you and even Brandi think of me..."

[ Rick said, as he was huffing and puffing his breath not because he was tired, but because he was pissed off. ]

Rick Young: "Give me some fucking credit...I may not have graduted as Validictorian, but I do have a brain and I can put two and two together."

Josh Beckett: "Oh is that so? So tell us scarecrow..once the wizard gave you a brain what did you put together?"

Rick Young: "Umm...gee George...I don't know maybe the fact that since Nolan was born enough though she never said wished Nolan was your kid...so it doesn't take a rocket scientist that Brandi was taking the news and the cold hard fact that Nolan is my child very hard."

[ Rick paused, and finally broke his stare at Josh to look at me. ]

Rick Young: "So it was obvious that she was going to need to turn to someone and she couldn't turn to me, because she would have to come clean about her feelings on the results of the test, she couldn't turn to her father because she knew he would rub her true feelings in my face...and let's face it even she knows that Stevie, her mom, and brother rather see her with me. So that left..."

[ Rick paused, again as he turned to look back Josh with a cold stare... ]

Rick Young: "...You."

[ Josh arrogantly clapped ]

Josh Beckett: "Gee, did you think of that all by yourself? What you just said, everyone in AWA or who has picked up a tabloid over the last 9 months has already known. Face it Rick...she loves me...she will never love you like she loves me. And you will never be able to replace me. So do yourself a favor right now...sign yet another set of papers...and let her an Nolan come with me. At least the kid will have a fair chance to be raised by a real man."

Rick Young: "Funny...this coming from a man who just a little bit was going to take his ball and go home, because Nolan is my son...which I will never let my son be raised by someone who isn't man enough to play a contact sport!"

Josh Beckett: " Who said I was going home? And ummm...not man enough? Guy you could never do what I do. You don't have the talent...but then again...I'm not telling you anything you haven't heard your whole under achieving life. "

[ Josh looked at me, and then back a Rick. ]

Josh Beckett: " You know, a part of me does understand why you want her. She's beautiful, sexy, intelligent, fun to be around. And she really knows how to make you feel like a man. But what I don't get is...why don't you just let her go?"

Rick Young: "I don't have talent to do what you do? Funny you stand on a pile of dirt and throw a ball...like what a whole fifteen feet? Try standing in the pocket and throwing a football thirty yards with guys like three hundred pounds gunning for you, but yeah I don't have "talent" to do what you do and that isn't taking in consideration what I've done and will do in the ring."

[ Rick said, as he sneered at Josh. ]

Rick Young: "As far as why I don't just let her go...and people think I have no brain...my son for one you nutless wonder and that I love her."

Josh Beckett: " How the hell she ever dealt with you, I don't know.."

[ I had enough of these two..I knew something had to be done.]

Brandi James-Young; " Look, this isn't getting us anywhere..."

Rick Young: " You know something Brandi? For once I have to agree...This isn't getting us anywhere."

[ I stood there just wrapping my arms around Josh, having him hold me. ]

Brandi James-Young; " Good..I'm glad you see things my way."

[ Rick laughed and smiled as he nodded. ]

Rick Young: " Right, I see things your way...after all isn't that the only way to see things?"

[ Really I wasn't sure how to answer that, or if I was even suppose to. I just softly answered. ]

Brandi James-Young: " I never said that."

[ Rick chuckled as he approached us. ]

Rick Young: " Oh no? Because that's the exact way I took it. You see...I don't want to hear your crying and moaning how your heart aches for this bastard. Hell, I don't even want to see anymore tears for him from you ! I tried my best to be nice and be the understanding husband...but you..."

[ He stood next to us clinching his fists. As Josh took a few steps back with me. ]

Josh Beckett: " I swear//// If I lose my temper you're totaled, man. "

[ Rick smirked and shook his head. ]

Rick Young: " Totally?"

Josh Beckett: " Totally!"

[ putting my head on Josh's chest, I looked up at him. ]

Brandi James-Young: " Becks...do something.."

Josh Beckett: " No worries baby...I won't let him hurt you."

[ He answered holding me tight as he kissed the top of my head. ]

Rick Young: " Will you two stop talking about me as if I'm not fuckin' here!"

[ Rick demanded. ]

Rick Young: " Infact...I'm going to make this easy for you..."

[ He paused then stood to the side to look directly into my eyes. ]

Rick Young: " You want to be with him so much? You want him more then me? Fuckin' have him..."

[ Wait did I hear that correctly? Did Rick just give me his blessing? I tilted my head up, and as Josh softly brushed his hand down my back. ]

Brandi James-Young: " Are you serious?"

Rick Young: " Sure....I'm "totally" serious! You two want to be together fuck...don't let me stop you kids."

