Dominic Pericolo :: Inamorata Pt. II

I never would have made it very far without her, you know. Suki Minamoto was always there with me as a child, as a teen and even as an adult. Her and I shared a bond like brother and sister, and I suppose that's why I never quite could see myself becomming infatuated with her at any time in the future. I had Crystal, I had my happiness, I had my future.

One night changed my future so drastically that I thought I had none left. It was the efforts of my father, Suki, my family and friends; even God helped steer me back on the pathway to a brighter future. All those many, many months ago when Suki came to me again, I felt so liberated. I felt so alive again...it was an amazing feeling. One in which would be hard to describe now, much like it would have been then.

And then...she left. Seemingly for good this time, her father had became ill and she was going to go and take care of him. I was crushed, I was alone again, and I missed her more then I thought I could. It was strange, there was a void inside of me I couldn't quite interpret. This, I suppose, you could call the start of my awakening to the feelings that I held for Suki. Over time, she kept her hold in my mind and made sure that each day I would be able to think about her with a sad smile, hoping one day she would return.

Little did I know that the hold she had on my mind would soon be released for my heart.

Before Suki came back, I was on a constant downward spiral once again, my depression hitting an all-time high. It had been years since I'd managed to fight through the pain and try to move on, and yet the night still plagued me. In fact, leading into HWF's King of Violence...Crystal was my reason for fighting. She was the reason that it took Shawn Collins and Steve Sharp both of their finishers to keep me down. I simply refused to go down without fighting with every breath I had, and that I did. I fought until I couldn't move anymore, I fought until I thought I wouldn't be able to breath.

I fought until my own blackout, as my spine, neck and head impacted the mat in the Downtown Connection. The Sharper Image nearly did me in, it was Shawn Collins who spiked the final nail in the coffin. And it was there that I seemingly lost chance, lost hope of that future I yearned so badly for.

And yet...Suki was there for me again. She comforted me, she reassured me. She believed in me.

She did something that many were afraid to do at that point in time, she really believed that I had a chance at making my dreams. And so she became my support as I fought my way back out of my loss, going on a tear for quite some time. She was what eventually brought me to fighting Steve Sharp for the world title. Unfortunately...I failed. I didn't capture the title, but I did earn the respect of many. I did what few men even dared to, I fought for my dreams no matter what the risk would be. I knew that Sharp was a veteran, I knew I was fighting a losing battle, and I KNEW I was the underdog leading into that match...

...but I didn't give up.

I never gave up.

I have a dream to fight for, and the one girl inspiring me to fight so hard for them is her, Suki Minamoto. She is my guidance, she is my light, she is my angel.

She's what's leading me into 'When Worlds Collide' to once again become the underdog, to once again take on odds so stacked against me that my very hope of winning is thinned to a mere line. A.E. Clipse, the second best wrestler in our bracket from Round One. And myself, the worst.

Myself, the underdog.

Even outside the HWF, I'm still the underdog. I'm stll the guy who's just like any other regular guy on the planet, the guy who's living a dream and fighting with everything he has in him to acheive them. I'm still that underdog fighting to get past the American nightmare, to live the American dream. I'm fighting reality, I'm embracing this world of dreams I've brought before myself in a vain attempt of propelling myself farther.

But I can't do this on my own, I can't beat A.E. Clipse on my own. I can't win When Worlds Collide on my own...I need her help. I need her support. I need Suki Minamoto.

It's funny how life works, really. Leading into the HWF I didn't believe that I needed anyone. Leading into When Worlds Collide, I thought I could take this place on my own. It took the love of another to open my eyes to reality, to wake me from this fairytale story I was hoping to find myself living in. What I once thought was a harsh, cruel reality is in fact a much kindler, gentler one then the one it once was. Reality has seemingly changed it's ways, it's looking up alot more now.

I've been given an angel to guide me down the path to my dreams, I've been given an inspiration, a new kind of hope. She's everything I ever wanted, no--everything I need. She...she completes me, and no one's ever done that since Crystal. I...God, what would I ever do without her? What could I do if Suki wasn't here for me? The very thought...it brings me to tears. To think that she means this much to me, to think that she's made such an impact on my life, to think...

..it's funny, I don't even know what to think anymore, my mind is so filled with thoughts of Suki that any attempted thought outside of her is slowly lead back in her direction. I can't even stay on the topic of When Worlds Collide, of A.E. Clipse...without being brought back to her once again.

I don't think I've ever felt emotion so honest and pure since Crystal and I were together..to say without a doubt that I truly love her, that if she were to ever leave again I don't think I'd have the energy or the desire to continue wrestling. It's amusing...so many men wonder what it takes to make Dominic Pericolo crumble and fall, and all it takes is the departure of one beautiful angel, one amazing person in his life that completes him and makes him who he is.

So many people have tried to hold the keys to my life, to make me back down and give in...and only one has been successful. The ironic thing is that that person also holds the keys to my heart, keys that I once thought would never be useable again. She..Suki's more important to me then my very dreams, dreams that I've held ever since my very childhood, dreams that I truly have fought for all of my life. To lose her would be losing a dream..losing the dream.

Suki has an effect on me that is life ending, life altering and life giving. She holds power over me, and in some ways it inimidates me while in others, I'm not afraid at all. You see, no one has given me so much without expecting anything in return. Suki just does them because it's who she is, she cares for me and wants the best for me..without her I'd be nothing more then a walking shell.

So long as I have her, though, I have a reason to keep moving here on Earth. The combination of my dreams and my love, that's the fuel that fires my desire to succeed. For myself, for my fans, for my family and for her.

She is the reason I'm here today, that I've came this far.

And she is the reason, A.E. Clipse, for the Messiah's inability to save you now.