No, theres is no story today. The story I have to tell doesn't have anything to do with the Lethal Lottery, so I'm just going to do you all a favor here in SFT, and skip over it. No, I'm just going to use this time to answer a question. It has been the one question everyone has been asking me since I joined the Lethal Lottery this year, and that is, why?
I'm in RWA, and my popularity is sky rocketing. And everyone knows, RWA and SFT are like, the Montagues and Capulets, the Hatfields and the McCoys...the Red Sox and the Yankees. There are no if's ands or buts about it. You're with one, and against the other. But not me. I don't know why RWA and SFT hate each other so much to begin with. I wasn't around at the time. I just know that one day, there was a split, and RWA was created. And since then, the Pettis name has been more soiled in the eyes of SFT, then Michael Vick's name to a representative from PeTA. I went to RWA because I was unsure of how I would be received by SFT, having the name Pettis. SFT was the place where my Mom wrestled her last match. It was where my step-dad had his most success. I want to be here so much, but there wouldn't be a point if people only looked at me for my last name. I was afraid I would work hard, and give my all, only to be marred by the fact that everyone hates my Uncle here. So I went to the place he founded, and the people I grew up around were either wrestling, or staffing. The people Mom and Will Schorg had come into SFT with when XCW and SFW merged. People like Nate, and Dan Lloyd. Aside from Kyle Murphy, the XCW crowd has all left SFT. But I still wanted to come here at some point. When I heard there was a place open in the Lottery, I saw my chance. I won't lie, I didn't want to have to go the long hard road to the SFT Title that I would've had to take if I had come here first. Consider me lazy if you want. But I looked down that road, and couldn't see the end. I saw another road running along side it, RWA. And I saw a chance to go to the top quicker then anyone else. So thats the way I went. Don't lie and say you wouldn't have if you didn't have the chance.
But don't think this is some confession of mine, saying that I only used RWA to learn, and perfect my skills, so that I could just come to SFT better, and ready to do something I wasn't ready to do before. RWA isn't a minor league. I love RWA, just as much as I love SFT. RWA has been challenging me, and it has been fun. But everyone knows I want that SFT Title. Its the holy grail that my mother was never able to get too, no matter how much she tried. I owe it too her to try to accomplish something she set out to do for her. And I wouldn't mind doing it for myself either. SFT was my home in the early part of my life. I love this place too. I tell Shawn Walsh that, and he gives me crap, and tells me how he feels they screwed him. I tell Harold that I love RWA too, and he tells me how RWA doesn't have respect for anyone from the past, because one person (or maybe two) decided to be immature. I'm torn, I really am. I feel like putting my efforts in RWA is turning my back on my past, and what made me who I am. But at the same time I feel like putting all my efforts into SFT is turning my back on my new friends, and colleagues that have been nothing but hospitable to me. What am I supposed to do? Harold brings up when I was younger, but what he doesn't realize, is that I don't have the same connections to that period of time that he does. Sure, I remember them, vaguely, but the connection isn't there. I'm not trying to say they weren't enjoyable, but what was a golden age to him, was just a period of time for me.
Dave Van Dam says he doesn't respect me because of the RWA banner. And thats fine with me. I don't need his respect. I don't live to try to get the respect of the guys from the past. I live to have the respect of the guys from the present. I want to have fun doing this, and I'm having fun in RWA. A win or a loss doesn't carry as much weight there it feels like. And the attitude between the staff and wrestlers feels a lot better. Sometimes in SFT, it feels like the staff is at the top of this million story tower, and they only periodically come down to the ground level with everyone else once in a great while. I know thats not really how it is, but thats just how it feels too me.
I love SFT. And I love everyone in it. I've never had a problems with anyone here. But I feel the same way for RWA. I'm torn between to rival factions, and neither one wants to accept the fact that I can love both. But the fact of the matter is, I do, so just accept it. My alliance with RWA isn't a slap in the face of SFT, just like my alliance with SFT isn't a slap in the face of RWA. If I can be part of both, I will. And I truly, truly do hope that I can be part of both. And that everyone can just accept me despite it. If you can't, thats your own damn problem.