[ As I smiled, it was very short lived. ]

Rick Young: " But....if you walk away from me...wifey...to take a quote from you..."You best believe..that I'm going to sue your ass for custody of MY son!" That's just so you know."

[ I backed away from Josh angry at Rick. How dare he try to pull this with me. I raised my voice letting out my anger. ]

Brandi James-Young: " You son of a bitch! You wouldn't fuckin' dare!"

[ Rick shrugged and laughed. Then sneered at me..and pointing. ]

Rick Young: " You are a fuckin' disloyal wife! You...You made me divorce my high school sweetheart! You...married me, and had my son..but yet..you take Alex Wilkins side on things..You lust after this asshole as if he were the only man you've ever loved. Not once have you supported me! Which is why I hired a private investigator.."

Brandi James-Young; "You what?"

[ I couldn't believe my ears. Was this the same Rick Young? ]

Rick Young; " Yeah...a private investigator..I was hoping that you'd slip up..I have to give you credit for not doing so...but a jury will be able to draw it's own conclusions. And there are many pictures of you and lover boy...having a romantic picnic in the park..him entering your hotel room and leaving hours later...and vice versa.....I'll divorce your ass..paint you as a disloyal whore..and make sure you never see Nolan again!"

[ I did my best trying to keep my cool but he had me...and I couldn't take the chance on him being right. My voice began to shake a bit as my eyes filled with tears. ]

Brandi James-Young: " you can't....you just can't..."

Rick Young: "Spare me the fuckin' tears...Brandi... I can't? Because..I know I can... It's simple Brandi...It's ither..Nolan and me...or him...you can't have both of them...So question is...would the baby that you would have with josh...would he replace Nolan?"

Brandi James-Young: " Nolan can't be replaced...I love him...and ..."

Rick Young: " Awe am I spoiling your dream of having a whole baseball team of kids with Captain macho? You know the dream where you name all your son's after famous baseball players..problem with that is that Nolan is already taken..."

Brandi James-Young: " I can't chose..."

Rick Young: " No? Hmmm...don't love our son?"

Brandi James-Young; " Of course I do..."

[ I spun around to look at Josh and began to cry. I tried to speak but nothing would come out. Josh stood in front of me..and put his finger up to my lips. ] J

osh Beckett: " Brandi...I know how much you love Nolan.."

Brandi James-Young: " I love you too..."

Josh Beckett: " I know...and I love you.."

Brandi James-Young: " What am I going to do? Josh...I need to be with you.."

Josh Beckett: "We'll figure it out...for now you know the right thing to do..Don't you?"

[ I knew exactly what he meant. I had to say good bye and try to figure out later on what to do and a way for us to get back together. He leaned down and passionately kissed me...which irritated Rick. Who pulled us away from each other..]

Rick Young: "Lips of my wife! Now..."

[ Rick stood in front of me glaring..]

Rick Young: "Well? What's it going to be? Him or Me?"

[ My sobbing was uncontrollable..as I closed my eyes and took a deep breath shouting out.]

Brandi James-Young: " You...I want my son..."

[ Immediately I covered my mouth, and slouched. Looking at Josh who knew I would pick my son over him. ]

Brandi James-Young: " Josh...I'm sorry..."

[ He sighed and looked at Rick. ]

Josh Beckett: " It's ok babydoll...I understand..."

[ Leaning towards Rick he said. ]

Josh Beckett: " This isn't over..." [

Amused by my pain Rick chuckled. ]

Rick Young: "Oh, the fat lady has sung and is now eating the building...It's over for you both..."

Brandi James-Young: " Josh..."

Josh Beckett: " No worries..."

[ Was the last thing he said to me, as he winked at me. I knew that Josh would try his best to do what he could to make sure that both Nolan and I ended up with him. It may not be as soon as we'd like..but some day. I watched him walk away, wiping the tears as I did earlier. I was filled with so much emotion, I wasn't sure to feel sadness for not being with Josh, or anger for Rick doing what he did..or embarrassment for being out played. I looked at Rick and screamed. ]

Brandi James-Young: " I....I took you from your love...And now you took me from mine...Are we even?"

[ Rick turned his head to watch Josh drive away. He looked at me, and gently touched the side my face, softly kissing my cheek, as he whispered in my ear. ]

Rick Young: " You're wrong Brandi..."

Brandi James-Young: " How can I be wrong?"

[ He took a deep breath and exhaled. ]

Rick Young: " How can you take me from my love...baby you are my love. You and Nolan.."

Brandi James-Young: " I really hate you right now."

[ Rick shrugged then kissed me. ]

Rick Young: " You'll get over it...now let's go home."

[ Rick took my hand and dragged up the beach to the car. He opened the door for me, and I slowly got in not saying a word. Just as he has never seen the side of me that he did tonight..I've never seen this side him. I have to say...as angry as I am. I may sort of like it.]