Fuck those nightmares that haunted me for so long, and fuck everything that has happened to me in my past. I have a future now--I have something that I never thought I would have. I have a meaning, I have new dreams, and I have a reason. Suki Minamoto has opened me up to a future I didn't think I stood a chance of having. A future that I never thought was possible.

And now here I am...the struggle close to over.

Places I've made it to, things I've done, accomplishments that few men have the chance of saying. From my success in the HWF, to my nearly unblimished record in the NLCW...I've made my impact, and it's getting bigger. The main event of Avulsion...and against the X-Net champion. For once, things are really looking up for me. The NLCW is opening doors for me I didn't have in the HWF. I'm going farther, faster....and I'm not being held back by faults I've made along the way as I was in the HWF.

I almost made it to the finals of HWF's King of Violence. I almost defeated HWF's world champion for his title.

Almost. Almost. Almost.

It was always me coming close, always me not quite making it. Always me, refusing to believe in a dream right in front of me. Refusing to believe that the very key to my success could possibly lie in the very woman before my very eyes. There are things that I now know in the NLCW that never before could I have even began to process in my mind. Love, an emotion I hadn't felt back then since Crystal was around, and yet it seems so much stronger now from how I felt before. It's strange, it's as though I almost forgot what love felt like...like the emotions I had for Suki before, as overwhelming as they were, still didn't come close to true love--the emotions I feel now. Perhaps I really did forget what love felt like for awhile there...perhaps I almost forgot what it can truly do to a person, all the changes it can make for the better.

Now, however, I know...and there's some things that I never thought were possible, things such as my making it this far in the very industry that as a child I dreamed about entering, that are coming true now. They almost did in the HWF...but the NLCW is helping me realize these dreams, finally.

Jeremy...Diaz.

So I'm facing the X-Net Heavyweight champion...I have to say, I'm thankful. To hold such an esteemed title, you must be one of the most talented men in that ring that X-Net has to offer, and it's going to be an honor to face you. May the best man win, Diaz, I'll be happy to shake your hand after regardless.

All my life...I've been searching for the challenge that's awaited me. I'm not sure if, in the end, the NLCW will hold this challenge, but I must say that this is one of the most amazing experiences in my career. I'd like to thank those running this federation for the chance, I truly appreciate this. This is...this is incredible. I've made it this far in my career, I've fought this hard, and yet there's still so much more to go. This is an incredible feeling, you know, a feeling that I never thought I could feel outside of the HWF...and yet here it is again--and it's stronger.

Just like my love for Suki is now...everything has grown stronger.

There really is purpose here, there really is a meaning. No Limits Championship Wrestling, the name could mean so many things and yet it truly strikes home for me. This truly is a place where there are no limits to what you can do, no boundaries keeping you trapped from advancing. Even now, after overcoming my past and focusing on the future, even when my dreams shine through and my fears fade away...I'm still advancing. When it looked like it couldn't get any better, I was given the chance to make it better.

Sean Galen...I repayed my loss in spades, I've made up for my mistakes, and I'm moving on.

This place...has opened up so many doors for me in this business, and Suki has done so much to fuel me forward through these doors.

I just...well, after all of this time, I still can't truly believe that I've made it this far.

It really all seems like a blur, you know. Something that I honestly didn't think could happen. It's amazing sometimes, when you find out exactly what you're capable of. I still don't know if I have what it takes to make it to the top here, if I'll simply find myself stuck in the same ruts I found late in my HWF career. However, that doesn't mean I'll try any less because of it, as a matter of fact it makes me try even harder.

I'm the underdog again--just like when I first came here, I'll admit to that. I'll admit that in facing Diaz this week, I really am th proverbial guppy taking on a shark. Having been as focused on the NLCW and my own personal life as I have been...I've never really had time to follow X-Net and it's champions, and so despite Diaz appearing on NLCW television, I still haven't been able to get a good feel for the guy.

Who is Jeremy Diaz? What makes him tick? What's his in-ring style?

There's so many questions that I have in my mind about you, Diaz. There's so many things I can't help but wonder, and yet I honestly believe that I have no reason to worry. I don't believe that you'll cheat, I don't believe that you'll be arrogant about this. A part of me wants to believe that in a way, you're like I am, Diaz. That you're just as human as anyone else, just like myself. That you don't try to cover up who you are with gimmicks and masks or, as fate would have it, that title of yours...and that you let the world know who you really are.

That you don't hold back in the ring, that you don't let others push your beliefs to the side as though they honestly mean nothing to them. I believe, Diaz, that you will be my first taste of what's to come later in my NLCW career. Men like Violent A and Sean Galen can push me beyond my limits...but they've been to the top of the mountain, they've fought through their prime. I'm facing a man who's currently on top of his own mountain, a man who may very well be in his prime right now...and who won't stay down when I need him to.

Jeremy Diaz...X-Net champion.

I honestly can't wait for my chance to face you. This is two worlds--two seperate places linked together through a love for this business, colliding with one another and giving it their all just to prove which side--which person--is the better one...and I believe that we can make it that way for the fans.

Are you up to it, Diaz? Are you up to the challenge of giving these fans their monies worth, of truly putting on a wrestling match that they can enjoy? I'm going to throw everything I have at you, Diaz--just like I've always tried to do against whomsoever I face in this business; I'm going to give you everything that I possibly can. I'll expect no less from you, I'll expect nothing but the best. I know you can give me this challenge, Diaz, I know you can.

Here's hoping that I too give you a challenge, because when I face you I'm throwing everything I have in your face, and hoping for the best.

What happens after that, well, I suppose shall be decided by our will to win. Good luck, Diaz, we'll both need it.